It’s all so familiar, an old spell he’d forgotten how good it felt to cast.
my two part piece for @pricklepicklepie as part of @naddpodgifting! the first part is the fic linked above (and here!), and the second part is the art based on it! i unabashedly stole your jolene and lucanus designs because they're so awesome, and i had so much fun writing them, so i hope i did their dynamic justice!!
𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕: 4.6K - this was not meant to be this long, oops.
𝒂/𝒏: I'm feral for Joel Miller and I won't apologise for that. This ended up so much softer than I planned but Joel Miller deserves to be loved, goddmit. part two is already in progress ~ no beta, we die like men
𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔: 18+ - smut, post-apocalypse, pre-Ellie, age gap (mid/late 20s!reader x early 40s!Joel), first time, loss of virginity, fingering, oral (f!receiving), unprotected sex (wrap it kids), Joel Miller has a big dick, risky creampie, multiple orgasms, dirty talk, manhandling, angst, implications of rape (does not involve reader or Joel), soft!Joel, fluff, idiots in love, innocence kink, Joel Miller is down bad. - minors do not interact.
𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚: Sometimes when I look into your eyes, I pretend you're mine, all the damn time
Joel had found you cowering in the corner of a store in some godforsaken town somewhere in deep Texas, the twitching body of an infected splayed in front of you. He’d eyed you cautiously, keeping his distance, gun pointed directly at you, not afraid to pull the trigger.
“No, please, no. I’m okay, I’m fine, not bitten. I promise. Please” you were frantic, begging for your life.
“Just the one?” He’d asked, voice gruff and dark, he exuded danger.
You nodded “It was out the back, I checked but I didn’t see it, then it just came out of nowhere”
He nods once “You alone?”
“Yeah, it’s just me” you hadn’t moved from your spot on the floor, hands raised in surrender, shaking in fear.
“Christ” the man mutters more to himself than to you, giving you the once over he lowers the gun “C’mon, I’m not leaving you here”
Your time together was meant to be brief, Joel had planned to find you somewhere safe to stay, people you could live your life with, some sense of normality. Life would never be like it was before the outbreak but maybe he could find you a new version of living.
It took two months to find the first group of settlers but Joel didn’t even let you near them, he’d checked them out alone, swiftly deciding it wasn’t a safe place for you, he didn’t say why. Another six months until the next group, they initially seemed better but the cries echoing outside the commune at night told Joel all he needed to know.
It’s been exactly 2 years since he found you in that abandoned store, you’d managed to survive for six months, barely, living in a constant state of fight or flight. And then Joel came, Joel who took a chance on you, who shared his supplies and taught you to survive. Joel, who stood watch and let you sleep despite being exhausted himself, who bandaged your wounds, and made his own life harder just to make yours a little bit easier.
Joel, who would watch the world burn just to make sure you were safe.
You could still to this day, pinpoint the exact moment you fell in love with Joel Miller. You watched the world burn. Well not the world, just a decrepit cabin on the side of a road somewhere in Texas. He'd thought it was safe, he’d checked and double checked, the place was free of infected, or so he thought. The thick knit of your scarf was the first thing that saved your life that night, when the infected had come at you from behind, jumping out of the dark and going for your neck. Joel hadn’t even hesitated, gun drawn and a bullet in its skull before you could even cry out for help. He’d reached for you, entwining his fingers with yours as he dragged you out of the building, kicking the cap off a gas canister as he went and throwing a lighter behind him as the door had shut. He pushed you ahead of him, protecting your body from the flames licking at the dry timber frame behind him.
You realised you loved him, were in love with him, laying on the dusty ground, with Joel’s imposing body shielded yours. You felt safe, he was firm behind you, chest heaving with laboured breaths, arms wrapped around you, keeping you close, muttering softly into your ear, “it’s okay, it’s okay, I got ya”.
So by the time you came across the third group you’d become quite the survivor. Joel had taught you to defend yourself, how to shoot a gun, how to actually use a knife, the weak spots of a man. You’d wondered why he was teaching you this, why you needed to know how to break the grasp of hands around your throat, how to use his body weight against him. When you’d stumbled across a group of men, animals really, surrounding a woman on her knees, her sobs echoed in your ears and you’d immediately searched for Joel, hands shaking as you grasped at his arms, eyes wide and terrified, you finally understood.
