goddess | elle greenaway x famous!reader
content warning: unlabeled sexuality, SA, douchy men, self-deprecating thoughts, soft elle, google translate spanish, laufey
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divider by @enchanthings
It always goes like this
Could have predicted it
I’m so naive to think you loved me for me
It was almost humiliating how many times you’d been in this position. Heels were abandoned at the door, makeup streaked down your face, and your heart felt too heavy to even make it to your own bedroom.
You threw yourself on your couch, dragging a blanket over yourself and taking your phone out apprehensively. Through your tears, you felt the hesitation of dialing that number.
The number you knew through and through.
You knew it by heart.
‘She doesn’t want to hear from you,’ that little devil whispered into your ear. ‘She’s so sick and tired of you and your bullshit.’
A whimper escaped your lips. You wanted to throw your phone and let it shatter on impact. But you never did.
Instead you clutched it tighter and shoved yourself deeper into the cushions of your couch, the memories of that night resurfacing.
Kissed as I ran off stage
Too old to play this game
Guess you’re still growing up at thirty
You met him on a quiet Sunday morning. You were at your favorite cafe and there he was, approaching you. Calling you beautiful, unlike any other girl you’ve met.
But most of all. He didn’t recognize you.
You detested dating fans. You already got your heart broken there before. You swore off of that.
He showered you with so much affection, you completely missed the signs.
Red flags always seemed normal under your rose-tinted view of the world.
Were you surprised by me
When you took me home?
When the glamour wore off
Reduced to skin and bone
You should have known it was all a lie.
You should have known he was just like all the other
You don’t know how long you sat there, wallowing in self-pity, but the sound of your phone ringing took you out of it for just a moment.
You pulled it away from where it was resting under the couch pillow and your eyes widened at the name.
Elle <3
Once again, you hesitated, your thumb hovering over the green button. You finally picked it up on the third ring.
“Ellie, hi!” You cringed at the way your voice nearly immediately cracked as you tried to feign your usual chipper mood.
“Hey lovely.” Her voice sounded so comforting. Even with just two words, you felt a twinge of warmth attempt to spread through your chest. “You okay?”
You cleared your throat. “Yeah, what makes you ask?”
“You sound like you’ve been crying. And it’s nearly midnight in LA, you aren’t usually this chipper this late unless you’re faking it.”
A sigh escaped you. You never could lie to her.
“You’ve always been so observant.” Your voice dropped the octave now that the facade faded.
“I hope so,” she chuckled lightly. “It’s kind of my job. Do you want to talk about it?”
‘She doesn’t mean it. She’s just being nice.’
“I don’t want to bore you with the details.”
She hummed in disapproval. “You know I always want the details from mi estrella.”
A sad smile slid on your face at the nickname given to you in your childhood; coined after you had gotten the solo in the choir concert.
‘Super star by day, best friend by night,’ 10-year-old Elle had quipped.
You huffed out a small laugh before it all fell away as you recounted your date that night.
“You remember Trevor right? Met him at that coffee shop on Melrose Avenue?”
You heard a pause on her end before she spoke again, her voice softer. “I do.”
“Well…I had a date with him tonight. Fourth one.”
“Oh.”
“Yeah. Oh.”
His lips pressed harshly into yours and his hands skimmed over your body as you struggled to keep up.
“I invited him to see me at a concert. My final one on my tour.”
I can’t even tell
Who you want to know
“Trev,” you had tried to laugh. “Slow down.”
Your words fell upon deaf ears as he kissed down to your jaw and began attacking at your neck.
“I um…I thought it was a good idea to invite him backstage when it was over…talk to him for a bit before I had to go out again.”
Elle listened as your tone got darker and darker, reliving your own fresh memories. She heard every bout of emotion in your voice. The pain that shone through from a broken heart.
He began lifting your skirt. You grew dizzy with nausea the more he continued.
‘This isn’t right,’ a tiny voice screamed at you.
“Trev—Trevor, please stop.”
Your hands found his chest, steadying yourself on it before pushing him away. “I said stop!”
“y/n…” Elle’s voice was a whisper now.
“I-I told him I didn’t want that. That I didn’t think we were there yet. He didn’t really like that…”
I’m a goddess on stage
Human when we’re alone
“What do you mean we’re not there yet,” he scoffed. “I’ve been waiting for basically two months for you to be ready.”
He moved in close again, placing a hand on your waist. “I’m so tired of waiting. I’ve listened to your stories, your music. Hell I even talked to that she-devil of a friend of yours, Bella.”
You couldn’t decide whether or not to feel disgusted or betrayed. “It’s Elle…You mean you didn’t want any of that?”
“I wanted you, baby…isn’t that enough.”
You cried freely now into the phone and Elle listened quietly, her own heart breaking for you.
“You’d be proud of me Ellie,” you sniffed. “I stood my ground. Told him no.”
“Yeah?”
You nodded, regardless if she’d see it or not. “Yeah… He didn’t really like it though. I had to call security to escort him out.”
“Did he put his hands on you,” she asked.
You bit your lip, the line going quiet for just a moment before you spoke again. “Do you think I can visit you? Just for a week or so?”
She frowned at the sudden change in topic.
“Of course you can, lovely.”
That next day moved so painstakingly slow for Elle. It was a paperwork day which meant she got to sit around anxiously as she waited for another call from you.
You had already called twice. Once to tell her you were leaving your apartment, twice to tell her your plane was about to depart from LA.
Hours has passed and now she awaited your call telling her you were at the airport waiting.
