I heard you identify as sex repulsed, and I’m wondering what that means for you. I kind of feel like I’m sex repulsed, but everyone else I’ve heard talking about it always describes it as they feel like throwing up or something whenever they see something sexual. For me I just feel a little uncomfortable.
Same for me, to be honest. It feels iffy, would-rather-move-on-to-something-else, and I definitely won't look at it if I can avoid it, but it doesn't make me want to throw up immediately.
What does make me deeply sick is mostly imagining myself in that kind of scenario. Sick and scared. But when it comes to other people, I guess it's kinda hard to avoid, so if it's shoved in my face, my brain will just go "ugh" and turn away from it, like if I was in front of a turd or if someone described a turd in detail to me. It's not a great sight and I don't wanna keep looking at it or listening to it, but in a world where it's very hard to avoid the proverbial turd to pop up... Yeah. You build a bit of a resistance I guess. And I can discuss it if in a constructive way where I feel I can get some personal learning out of it, from a more like, technical or exploratory POV... As long as it's discussed with detachment and in a manner that never ever involves me personally.
At least that's my experience of it.
