#head stuff

[wadinginwonderland]

I think my brain is a little off-center

[shjiyemis]

I think the entire thing with making sure kids are safe online by making sure, as a guardian, that putting censors and website blockers for your kid is a very good thing to talk about and advocate for.

But I won't lie, I look at my experience as a child on the internet and like.... I was definitely exposed to too much inappropriate material as a kid due to the Internet but without the Internet I would've been completely incompetent, more isolated than I already was, and probably dead.

It sometimes makes me think that I was meant to die. If my family censored the internet like advocated for I would've done the right thing much sooner, without hesitation. Because I wouldn't have friends or learn anything outside what is allowed for me to learn. I would've moved just as perverted and sensually as I did during those times cause the Internet was not my only access to sex and perversion. Would be dumber and more stupid now.

Without the Internet I wouldn't have much knowledge at all and if my parents really did what's recommended, I really would have been stuck.

This isn't me disagreeing with the idea of parental guardians keeping kids safe from unsupervised over exposure to certain subjects btw.

It's just been up in my head for a while and I wanted to put it into words. Just feels like a grey area of these sorts of situations, I'm only speaking from my own personal feelings and experience.

[bloodypinata]

Therapy was tough today and now I’m laying in bed reaching into my memory, rummaging around for what I believe the inciting incident is for my tightly held belief that “I’m not good enough”

I’m exhausted. Therapy has been exhausting for weeks. It’s not been without progress/results, but I’m already drained from raising a 15 month old and working full time.

My wife is really convinced I should pursue an ASD assessment with the hope being an “answer” to my questions about my childhood, but also to help get some accommodations at work.

Sorry for the dump. I’m exhausted and this is the only place that feels like I can scream into the void a little

[vaniliens]

Hmmm the more I learn about osdd / other dissociative stuff like that the more im convinced i have it & that i dont have it ❤️

[girlinme]

stan newjeans!

[ink-mind]

desolate isolate

[germcorearchive]

Pure with our fictives Kitty and my Mello-- and a vent of Star. Star, Hello Kitty, and My Melody are all littles in our system, they all age slide- - Shane(s)