Title: A Day For Forever
Author: beastlyinsane
Rating: PG
Fandom: B2ST
Pairing: HyunSeung & Fictional Girl
Word Count: 4473
Summary: No texts, no phone calls, or anything for a day, I dare you. Can you do it?
15th October 2010. This is gonna be the happiest day of the year.
Well, today is our second anniversary after all, so yeah I smiled more this morning. In addition, he just called me and wished happy anniversary for us, though it’s a little bit awkward. But whatever, I'm still happy. Guess what? I'm still in my room right now, sitting on my bed, looking over the window and smiling all over myself.
He is one of SooJae-unnie's best friends; he comes to our house almost every day. I'm getting closer to him, day after day. I think he is a nice and attractive guy, though a little sensitive but that’s okay, I can handle that. After a few months, when he come to our house sometimes he said, "I'm looking for Park HaYoung." instead of, "I'm looking for Park SooJae." Somehow, I'm really happy when he is looking for me.
I don’t really remember when I started to fall for him. I guess I just woke up one morning and I was like, "I love him." That's all. Ah, but of course I remembered when he confessed to me. Exactly two years ago, he was having a dinner at my house and helped me to wash the dishes. We talked about a few random things like usual when he called, "HaYoung-ah."
"Yes?" I continued to wash the dishes, ignoring the serious tone of his voice. He took a deep breath, "I love you."
"What did you say?" I asked in surprise and stopped washing.
"I love you. Do you wanna be my girlfriend?"
"Ah, come on. It’s not funny."
"It’s not a joke. I'm serious."
"I'm serious, look at my face. I'm not lying and I know you can see it." He said. The time had stopped. Oh my god, is this real? He really confessed to me?
I let out a small laugh when I remembered where I was that time. "Ya, why are you laughing?" He asked, looking a little bit pissed. "Nothing, it’s just you confessed to me while we're washing the dishes."
"What's the matter with it?"
"It’s just really spontaneous."
"Oh well so, what is your answer?" He looked away and looked at me again, I guess it’s a hard time for him to wait for my answer.
We looked into each other eyes for a few moments. Finally I smile before answering, "Yes."
"What?" I still remembered his expression that time, he looked really surprised.
"Yes, I want to be your girlfriend, HyunSeung."
"So... We're dating now?" He looked so happy.
"Of course you can. Why'd you keep asking this stuff?"
"Sorry, I'm just so happy."
I smiled, "Me too. Now aren’t you going to hug me?" The next thing I know, he was hugging me tightly. “I love you, Park HaYoung." He said, kissing my hair, to my surprise. "I love you too, Jang HyunSeung." I hugged him. He is so warm and really makes me feel safe.
A sudden knocks on the door wakes me up from my dream. It must be Unnie since she is the only one who always knocks the door, unlike my parents. "Yes?" I said and her face showed up behind the door. "Happy anniversary!" She said excitedly.
"Thanks, unnie!" I laughed.
"You’re welcome." She smiled.
"Anyway, why aren't you come in?" I asked
"I'm just thinking that maybe you need sometime alone. You know, smiling all over yourself and stuff?"
"I've done that already. Now, come on in." I gestured her to sit beside me on the bed. She smiled and come into my room.
Park SooJae or my older sister is a girl with a gorgeous smile. Her long hair is natural light brown and framed her small eyes perfectly. She has petite body, the type that makes you want to take care of. Well, she is pretty in conclusion. If you compared both of us, you can’t tell we’re sisters and she is the older one.
She is slight skinnier of course, but I’m taller than her. My hair is black and wavy, and not as long as hers. And our eyes are different, my eyes are quite bigger and I have a natural double eyelids. If you saw us together, you won’t think us as sisters.
"So, aren't you getting ready?" She asked.
"Okay, to be honest I don't know what I should wear." I shrugged, "Maybe just a T-Shirt and jeans or whatever."
"But this is your special day! Wear something special too."
"You know I'm not good in stuff like this."
"Want me to help you?" She asked. I thought about that for a moment. Yeah, unnie is a really fashionable girl but she is a lot more feminine, I'm just a girl with T-Shirt, jeans, and sneakers. "Come on, I'll pick something simple okay?" She said like she is reading my mind. "Okay, okay." I answered.