“They… they. Shit Joel, they were…” He didn’t need you to finish, he knew what they were doing. Within 20 minutes he had you both packed and on the road.
You felt like you’d been walking for weeks, in reality it had only been three days but you were exhausted. You were heading East, Joel had heard about a group of women that had settled just across the state border. You trudged slowly behind Joel, the unseasonable heat making you sweat, boots kicking up dust with every step, lost in your own thoughts.
“What’s bugging you?” Joel’s voice pulled you from your thoughts
“We should’ve helped her,” you confessed. It didn’t sit right, that you just left her there for those men to take what they wanted
“There’s nothing we could’ve done, no guarantee she’d be safe in the next place” he’d explained softly
“Is that why you’ve not left me?” The question slips from your lips before you can stop it.
Joel stops, his eyes meet yours but he doesn’t answer, he can’t, can’t admit that he won’t leave you, can’t admit why he won’t leave you. He can’t admit that he loves you.
Darkness has fallen by the time you reach a safe house, a favour from a friend, he’d said. The house was neat, tidy and clean, if not a bit dusty. Joel clears downstairs first, checks upstairs and calls you up to the bedroom. A small puff of dust is released from the bed as he drops your bags. One bed. There’s two of you and more than one bedroom, but you know he won’t let you out of his sight. He won’t risk it.
“Joel?” you croak, voice trembling as you sit on the end of the bed.
“Hmm?” He’s stood by the dresser opposite the bed, removing his jacket and boots.
“I… there’s something- uhh, shit” you pause, taking a shaky breath “listen, please don’t make a big deal of this but I want you to fuck me”
“Darlin’, I’m not gonna do that” he responds almost immediately, doesn’t give himself time to even think about it, doesn’t let himself indulge in the possibility.
Not that he’s not thought about it, God knows he has. He’s wanted you, wanted to feel your lips on his, feel your nails claw at his back as he takes you. But you never gave any indication you wanted it too, so he stayed respectful, well, as respectful as he could. There’d been nights he’d fisted his cock, your name a whisper on his lips as he came into his hand, while your sleeping body lay just inches away.
“Please” you barely whisper, he goes to speak, to reject you again, but you cut him off, “Joel, please. I don’t- I want it to be you, I don’t want it to be like that” your eyes are pleading, silently begging “please”
“You’ve not…? There’s not been anyone?” He asks tentatively, hoping he’s misunderstood, that you’re not actually asking that of him, he crosses the room, sitting next to you on the end of the bed.
“I’ve been kinda busy, what with the end of the world and all that” you try and make a joke but it falls flat, sobering, shining a light on all the ways your life has been taken away from you, all the experiences you’ve missed out on.
It shouldn’t be him, he knows it shouldn’t, he’s so much older, he’s cruel and ruthless and angry. You deserve something else, soft, gentle, loving. He can’t give you that.
But if he doesn’t, if he says no and doesn’t do this for you, there’s no guarantee the next guy is going to love you, no guarantee that he won’t hurt you. For Joel, that decides it, he can’t give you what you deserve but he can give you something better than what’s out there.
Cautious fingers on his leg startle him out of his thoughts, “Just once, just this once” His agreement doesn’t soothe you, it ignites something, butterflies rolling in your belly; you want this.
You’d seen other men on your travels, the way they treated women, both good and bad. You’d thought, naively, that Joel might be like that too, that Joel might take you to his bed, fuck himself into you then roll over, pretend it never happened. But he never did, always respectful, barely ever touching you unless he had to, you’d shared beds, and bandaged each other up, but he’d never touched, never taken it further. “All right?” He nudges when you don’t respond
You nod tightly and whisper a “thank you”, sitting quietly in awkward silence, you don’t know what to do next, you’ve read books, you knew how to do this before but you didn’t know how to deal with an arrangement like this.
Joel breaks the silence first “Do you want to… tonight or would you rather w-?”
“Tonight,” your response is a bit quick and Joel huffs an almost laugh “tonight is good”
You don’t know how to phrase ‘lets just get it over and done with’ when you’re about to fuck someone for the first time. He stands then, grabbing something from his bag then dropping it to the floor. Liquid sloshes as Joel brings the flask to his lips, drawing in three times, brow furrowed. He hands the flask to you “Drink” and the look in his eyes tells you not to question him.