“Alright,” Derek quipped, rocking back in his chair. “What’s up with you today?”
Elle looked over at the man, lifting an eyebrow at him. “What do you mean?”
“You’ve been staring at your phone all day,” Spencer claimed, not looking up from his paperwork.
Elle’s attention snapped between the two men before finally settling on Morgan. “So?”
Derek grinned. “So…? You hate the phone Elle, now you look like you’re waiting for it to come to life in front of your eyes.”
The girl scoffed out a laugh, shaking her head.
“You know what I think it it,” Derek continued. “I think you’ve got Mr. Mystery you’re waiting on.”
Her smile halted for just a second at his words. She twirling the pen in between her fingers once then twice. “You’re delusional Morgan.”
Almost right on cue, her phone rang and Derek let out a laugh seeing the usually preserved woman scramble for it.
“Agent Greenaway.”
“So professional,” you mused, a sly grin sliding on your lips.
A smile eased onto her expression as she turned away from Morgan’s prying eyes. “Hola amorcito. ¿Cómo estuvo tu vuelo?”
“It was good, I slept the whole way here.”
“Eso es bueno. Lo necesita.”
“Rude,” you fake gasped. “Are you calling me grouchy?”
“Sabes lo que quise decir y/n.”
Morgan and Reid looked at each other as they listened to Elle’s end of the conversation, completely clueless as to what you were saying.
“Estaré allí en veinte. Estar segura. Te amo.”
Reid furrowed his brows curiously. He might not have been a whiz in Spanish, but he definitely caught those last words.
“Alright boys, you better behave.”
Spencer frowned. “Where are you going?”
“Wouldn’t you like to know.”
The two of you had spent the rest of the day together.
You didn’t want to go out, so she took you straight to your apartment and there you had the time of your life. You two binged movies, played board games, and now you were cooking together.
It was pure bliss and you couldn’t as for more.
“I missed this,” Elle mused.
You sat perched on the counter, your head laid comfortably on the cabinet behind you and you passed ingredients to the cooking woman.
“Cooking,” you asked with a giggle.
She looked over at you with a laugh. “Pass me the oregano would you. And no I don’t mean cooking. I mean being with you. Phone calls don’t feel like enough anymore.”
You twisted your body around as you shuffled through her spice cabinet. “Yeah,” you mused. “Hearing your voice is definitely what keeps me sane though.”
Elle’s heart stuttered at those words. The cooking spoon in her hand slowed it stirring and she looked up at you.
“I can’t find the oregano,” you mumbled, your attention now fully on the cabinet.
“…it’s on the second shelf,” she cleared her throat, pointing up to where it should be.
“I’m looking on the second shelf,” you whined playfully.
“Here,” she moved away from the hot stove and in front of you, leaving over your head to reach it. “It was right…there.”
She didn’t even realize what position she had put herself in until it was much too late. Either one of your thighs laid beside her hips. You looked down at her and you could feel her breath on you. You could smell her addicting perfume that you found yourself missing every time you two were apart.
It was like an invisible magnet between you two, beckoning the both of you closer and closer. So close that you felt her lips brush against yours.
It was like an epiphany to you. Everything clicked in your head.
The pauses over the phone.
The nicknames.
Hiding your phone calls from her team.
But just as the fireworks began to rise, they sizzled out before ever going off.
She pulled away, clearing her throat awkwardly.
‘You’re so delusional,’ that ugly voice hissed to you. ‘She’s seen the real you. The ugly you. Why would she want that?’
You swallowed hard and blinked away your tears. “Elle.”
She didn’t look over to you. Just focused on finishing the meal. “Yeah?”
You released a dying sigh. “Do you…do you think I’m unlovable?”
She had never looked up so fast. You would have thought the spoon burned her from how quickly she dropped it.
“What?”
You felt like the question was a plot for attention, but it wasn’t. It was probably one of the most genuine questions you asked in a long time.
“I- never mind. I’m sorry.”
Elle looked at you as if you grew a second head right in front of her. “y/n,” she moved back to that same position she had just run from. Except this time, her hands fell to your cheeks, caressing them oh-so gently. “How could you ask that question?”
You frowned. “How could I not?” It came out as a whisper. A moment of pure vulnerability. The first of its kind since that phone call last night.
“I’m not that impossibly perfect, beautiful super star they all expect me to be. I’m just…me. No one wants that.”
Elle shook her head, eyes scanning all over your face before finally settling on your eyes once more. “I want that.”
She felt you freeze under her grasp, but she continued on. “Every single failed date and false expectation was never your fault. You are…so incredibly talented, beautiful, and utterly amazing. In more ways than people give you credit for. If all these other people can’t love you the way I do, for you, then they don’t deserve you.”
Your breath stopped in your chest. Stuck. Unable to move in or out. “You love me? Or do you love me?”
You put that emphasis on your final words. There was no other way it could have been interpreted other than
“y/n, I am so utterly in love with you. I have been for a long time.”
Your hands found her wrists where you stabled yourself onto her. A smile broke free from your shocked expression. With a broken laugh, you surged forward, pressing your lips onto her’s in a kiss.
“I love you too.”
Translations:
“hi lovely how was your flight.”
“That’s good, you needed it”
“You know what I mean y/n”
“I’ll be there in twenty. Stay safe. I love you.”
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AN: I can’t believe I wrote that all in one night. It’s officially 3am as of posting, I’m not expecting this to get much attention, this was more self-indulgence if anything. I hope u guys like it tho