She got hyped up and started to messing with my wardrobe. I just watched her and playing with my hair. She said some things to herself like, "No, not this one," or something like, "This is too boyish." and stuff like that. I just whined and laying on my bed while I'm waiting for her. "Yeah, finally I found this!" She finally exclaimed.
"Found what?" I asked. "This cute blouse." She holds up something crème colored. "Oh, that blouse." I said shortly. It’s the blouse my mom gave me for my birthday a few months ago. Like I said, its crème colored. It has feather patterns on its collar, sleeve and around chest part. It’s cute actually, but it’s rare to see me wearing a blouse like that.
"Wear this and this first, I'll be right back." She handed me the blouse and a simple blue skinny jeans and left my room with the messy wardrobe. I sighed and quickly changed my clothes. I was tidying my wardrobe when SooJae-unnie is back with a simple white handbag and a pair of high heels in her hands, an excited smile plastered on her face. "Okay, what are you gonna do with those?" I asked her, my eyes are locked to the high heels.
"Not me of course, but you. Wear this." She handed me those stuff in her hands. "Uhm.. In case there is something wrong with your eyes, those are high heels." I said
"So? It’s not that high, trust me." She insisted. I sighed, looking definitely not convinced. "Its wedges, dongsaeng-ah. It’s not that horrible." She keeps trying to convince me. "Okay, okay." I give up and wear those high heels, or I must say wedges. Well, it’s not that high and not that horrible like she said. "It’s not that bad right?" She asked and I nod.
"Now, let’s do something with your hair, shall we?" She smiled. I nod and sat in front of the dresser. She grabbed the hair brush and started to brush my hair softly. "I really like your hair." She commented.
"Nah, my hair is a mess, unlike yours." I said
"Well, it is messy, but who knows that your hair is so soft? You just have to brush or comb it every day."
"Too lazy to do that." I chuckled.
“I know that is gonna be your answer.” She smiled.
She is done within minutes with my hair. She is like half tied up my hair, so there is still some of my hair hung around my back. My bangs are pinned to the side, but still covering my forehead. I looked.. Feminine. “Aww.. You are so cute.” SooJae unnie commented.
“Yeah, you’re the stylist.” I smiled, “You’re gonna be a good one someday.” She smiled wider; it has been her dreams to be a famous fashion designer or stylist in a famous magazine. “Thanks a lot.” She said.
“Anyway, do you want any make ups?” She asked teasingly.
“Of course not!” I answered immediately. She laughed, “Just kidding. You looked pretty and cute.”
“Thanks, but I still prefer T-Shirt and sneakers.” I shrugged.
“I know that. Anyway, when will he come?” SooJae unnie asked and I glanced at the clock. “He should be here in any moment, if he is not late.” I said.
“But he barely late.” Unnie said, and I nod. Just a few seconds after that, the bell rang. Both of us looked at each other and smile, “That must be him.” SooJae unnie smiled and both of us rushed downstairs to the door. “Wait, let me open this. You should be a surprise for him.” She said.
“Just listen to me.” She cut me off and hides me behind the door before she opened it. “Happy anniversary!” She said loudly. “Whoa, SooJae take it easy.” HyunSeung chuckled, “Thanks by the way.”
“You’re welcome. I can’t believe it’s been 2 years, huh?”
“Yes, you’re my soon-to-be sister in law.” I can feel his smile, “Anyway, where is HaYoung?”
“Somewhere, over the rainbow~” My sister started to sing.
“Wait a sec, HaYoung-ah!” She called me out thought I was right beside her. Then she grabbed me in a way so HyunSeung wont noticed that I was behind the door all long. “Here is your princess.” SooJae unnie said.
HyunSeung smiled when he saw me, so I smiled back. “Hey.” I greeted. “You’re pretty.” He commented.
“So, when I didn’t dress up like this that means I’m not pretty?” I teased.
“I said ‘you’re pretty’ that means you’re pretty every day, right?” He ended up teased me back. I ran out of words so I just said, “If you said so.”
“Come on, get going you love birds.” SooJae unnie pushed me out teasingly, “You made me jealous.”
“Okay unnie.” I laughed, “Bye.” I waved and she waved to us back.
“So, where do you want to go today?” He asked me as we walked.
“Anywhere will be fun, but do you want to watch movies?” I suggested ad I linked my arms to his.
“That should be fun.” He smiled, “Anyway, does that shoes didn’t hurt?”