You take a sip and nearly retch, the taste burning your throat and nose, eyes watering. You hadn’t liked whiskey much before and while it’s rare to find anything else these days, you still hadn’t got used to the taste. You take another sip, stomaching this one better. You hold the flask back out to Joel and he takes another drag before placing it on the dresser with slightly more force than he meant.
In two steps he’s back across the room, his hands finding your face, calloused fingers dragging along the skin of your jaw, bringing you to meet his lips. The kiss is bruising and feverish, hot lips pressing to yours, he licks into your mouth and you moan, it’s sinful and sweet and Joel wants more. He wants to pull more pretty noises from you, wants to hear you scream his name. His cock responds eagerly, hardening in his jeans, he’s not felt desire like this in years, it’s burning through his blood, overwhelming his senses.
Joel stands between your legs, tilting your chin up, bringing a knee to rest on the mattress between your thighs. One of his large hands moves to support your neck, the other tracing the line of your throat, gripping gently. The kiss has grown sloppy, Joel is breathing hard, nipping at your lips. His knee between your legs moves to press into your clothed core and despite the layers of fabric you can feel the heat of his thick thigh, your hips roll, chasing more pleasure and a groan escapes your throat unexpectedly.
Joel’s hand drops from your throat, following the neckline of your shirt, down between your breasts, flicking the buttons open, exposing you to the humid air. He pushes the flannel off your shoulders, taking the straps of your bra with it, reaching behind you to unclasp it, inwardly pleased he managed the first try.
You slide your hands to his waist, dragging his shirt with you, brushing your fingers across bare skin. Your fingers trace the waistband of his jeans but he reaches for your hands, wrapping a large hand around your wrists he pushes you flat, pinning your arms above your head. The other hand joins his knee between your legs, fingers teasing the seam of your jeans.
“You asked me to fuck you,” he pulls a nipple into his mouth, teeth nibbling at the sensitive bud “n’ I will” It may have been a while but it’s really just second nature to him and he feels you shiver beneath him “gonna make you feel good darlin’”
“Joel” Your throat is dry and your voice cracks but it’s enough, his hands reach for the button of your jeans, working them down your legs while his mouth assaults your breasts. You can’t focus, it’s too much, his mouth, hands, the feel of his body, large and imposing over yours. He finally gets your jeans off, discarding them to the floor.
You reach for him, finding the buttons of his shirt, tugging gently but making your intentions clear, he allows your trembling fingers to fumble with the buttons for a minute before helping you, making quick work of the buttons, all but ripping the shirt down his arms, throwing it to the floor behind him before positioning himself between your thighs.
Joel’s hand runs up your outer thigh, fingers digging into the flesh of your bum. He trails kisses over your skin, behind your ear, down your jaw, across each of your breasts, fingers playing with the nipple neglected by his mouth. He moves his head down your exposed torso, tongue tasting the salty sweat on your skin you gasp softly as he reaches the waistband of your underwear, black lace, a little luxury that makes you feel pretty and feminine. He nudges the fabric with his nose, breath ghosting over your skin and you shiver,
“You don’t have to” you whisper into the darkness.
A soft “yeah I do” is mumbled into your skin. He makes quick work of removing your underwear, dragging the lace down your legs and dropping them to the floor in a rather obscene gesture.
His mouth is back on your hips working his way to nuzzle at your folds, leaving open mouthed kisses and grazes of his teeth on your skin. His hands press against the back of your thighs, pushing your knees up to your chest, spreading you wide. Joel’s eyes roll back in his head at the sight of you, pussy glistening in the dim light, the low growl that sounds in his chest shakes the bed and it takes all his restraint to take it slow, make it good for you.
“This all for me?” He rubs his thumb through your folds, gathering your wetness and spreading it up to your clit, circling the little bundle. You look down at him between your spread thighs and nod.
The sound you make when Joel flattens his tongue and licks a stripe up your cunt is unholy, and when he flicks his tongue against your clit you can’t help the way a hand reaches for his hair and tugs, nor can you help the sharp cry of his name.
Languid, is the word you’d use to describe the way Joel works at your cunt. Long, slow, lazy circles around your swollen clit, soft passes over the entrance to your cunt, not giving you more than that for what feels like hours. You catch on, quite quickly, that this is as much for Joel as it is for you, and you think he might be enjoying it the most.
