Clown of Enby

Clowny| 25 yrs| genderless(they/it)| Just a clown who will fuck shit up| art requests:(whenever i wanna)| ✨commissions OPEN✨

[shjiyemis]

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I'm mostly active on my original art accounts these days.

[the-spirit-of-adventure]

Flapjack’s new tattoo is Bubbie approved!

[shjiyemis]

I'm gonna open $20 commissions.

[shjiyemis]

Thanks for the hug friend

[shjiyemis]

Are you feeling somewhat better now?? I know I'm no one, but I've been following you for some years now, so I can't say I don't want to see you well! I noticed you've been in a very dark place lately. I hope that you're away from your abusers and is able to feel somewhat safe now. I'm sorry if I sound insensitive!!

Don't worry, you don't sound insensitive.

I'm never actually ok. I just have long periods of being stable and sometimes I'm not able to keep up with that. It's been worse recently, since I moved out I've been recovering more details from childhood and it's made my mental health decline significantly. + financial stress.

I've been suicidal for a long time. These moments of instability basically makes the feeling of wanting to die so strong that I either attempt, bedrot and starve, or have horrible episodes.

I haven't been actually happy for a long time, it feels. I don't see my possible death as a tragedy, just a release. I really do look forward to it cause I really am tired of being miserable.

Sorry if this is too much information, I guess I'm just way too honest.

[gorjee-art]

Can't sleep, so I doodled a Money! Chester's unusual companion. Elysium has weird pets...

[shjiyemis]

"Celebratory" selfies since I didn't die.

(They/It)

[shjiyemis]

I hope I die soon. I can't do this anymore.

[plus-size-aesthetics]

milohartill

[shjiyemis]

Memory documentation #2

CW. GRAPHIC DESCRIPTION AND IMAGERY OF COCSA AND CHILD ABUSE

These memory documentations are not only meant to be autobiographical vent pieces. They're also meant to spread awareness. I am sharing raw emotions I felt as a child during traumatizing events. No child deserves this treatment and I feel showing glimpses of the emotions I wasn't allowed to show throughout my childhood is a good way to help people understand that.

[doodoodooderpuy]

[shjiyemis]

Memory documentation #2

CW. GRAPHIC DESCRIPTION AND IMAGERY OF COCSA AND CHILD ABUSE

These memory documentations are not only meant to be autobiographical vent pieces. They're also meant to spread awareness. I am sharing raw emotions I felt as a child during traumatizing events. No child deserves this treatment and I feel showing glimpses of the emotions I wasn't allowed to show throughout my childhood is a good way to help people understand that.

[shjiyemis]

Memory documentation #1

CW. Implied CSA & general child abuse

These memory documentations are not only meant to be autobiographical vent pieces. They're also meant to spread awareness. I am sharing raw emotions I felt as a child during traumatizing events. No child deserves this treatment and I feel showing glimpses of the emotions I wasn't allowed to show throughout my childhood is a good way to help people understand that.

I'm making a memory documentation for memories that I keep disconnecting from. I was thinking about doing this in private but this will just be my way of saying everything I wasn't allowed to say or everything that was ignored.

I'm just kind of tired of staying completely silent about everything.

[shjiyemis]

I kept seeing people basically saying they redesigned Starfire so she'd be more kid friendly and it pissed me off bc they didnt need to take a lot of the the things they did to make her kid friendly so I quickly drew over/edited her from a clip from the OG Teen Titans show

[shjiyemis]

I forgot I made this, I kind of want to do another drawing and edit in the future with my current skill. Feels like I could have done a better job matching with the style of the show.

[spltlvlhous]

[shjiyemis]

Otter Karkat 😌

[our-queer-experience]

we DO grow old and happy. btw.

[imconfusedallthetimehelp]

And you find love and it stays with you.

[irisbleufic]

Older women are so, so beautiful, and older trans women are no exception. Celebrate the beauty of our elders! Celebrate trans beauty!

[our-queer-experience]

^^^

[stayingmachine]

I wanted to share some more of these, specifically trans women of color. The images I'm posting are from a project called To Survive On This Shore and it's an interview project. I am only posting a handful so it's so worth checking out!

This is Linda, 60

Alexis, 64

Helena, 63

Kendrah, 72 (!!)

Tasha, 65

It was deeply healing to me to discover this project. The site has selected photos and attached interviews and it's definitely worth your time. I didn't include any because the focus of this post imo is transfems but there are a lot of beautiful interviews with transmasc people too if you're interested! But that'll have to be another post 💖

[houndmother]

for those interested, the photographer is Jess T. Dugan. The link to this particular project is as follows:

To Survive on This Shore — JESS T. DUGAN