“Well, Unnie gave this for me. She said it doesn’t gonna be that hurtful since this is a wedges, it’s not that tall anyway.”
“Tell me when your feet hurt okay?” He asked and I smiled, “Of course.”
Today has been one of the happiest day ever indeed. I spend the whole day with him, watching movies, having some lunch, taking some photos, and going out in the mall. Now, we were at a café, eating some chocolate cakes.
He brushed a hair out of my face, “Thanks for today, HaYoung-ah.” He smiled.
“You too, it’s been fun like usual.” I smiled and rested my head on his shoulder, listening to his heart beat. “Your feet didn’t hurt?” He asked. “A bit, but that’s okay.” I answered, our fingers are tangled together and his hand is cold.
“Are you freezing?” I asked.
“Your hands are cold, are you okay?” I asked, looking at his face. “You looked pale too.”
“I’m okay, my girl. I’m serious.” He smiled.
“Okay then.” I rested my head again.
He put his arms around me and kissed the top of my head, “What will you do if I can’t be by your side?” He suddenly asked. “I don’t know. Why do you ask?” I asked back. “Nothing, I just wanna know.” He answered. “Well, what will you do if I can’t be by your side?” I asked him. “I’ll miss you.” He answered shortly.
His answer made me blush, “I’ll miss you too then.” I said. He chuckled at my answer and said, “Can I give you a dare?”
“Dare? What dare?” I looked up at him.
“I dare you to stay away from me for a day. Can you do it?”
I get up from his shoulder and stare at him, “Why so sudden?”
“I just wanna know what both of us will do if we stay from each other for a day.”
“Do you wanna break up with me?” I asked carefully.
“Of course not, girl. Don’t get me wrong.” He brushed my hair. I looked into his eyes; those are still the same eyes from 2 years ago.
“I’m sorry, I’m just… Surprised you said that.”
He just smiled, “So, will you do the dare?” I looked at him deeply and I nod, “Yes, I’ll do it. But what will I get if I succeed?” I started to smile again.
“The reward, I’ll have you forever in my heart. Is that enough?”
“That’s more than enough.” I said, smiling. I don’t know exactly why he dares me to do that, but his eyes are sincere and I know that, I’m good at reading people emotions from their eyes. He wasn’t lying and well, that’s the only thing I know, more or less.
“And one more thing.” He said.
“No phone calls or texts or stuff like that, okay?”
After that café and weird dare, he took me home straight away. We talked about a few random things as we walked by, laughing like there is no tomorrow. We finally arrived at my home after around a half an hour.
He hugged me tightly before I go inside, “I’m gonna miss you tomorrow, my girl.” I smiled, “Me too, Oppa.” When we parted and I was opening the door, he does a thing that really shocks me. He pulls my hand again and kissed me passionately.
Of course we’ve shared a lot of kisses, but not like this one, this one is more deep and passionate. I kissed him back when I recovered from my surprise. He put his hand on the back of my head and pushed my head towards his, to deepen the kiss.
After a few minutes, we finally parted. “That’s… new.” I said. He laughed, “Do you like it?” I nod shyly and he brushed my hair like a kid. “Now go inside, it’s getting late.” He said and I just nod again. He let go of my hand and waved, “Goodbye, Park Hayoung, my girl.” I smiled wider, “Goodbye, Oppa.”
Luckily we’re on holiday season, so I don't have to avoid him at school because that will be hard. I spend my Sunday morning with Percy Jackson books –one of my personal favorite and a cup of hot chocolate. I haven’t done stuff like this for a while now.
After that, I went to the park near my house and had a jog there with SooJae. I told her about the weird dare and she just nod, “Good luck then.” She said. She seemed to worry about something but I don’t know what.
We finished after a half an hour and then she took the shower first. I was listening to some music while playing with my phone. I have to avoid the ‘Contacts’ menu and started to looking up for his name. Okay, I do search for his name on my phone but I keep with the dare, no phone calls or texts.
I hit the shower right after Unnie is done with her bath. I started to wonder what he is doing right now while I washed my hair. Does he think about me too? And though he explained why he threw the dare, but I’m still worried.
I hair-dried myself after I done, still got the uneasy feeling in my heart. I’m worried but not only because of the dare, there is something else but I don’t know what. I took a deep breath; maybe I’m the one who is worrying too much over stuff. There is nothing happened to him, I try to convince myself.