Joel hums around your clit, sucking it into his mouth, and the arch of your back is violent, a stark contrast to Joel’s gentle movements, biting down on the fleshy part of your thumb to muffle your scream.
“Don’t do that” a hand reaches up in the dark to pull your fist from your mouth, “wanna hear you” his breath is hot against your core, tongue lapping at you like a man starved.
You’re hot, skin prickly with a layer of sweat, hips rolling, pushing your soaked pussy into Joel’s face, your clit catching on his nose as he teases your entrance with his tongue.
“Jo-el” your voice is whiny to your own ears and your face heats at the sound “more, please more”
Joel lets out a hum at your request, bringing two thick fingers to slide into you and already you feel the intoxicating spark of your orgasm approaching. Your cunt clenches around his fingers and the feeling shoots straight to his cock.
“I’m gonna cum,” you breathe, your grip in his hair painful even to you. “Fuck, fuck, I’m gonna cum, Joel”
You’re so close that when Joel crooks his fingers and continues his assault on your clit, your orgasm tears through you. You stiffen, hissing a “Yesss”through gritted teeth, hands clawing at the sheets and Joel’s hair.
“‘Atta girl” he coos around your clit “tha’s it baby” The sound of Joel’s voice is muffled by the ringing in your ears and when you open your eyes all you can see is stars, flashes of white clouding your vision.
Sensing his movement, you open your eyes and when they’ve adjusted to the darkness again, you can see the burly outline of Joel kneeling between your legs, his eyes drag down your body, fingers of his left hand gently caressing the bend of your knee. You sit up, reaching for his belt, tugging at the buckle. Joel watches as you pull his belt free, fingers ghosting over his length confined in the denim as you pull down the zip.
When your fingers dip inside to grasp him he can’t stop the choked “fuck” that escapes his throat. Pulling him free of his boxers, your jaw drops at the size, fuck he’s thick, so thick, and swaying heavily between his legs, dripping with precum. With hesitant fingers you run the pad of your thumb down his slit, smearing the fluid, stopping to rub your thumb on the underside of his head. Joel can’t help the jerky twitch of his hips at the stimulation. You take that as a positive, repeating the action once, twice more, before calloused hands still your movements. You look up to Joel, confusion clear on your face.
“Won’t last if you keep that up” Joel explains, his voice a whisper, vulnerability evident even in his low tone.
You release his length from your grasp, bringing your thumb coated in his arousal to your mouth, sucking tentatively. You don’t notice Joel watching you through hooded eyes, but he makes quick work of his jeans and boxers, kicking the offending fabric off as quick as his aching bones will let him.
Experienced hands lift your legs to hook over his hips as he settles himself between your thighs again. You can feel the thick length of Joel’s cock pressed firmly against you, sliding through the wetness left by his mouth and your orgasm as he ruts against you. It takes the entirety of Joel’s willpower to not fuck into you, coming back to himself, he remembers why he’s doing this.
“Gotta tell me if y’need to stop” he slurs against your temple and he feels you nod as he presses a soft kiss to your clammy skin. Joel rests the heavy weight of his cock against your entrance, running the head between your folds, bumping your clit and soaking himself with your wetness. He presses himself in to your tight heat and you feel like you’re being split open, wincing at the burn “I know, ‘m sorry darlin’, it won’t hurt for long promise”
Joel pushes your sweat-damp hair out of your face, big hands cupping your face, open mouth dragging against yours. He tries to distract you with wet kisses to your jaw but when he pushes himself deeper you cry out, hands flying to claw at his hips, stopping him from moving any further.
“We can stop” Joel mutters into your open mouth but you give a quick shake of your head
“No. I’m okay, I’ll be okay” The feeling is foreign, neither his fingers or tongue could’ve prepared you for the stretch of his cock, nor the desperate ache that settled deep inside you, the one you know only Joel can satisfy.
You can feel him throbbing inside you, and it’s taking everything in him to hold still
“Eyes on me darlin’” Joel orders as he pries your hand off his hip, entwines his fingers with yours, and pins your hand to the mattress. Your eyes meet through the darkness and there’s a softness in Joel’s eyes you wish you could bottle and keep.
