#hardheaded

[mydownloadedfyp]

Not my vid

[prosebyday]

I hit my head so hard last year That the room would spin when I rolled over in bed. I had this sharp pain behind my eye: Double vision, sensitivity to light, Too dizzy to stand, too dizzy to roll over, Too dizzy to move my neck. I had panic attacks every time I got behind the wheel of a car. My body was a prison. I’m a restless girl, my thoughts can overwhelm me, I need activity to let the energy out -- But the simplest activities were causing me harm. I passed out in the shower, I passed out in the shed, I went on a walk and had to lower myself to the ground, As my vision went dark. I passed out reaching for ingredients on the top shelf of the pantry. I couldn’t work, I was miserable. I couldn’t function through the day but I was determined To do everything by myself And that’s probably why it took so long to heal. I mowed the lawn, I weeded the garden, I got on a stepladder to spackle and sand and paint the spare room Because I couldn’t afford not to rent out, I kept finding myself waking up on the floor, Realizing I was unconscious, Yet I kept trying to do it all myself. I hit my head so hard last year And I was so stubborn and wanted to take care of myself Even though I couldn’t take care of myself. You’d think I’d learn my lesson, Let you in, Let you help me, Let you take some of this weight off my shoulders. I wish I could but aren’t we all creatures of habit, I’m trying to be less hardheaded but I find it creeping in again, over and over, and damn do I see myself in my father, and I fear I may carry this obstinance to my grave.

Hardheaded // Grazia Curcuru

[steel-and-fire]

// It's amazing how Ferenir can be so very patient with some people, and simultaneously explode in an instant if the wrong person says one wrong word.

...equally amazing how long he holds grudges and how petty he can be if irritated. If he wasn't so tall, I would think he has some dwarven blood in there.

These are doodles I made on the campaign notebook during session yesterday, teehee. Wasn't sure if to share them but might as well.

[weirdyearbook]

Source details and larger version.

Here's a glittering collection of vintage seeing stars imagery.

[out-of-context-batfam]

Batgirl (2000) #4

[wallacepolsom]

Wallace Polsom, Hard Like Me (2020), paper collage, 20.6 x 25.4 cm.

[zhernebohstoys]

Mech Fans Toys deluxe mini Cybetronians!

[macabregoddess]