I read some novels and listening to my favorite music so I won’t think of him or worrying over him. It works for a while, but after the music stopped playing or the novel has finished, HyunSeung’s face keep coming back to my mind. God, this is gonna be a long day indeed, I really can’t wait for tomorrow.
I do anything I can to kill the time. Browsing, playing some games, working on my home works, drawing and all other stuff. Unnie locked herself up in her room most of the day. I don’t know why, she is acting strange today. Maybe she gonna talked about it in any time, she always do that so there is nothing to worry about.
Finally, hours passed and it’s almost 10 PM now, time to go to bed. Well, I can’t sleep before 11 but my parents said I have to sleep, or I must say get into my room at 10. Unnie came out from her room just for dinner and watched TV for a few minutes. I asked her what’s wrong and she answered she just tired.
I’m getting worried about her, there is something majorly wrong. Maybe it’s about her friends; she is always the place for everyone to tell their problems that I always think she will fit as a psychologist. Or maybe she got some problems with someone or something, about her studies maybe? I should ask her the first time in the morning.
Okay, scratch that. I’m going to call HyunSeung oppa first then I’ll ask her. And now that his name appeared again and again, I really can’t wait for tomorrow! I’ll ask him what he was doing because I’m curious and I miss him. HyunSeung-ah, what are you doing right now?
“Her whisper is the lucifer~”
I wake up in an instant when my phone’s alarm was ringing loudly. I rubbed my eyes and turned off the alarm. My house is quiet somehow, and I thought maybe my parents went for shopping or something and SooJae unnie went off somewhere since this is holiday, I’m home alone probably.
I looked up to the clock and I quickly noticed that it’s almost 9 AM; he should be awake by now. I looked up for his name and called him immediately. I’m waiting impatiently for him to pick up his phone when I heard someone was crying in front of my door and I forgot about my phone in an instant.
“HaYoung-ah!” SooJae unnie burst in my room without any warning. Her eyes were red and tears were running down her cheeks. “Unnie!” I said in shocked, “Oh my god, what’s the matter?” I hold her shoulders and brought her to my bed. Both of us sat down on the bed and she hugged me. I let her cried on my shoulder while I stroked her long hair softly.
“Sshh.. Calm down, Unnie-yah.” I said, my voice was surprisingly calm though I was panicked. After a while she stopped crying but she still looks miserable. “What’s the matter?” I asked softly. “I… It’s HyunSeung, he..” Her voice trailed off and she looked like she was going to cry again. “HyunSeung? HyunSeung oppa? What’s the matter with him?” I asked worriedly. Now, after that weird dare had finished, what have he done?
“He was… He just..” And yes, she was crying again. “What is it, Unnie?” God god god, what had happened to him? I was getting panicked. She wipes her tears with her hands and took a deep breath. “You have to come with me, okay? Get your jacket and shoes, I’m waiting in the car.” She said and quickly left my room, leaving me with the question marks around me.
I changed my boxers and T-shirt with something jacket, jeans and sneakers and followed SooJae to the care hurriedly. She started the engine right after I closed the door and drove to somewhere I don’t know. “Okay, now that we’re heading somewhere will you tell me what had happened?” I asked, almost in frustration.
She took a deep breath, “He didn’t tell you didn’t he?”
“Tell me about what?” I asked, “Is it about the dare?”
“The one I told you yesterday! The one he gave me, I shouldn’t meet him or anything.”
SooJae unnie groaned and hit the driver’s wheel. “Stupid. He should tell you.”
“What’s going on?” I repeated my question again. She just concentrates on the road and stay still, she seems like she was deciding whether she should tell me or not.
“SooJae! This is about HyunSeung, he is my boyfriend and I have the rights to know what happened to him. So will you tell me now?” I exploded, “Please, I’m really confused and I’m worried about him.” I added in a low voice.
She took a deep breath and said, “Before I tell you, prepare for the worst okay?” I hesitate at that question, thinking of what might be the worst. I gulped down my fear and said, “Okay, I’m ready.” I tried to sound confident but my voice was shaking.
Unnie’s hands were white from clutching to the steer so hard and her shoulders were shaking. “A month ago, he is diagnosed with 2nd stage brain cancer.” She said
“What?” That’s the only word that managed to slip out from my mouth. “How.. He..”
“I believe he had planned to tell you about this.” Unnie said
“But I didn’t know anything.” I said and SooJae just managed a nod.