You tense up in anticipation of Joel’s next movement, squeezing your cunt around Joel’s cock
“Fuckin’ Christ darlin’, y’gotta relax, just relax” you will your body to relax, to release the squeezing of your core, “that’s it, doin’ so good, you’re doin’ so good. Takin me so well” and yes, you keen at his praise, the throb of arousal in your stretched cunt is heavenly and Joel takes your moment of distraction to sink the rest of his length into you.
“Fuck” you whimper, the sharp stretch shocks you, eyes widening.
He shudders a breath above you, “‘m sorry, ‘m so sorry”
“So big Joel. ‘T hurts” you practically sob and the sound breaks his heart in ways he didn’t expect. Joel breaks eye contact first, fixing his eyes on where you’re currently impaled on his cock. He moves to pull out but you tighten your thighs, keeping him still “No, don’t. Don’t wanna stop. Just give me a minute” you close your eyes and breath in deep through your nose, letting a shaky breath out.
“Touch yourself,” Joel orders, bringing your hand still clutching his to his mouth, wetting your fingers with his tongue before pressing your fingers against your clit “‘t’ll make you feel better”
You obey, stroking your bundle of nerves, still sensitive from your previous orgasm “that feel good?” He asks as you tighten involuntarily around him.
“Yes,” you pause for a moment, continuing to stroke at your clit. Warmth blooms under your fingers, arousal spreading through your body, loosening your muscles, the discomfort subsides, leaving behind a different kind of ache “can you move? Please”
The way you ask him, with your pleases and thank yous, still so polite despite the harsh world you live in, it’s innocent and sweet, and he loves it. It activates something primal in him, some deep desire to protect you, to please you. To pleasure you.
Joel settles his knees wide on the mattress, pulling his cock from your depths before pushing back in slowly, when you don’t stop him he repeats the action. “shit darlin’, so fuckin’ tight”, and he’s not wrong, the girth of his cock is stretching you in ways you’ve never been before, you can feel every vein, every ridge, every goddamn fucking inch as he works himself in and out of you. It’s steady, controlled, almost gentle, the way he rolls his hips, leaving enough space between you for your fingers to continue working your clit, not that you need the distraction anymore.
He could cum right there, your aching cunt absolute bliss around him. The whine that leaves your throat is of pleasure not pain and the tightness in his chest borders on uncomfortable. He’s done this before, he’s experienced, he’s had women screaming his name but nothing compares to the breathy sound of his name leaving your lips. You’re so sweet, eyes fluttering, fingers ghosting across the skin of his hips, the softness of his belly, the firm muscles of his chest and his broad shoulders.
You could pretend, wrapped up in Joel like this, that it’s not the end of the world, that this comfy bed in this nicely decorated house is yours and Joel’s. You pretend, just for a minute, as he’s fucking himself into you, that he’s yours. Your hands reaching to wrap around his back, nails scratching at the muscles working beneath the skin, it’s intimate.
You feel his pace falter, “‘m close darlin’” he mumbles into the thick air above you, “fuck, y’gotta come for me baby, come on” it sounds like he’s begging and you find that you quite like the sound of Joel begging, especially when he’s begging you to cum for him.
He can see you’re close, legs twitching, breathing heavy, he can feel the tell-tale flutters in your cunt and he knows “what d’ya need?” He pants, chasing your high, no care or regard for his own anymore, he just wants you to get there.
“Joel, I need mo-” he drives himself into you deeper, tilting his hips to rub his cock against your sweet spot. With fluttering eyes and heaving chest you whine a tight “that’s it” fingers working furiously at your clit, hips rocking down as you meet his thrusts “Joel, yes” you groan, the sound reverberating in your chest.
He feels your cunt squeeze him “tha’s it, good girl”, he needs to stop or he’ll cum but you don’t care, continuing to rock your hips, thrusting down forcefully against him, cock reaching deeper than you thought possible and you tense, muttering a “fuck” as you cum hard around him. You can’t comprehend that this is what it feels like, the violent quivering of your muscles, tight and squeezing. Fuck, you don’t want to let this feeling go, Joel’s cock buried so deep inside you it hurts, you never want to cum without this ever again.
Joel gives a few tight thrusts, “Shit, what a sight” He has to pull out, he can’t cum inside you, can’t take the risk but the rhythmic pulsing of your walls is dragging him kicking and screaming to the edge. You let out a breathy “inside Joel, inside,” the way you say his name sends a shiver down his spine, but the way you moan the softest “please” has him cumming, cock twitching violently, hips rocking, pushing his release deeper.
