So here I am tryna fill out this students with disabilities paper again. And I still can’t make decisions.
I decided last year to try and get accommodations. Never went through with it. I kinda felt like it was cheating. I did alright, but I never slept and had too many damn breakdowns. So this year I need to actually fill out the paperwork. Which is still as difficult for me as last year.
I’m an adult (so they say) i should be able to do this. But I can’t seem to do it. I have to fill out what kind of accommodations I need. But I don’t know! Most of the time my teachers just worked with me (when i was in grade school). I had an Individual Education Plan, but I kinda was forgotten in the system.
I lose focus easy, zone out, take longer to complete assignments and understand some material. But I am in no way stupid. IDK. Then there’s the stimming, and I worry what my roommate will make of me. It literally took all my courage to try to talk to my doctor this summer about my difficulties and was kinda brushed off. He increased my dosage on meds that don’t quite work, and I have issues verbalizing whats going on.
The more I think about it, the more I stress.