2nd stage brain cancer, 2nd stage brain cancer, 2nd stage brain cancer. I tried to let that sunk in and process that line in my mind. Why he didn’t tell me? And why I didn’t notice it earlier? “Then what happened to him? The reason you cry.” I asked, my voice turned so weak.
“He just did a surgery yesterday.”
“What? And then what happened?”
“The surgery didn’t work well; his body keeps rejecting the medicines.” She said, waiting for my answer. When I didn’t, she continued. “He is suffering right now, the doctors didn’t know until when he can survive.”
The time froze. I don’t know when are we arrived at the hospital, I didn’t know what does my sister asked to the receptionist. I just realized that SooJae grabbed my arms all the way, leading me to HyunSeung’s room.
I saw HyunSeung’s mom and Jang Geurim –HyunSeung’s little sister in front of a room, seems like Geurim was asleep and Ahjumma just cried. “Ahjumma, how is he?” Unnie asked immediately.
“Oh, SooJae-ah.” She smiled bitterly, “No progress. The doctor still doesn’t know what the reason is.” Then she noticed me, standing still behind my sister.
“HaYoung, my child! I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you earlier, I thought you already know.” She said to me.
“It’s okay, Ahjumma.” I said quietly
“You won’t go inside now?” She asked both of my and Unnie. I turned to SooJae, “You can go first. I’m gonna.. Wait here for a while.” She nod and left to the room with Ahjumma.
I sat beside Geurim and she woke up when I accidently touched her thigh. “I’m sorry, Geurim-ah. Go back to sleep if you’re tired.” I said. “Unnie-yah.” She hugged me and I hugged her back. “How is Oppa?” I asked. She shook her head sadly, “He is not gonna survive.” “I hope he will, dear.” I said.
“He won’t. I think the only reason he is still there because… He is waiting for someone.” She said quietly, “He is waiting for you, you should go inside.” I dropped my arms from her, thinking of what had she said. SooJae went out from the room after a few minutes she spends inside. “HaYoung, you wanna get inside now?”
“How… What will happen if he stopped waiting?” I asked, my voice was trembling now.
“Waiting? Waiting for what?” Unnie asked.
“In my opinion, the only reason he survived until now is because, he is waiting for HaYoung unnie to meet him.” Geurim answered. I looked at her, she looked tired and sad. “I can’t bear to see him like this, Unnie.” A tear fell down to her cheek. I took a deep breath and said, “I’ll… I’ll meet him now.”
Ahjumma went outside when she saw me going in and squeezed my shoulder. I just nod at her and sat on the chair near the bed. I looked down at my hands before I took a look at him. He looked awful with those machines around him. His face was so pale, paler than the last time I met him.
I hold his hand, which is so cold. “Hey.” I managed to say, “I miss you.” I touched his face. “You know what? You should tell me about this, you should at least tell me that you were suffering from a cancer. Do you know that I’m worried sick?” I started to cry.
“Why you didn’t tell me, Oppa? I was shocked and I didn’t know what to do.” I put my head down on the bed. “HyunSeung oppa.” I whispered and looked at him again. I noticed that he had tears in his eyes as well. “Oppa? You hear me?” Then he flashed off a small weak smile before the machines started to sound odd. I noticed what was happening and cried harder, someone pull me from the room before I saw people with white clothes started to checked him.
The funeral ceremony just ended an hour ago and here I was, in his room. His room was clean and packed with things that remind me of him. Geurim is right indeed; he has been waiting for me. And now, he had… passed away.
I was tidying his desk half-consciously when I found a note that is addressed to me. I hold my breath and hesitated before I read it. I clenched my hands the way I did when I was nervous and opened the note. I read it for a few minutes before I cry again and sat on the floor. Jang HyunSeung, I miss you.
HaYoung -ah. I'm really sorry I didn't tell you about this okay?
But I just don’t wanna see your sad face. Whenever I wanted to tell you, your face is so happy and I can't say the news. I'm so sorry my girl.
And congratulations! You just succeeded with the dare. You can stay away from me for a day; can you do it every day? I know you can, you're a strong girl.
P.S: I love you and I always do. Though you can’t see me, I'll stay in your heart. From now on, I'm your guardian okay?
P.P.S: You got my blessings if you're gonna get a new boyfriend by the way.