His mouth meets yours roughly, ragged groans escaping between harsh kisses as he continues to pump inside you. He can’t remember the last time he came this hard, beyond satisfied and completely drained but he still can’t break his lips from yours. The kiss is soft now, tender and lazy, something close to loving. His sweaty weight above you is grounding, bringing you back to reality.
Joel groans and drops his forehead to your chest, cock still buried deep you can sense his reluctance to part from you, you tangle your fingers in his hair, allowing him to rest against you. He stays for a minute or two before groaning, aging knees and shoulders protesting as he hovers over you.
He moves slowly, dragging his softening cock out from your over sensitive heat and you moan low in the back of your throat as he disappears, returning from the en-suite with a damp towel,
“There’s warm water” he mumbles as he wipes the towel gently between your legs. You hum contentedly, your tired body drowsy and dopamine drunk. You briefly think about the long hot shower you’re going to take in the morning when the bed dips next to you and Joel reaches for you, rolling you into his side, your head on his chest. If you had more energy you’d say something but the gentle caress of Joel’s thumb behind your ear and the slow thump of his heartbeat quickly has your eyes closing and your breath steadying.
“Was that” Joel pauses, what, good? All right? Just okay? he thinks it’ll kill him if it was bad for you
“Good, it was good” you offer him a soft smile “thank you”
“Christ darlin’ so fuckin’ polite” he can feel himself stirring again beneath the sheets, and fuck he’s depraved, he’s convinced you could make him cum just by saying please.
Joel must think you’re asleep and you feel it more than you hear it, his whispered admission of “love you” spoken into your hair as he presses soft kisses to the top of your head.
ok ok ok here are my current fic ideas that have a 4% chance of seeing the light of day
1.) “something something alex’s legs spread wide and henry riding a dildo but they don’t touch bc Rules but then they fall in love”
2.) “okay so Alex has hooked up w a girl a few times and she wants to have a threesome w Henry and Alex is like no bc Henry is gay but the girl asks Henry and his dumb ass says yes which is how Alex finds himself getting fucked by Henry while eating pussy and Henry saying filthy things to him and asking if it feels good etc and Alex is so in love the end”
3.) “It starts when Alex is pleasantly high, brain like molasses. His eyes locked on Henry’s tongue, lapping absentmindedly at the straw in his drink. Henry turns, sees Alex and is like what and Alex says your tongue is pretty- or lips idk”
4.) “Alex and Henry have broken up and Alex shows up to Henry’s apartment and he’s like a little drunk and a lot sad and he’s nuzzling into Henry and Henry is like Alex I can’t please you need to go home I’ll call you an uber but Alex’s hand is cupping his dick and Alex’s lips are on his neck and everything inside him is screaming”
5.) “Alex and Henry are roommates and they hook up but Henry says it needs to be casual and Alex a little meanly takes that very seriously and is regularly bringing people home and one day Henry walks into the kitchen to find Alex getting it on w a woman and they make eye contact and it’s super dirty and possessive etc and they fuck about it after and then another day hen walks in and sees Alex hooking up with, for the first time, A GUY and that makes him so so so jealous”
6.) the Henry OnlyFans fic that yall have read snippets of already and that hasn’t progressed since then lmaoooo
7.) as previously posted “firstprince fic where roommate alex is high and tells henry “I wish I could be touching you 24 hours a day” and hen thinks that’s a little bit weird for his best friend to say but takes it to heart and makes sure he touches alex in small ways as much as possible; knee to knee under a table, elbow to elbow in the kitchen, shoulder to shoulder while brushing their teeth, etc. and then they fall in love the end”
8.) and this is like THE threesome one: “Alex’s gf wants to have a threesome w Henry and Alex wants to make her happy so he says yes, which is how he finds himself leaning back against Henry’s bare chest and his girlfriend blows him and Henry whispers in his ear and pushes his hair back from his face and it’s so /much/ and Henry says it’s alright love just focus on the sound of my voice, and Alex is whimpering and saying hen over and over. And idk what happens but Henry has his fingers in Alex’s mouth and he says that’s it Alex, you’re such a good boy and Alex makes this sound and his girlfriend looks up at him and finally moves her mouth off of him. And she asks Henry if he wants to finish Alex off. And Henry turns Alex’s head so they can face eachother and says “whatever you want, darling” but no answer is really necessary bc Alex is already arching up into Henry’s phantom touch and nodding desperately and Henry’s mouth twitches before he kisses Alex’s sweaty forehead and hikes Alex further up his chest so that he can cradle him while his fingers wrap around his cock. “You’re so wet for me,” Henry whispers in Alex’s ear but Alex hears nothing bc his head is thrown back and he’s absolutely whining, thrusting up into Henry’s fist, scrabbling to wrap his own fingers around Henry’s other hand. “Tell me how it feels” Henry instructs him and Alex feels like weeping, bc everything is crashing inside him and around him but he holds Henry’s fingers and says it feels so good hen, like you’re made for me. And he didn’t mean to say it. Henry’s movements stutter for a moment but he grips Alex firmly and says “show me” and lets Alex take the lead.”
Me and my pookie @frankiestein42 have started posting a BloodWeave fic, it’s called Correspondence it’s completely written and updating two chapters every Monday I’d love if you guys checked it out :3
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Organization for Transformative Works
synopsis: as the sun shines down, two lovers find respite in the darkness.
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There was a stillness surrounding them that drifted upward like the ash in the air. Baldur’s Gate laid in ruins around them; what remained of a beachside shack provided them respite from the agonizing last few hours. From here, Anya could see a glimpse of the orange sun making dark pools of blood shine brightly on the white sand beach. How she longed to be that sun, unaware of the nightmares that plagued this mortal plane. The sun would never change; the sun just was. Would she be the sun, things would be different, surely.
She pulled her lover closer to her, nuzzling her nose into his hair as he silently wept into her chest. They should be celebrating, should they not? They destroyed the Netherbrain, the tadpoles were gone; this was a time to look eagerly into the future, instead of worrying that it would slip through her fingers if she didn’t think quickly enough. Her eyes narrowed at the peachy sky, silently wishing that her glare alone would have the sun set faster. Another hour, surely, and her love would be free of harm. His skin would not char and flake and turn to smoke like the buildings around them. He would be able to walk freely without the day’s light becoming his death wish.
He did not deserve this, not after everything he had been through, the trials he’d faced. The sun should be so lucky to shine her light upon him. Her eyes fixed on the star in her arms, who was now quiet as she rocked him gently.
“Astarion,” she said, quietly, as if it were just them two left in the world.
He said nothing, though he shifted slightly in her arms.
“You know you are oh so precious to me, don’t you?”
He nodded against her chest.
She pushed at his shoulders slightly, enough for him to pull away. Cupping his face in her hands, Anya’s face twisted into sorrow as she took in the state of him. Blood, dirt, and tears trekked down his beautiful face, and his eyes were tinged red and swollen. She hated seeing him like this, and she despised the thing that made him feel this way in the first place. “I mean it,” she said. “You are the most precious thing in my life; the only thing I care about. Do you understand?”
Another nod, though the sadness that glazed his eyes slowly turned to gratitude.
“I need to hear you say it.”
“Yes,” he said, voice hoarse.
“Good,” she said, placing a kiss on his pouty lips. “Because this,” she motioned around them as she pulled away, “this does not change a thing. I will still follow you to the ends of this world. You will not go through this alone—Gods be damned—I will not let you be alone ever again. I love you too much for that to happen.” Tears welled in his eyes again, and he let out a sharp sob. Anya gathered him in her arms again, kissing his white curls that were tinged with blood. “Sal Thor va, va will sehan aul Tel' Crith. Sal Thor.”
He shook in her arms silently, clinging onto her as if she might slip through his fingers like sand. She kissed his temple, eyes falling back to the blushing sky.
Be she the sun, she would not dare hurt him.
“Sal Thor va, va will sehan aul Tel' Crith. Sal Thor.” (Elvish) = I promise you, you will walk in the sun. I promise.
I'm almost done with the semester and am looking forward to writing some fanfiction! Send me some fluffy promps / a ship to do some one-shots once I finally have the time! 👉🏻👈🏻 I just really miss writing and am excited to finally get to again.
I will do just about any ship (including xreader fics) with the exception of illegal age gap ships but but here are the fandoms I'm confident I could write for:
