#hellomynameisrae

[billdenbrough]

“he’s built of love” your tags always, always make me cry but the lover/fighter post really hit different for me. a life of trauma he never got to see the other side of...a whole world he never got to explore because he was still trying to shake the shackles of his pain and previous trauma. eddie deserved better and we’ll never get to know how he could’ve grown, how he could’ve shown his love to the losers and to the world. it feels almost suffocating in its unfairness?

first off, i’m so sorry i subjected you to my, hmmm. strongly-medicated? tags hdsksjjs i really just hit queue when maybe i should have hit draft. but!! i don’t regret it if it brought you here and also added something for you bc like. always here to talk abt eds, you know?

i feel this incredibly deeply, and i’m really sorry that you’re in this space of having to feel so strongly over this (bc it sucks) but as my friend said earlier, YANVA (you are not vibing alone). which doesn’t make it better exactly but at least there’s some comfort to be found in like mindedness, i think.

bc this is it!!! this is it for me, this is what tragedy comes down to in the general sense of the losers (loss) and particularly with eddie specifically (loss of a chance/denial of opportunity/a life of having other people’s limitations and expectations imposed upon him and being asked to swallow them whole, take your meds, eds, they’ll help you, you’re too delicate, eddie, you’re sick and you shouldn’t play with those nasty boys). it’s just incredibly fucking tragic to me that eddie is a character who is so loyal, so strong, who manages such heroic feats and moments of unflinching bravery despite the structure of his entire life and the way trauma has constructed the scaffolding for his selfhood... that he’s all of this and yet never gets to see who he could be on the other side. like they’re fighting because they promised, they’re fighting because someone has to, and they’re fighting for their lives, which means to survive—-but they’re also fighting for the chance to see what life is after this, and while it’s incredibly eddie that he would see death as the very real risk and still act anyway, that he would give his life for his friends, that doesn’t make it any less devastating or tragic that he never gets to experience the peace and ability to grow that they’re fighting for. like his death scene is incredibly moving in the text! eddie’s sense of clarity (which @bookeddie was talking abt the other day and i always rec hitting her up for eddie content) breaks my heart, like... this is not bad at all. the light flowing through... it’s a sense of catharsis, i guess, this clarity that comes from pain, yes, but i think—importantly—action that was his choice. it’s a passage that hits me in the heart! but i just can never get over the feeling of. how it’s catharsis in motion, how he should have gotten to experience that clarity not just for that moment, but for the rest of his life. i don’t think i’m making any sense anymore (and am actually about to crash again, i think) but it just comes down to that suffocating unfairness: when eddie gets to see for himself with complete clarity how much he can do, and how brave and loyal and strong he is, with nobody trying to hide it or take it away from him, be it his mother or magical forces, it’s his last moments. and it just deeply sucks because it should have been the first moments of the rest of his life, not the last moments of a half-lived one.

[sayasamax3]

Ohohoho, KiriKami and mermaid/fisherman? :o

Kirishima’s not exactly a rich man, and considering he makes his living fishing, he really can’t afford to be goofing off during the high point of the season.  

But his nets are at home, empty, and his crew’s been given the day off because Kirishima has a special someone to meet today, and it’s been far too long since he’s seen his companion last.

“And then–then Sero like, did this crazy thing with some seaweed and caught the shark with it!  Totally saved our fins, it was so cool.”

Kaminari sparkles, the bright gold of his scales glittering along his arms and shoulders and on his tail, just under the water’s surface.  Kirishima’s missed it, missed the color and cadence of Kaminari’s voice, missed how cool and smooth his hands feel against Kirishima’s callused palms, and how he gestures without letting go, so that sometimes Kirishima is at risk of being pulled right into the ocean with him, when his story-telling gets too enthusiastic.

“That sounds manly as hell,” Kirishima says, grinning down at Kaminari over the side of his boat.  “Seems like you had a fun migration.”

“Mhm, you should come with me next time,” Kaminari says, tugging lightly on Kirishima’s hand, like he’s planning to drag Kirishima into the water right then and there.  

“How could I?” Kirishima asks, trying to sound incredulous and mostly just sounding desperately hopeful.  “There a sea witch I can sell my voice to in exchange for a tail?”

“Why would the witch want your voice?” Kaminari asks, tilting his head just a bit, “Mostly she just likes good stories?  And you’re from land, so you probably know a lot of stories she hasn’t heard before.”

“Wait, wait, wait!” Kirishima tightens his grip on Kaminari’s hand, leaning dangerously far over the side of the boat.  “Are you telling me there’s an actual sea witch?  Who isn’t evil, and could actually make me–make me like you?  I could be with you?”

“Well, yeah,” Kaminari says.  His eyes look away, toward the water, but a hesitant smile pushes at the corners of his mouth, “I mean, if you wanted to, to be with me?”

It’s the way hope sits on Kaminari’s face–the soft (and literal) glow of his eyes, the quiver of his mouth, the slight tension of his brow–that compels Kirishima to throw himself into the water.  He surfaces quickly, pulled upright by a frantic Kaminari.  He kisses Kaminari, then, the way he never has before, the way he wished he had on the day Kaminari left for his migration, all saltwater and soft mouths and frantic kicking to keep afloat.  

“I want to go,” Kirishima says when they part, when he sees the pink of Kaminari’s lips and the wideness of his eyes, “Please, let me go with you!”

“Of course,” Kaminari breathes out, swooping in again to give Kirishima another peck, “Of course!”

Soon after, Kirishima’s village loses a fisherman, but it gains a legend.  

[havenroze]

Hi hello! This may be kind of a weird question and you've probs already answered it at some point but what gave you the inspiration to start weird sisters? It's so fun and I love it so far but I was wondering where the idea came from and what you rly like about it!

My inspiration came mainly out of my love of Shakespeare and urban magic and my desire to combine the two somehow. It turned into a wild subversion of shakespearean tragedy tropes and the empowerment of queer and female characters

....is what i’m saying now, but when I started working on it I was mostly thinking of the witches from Macbeth being called “weird sisters” in the modern era, even though the early modern english was actually “weyward sisters,” weyward being old english for fate, they were literally the 3 fates and thinking “haha it would be funny if they were actually sisters.... it would be even FUNNIER if they were sorority sisters” and thus a shenanigans was born

i think my favorite part about it is that it’s really easy for me to work on. it can get silly, it can get serious, but it’s a very low-stress project for me to work on and it makes me happy. i think something else i like about it is that despite how self-indulgent it is, it makes other people happy too!

[sov-ja]

If ur still looking for music: dkla by troye sivan, smokestacks by layla, muddy waters by lp, cool me down by margaret and before you go by common kings! Sorry there's so many, these are my current faves (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ if u look them up, I hope you enjoy them!

sorry?? what are you even talking about THE MORE THE BETTER thank you so much!!! <3 i especially loved muddy waters and before you go, they’re amazing!

[sayasamax3]

I RLY LIKE UR HOGWARTS/BNHA HCS OMG??? where would u place uraraka and iida? For that matter, where would u place kaminari? I like how in depth you went with it and id like to hear more if that's cool

sadfghng thANK YOU <33 I’m more than happy to talk about more of these kids At Length let me tell you. 

Uraraka: A hufflepuff to the core, but kind of garnished with a bit of that Slytherin ambition. Like, she’s so kind and giving and all about fairness–her deepseated spirit of fairness is one of the first things about her we see, really, when she offers Deku her points in the entrance exams. Also just [[gestures at entire manga]] kindness and loyalty are kind of her core traits. She’s prolly muggle-born, and as a kid (much like in canon), probably just wanted to help her parents live easier and then she gets this letter saying she’s a witch and gets to go to witch school right? And she’s like “ok but that sounds expensive maybe no…?” And her parents are like “Ochako what the heck go to witch school???” So she goes to Hogwarts with the Determination to Work Hard and learn how her powers can be used for the benefit of her family.  Tearfully, the sorting hat sent her to hufflepuff.  Unrelated, but she definitely inherits a quidditch gambling ring in like, third year, which is why she never plays even though Midoriya thinks she’d be a pretty solid beater?

Iida: A Proud Gryffindor, from a long line of Gryffindors!  IIda I think really follows in the path of a lot of canon HP Gryffindors who like, Want to Do Good (This boy is the definition of Lawful Good), but also want recognition and enjoys successes with particular relish.  Also, like, maybe reckless daring isn’t the trait that immediately springs to mind when one thinks of Iida but… Has this boy ever canonically said no to a challenge???? He’s said no to rule-breaking, sure, but…he has also broken some rules in particularly daring and frankly stupid ways. He’s a boy who follows the rules bc he believes them to be good, but will also zoom right past them if he thinks they’re failing to uphold good (or, u know, for Emotional Reasons, which is also so gryffindor). 11yo Tenya came into Hogwarts like, shaking in his robes but with his head held high bc Tensei is a prefect and also the coolest, ever, and so he can’t show fear or nerves lest he reflect poorly on the Iida family name!!!  The sorting hat is on his head for .1 second, just long enough to say, “Thank god, an easy one” before sending the boy off to the Gryffindors. 

Kaminari: A Fun-Loving Ravenclaw, and an unanticipated Voice of Reason.  It’s probably at least in part a function of selection bias, bc frankly everyone in UA is Ambitious, but he seems….slightly less so?  Or it’s more that he’s got his goals, and he’s simply determined to succeed in them on his own time in his own way, which seems quite ravenclaw to me. He’s not exactly a glory hog, and he’ll work hard, sure, but again, only in the ways he wants to and for the rest–well, if he’s passing it’s fine. He probably does the Quidditch commentary & excels in Charms, though he definitely magic zaps himself a lot. He also always comes up with the most out-of-left-field answers to the dorm knocker’s riddles, but the knocker is always like really amused and impressed and always lets him in.  I feel like the sorting hat might’ve had to take an extra moment with him and I think sometimes Kaminari remembers that and worries that maybe he doesn’t actually belong in Ravenclaw but the fact that he can make the door knocker laugh is generally enough to assuage his feelings of doubt. 

Midoriya, Bakugou, Kirishima, Todoroki

Yaoyorozu, Jirou

[sayasamax3]

@hellomynameisrae said: Oh my god oh my god I’m so glad I’m not the only one who sees iida as a gryff!!!!!! Also I like ur reasoning for putting kami in ravenclaw? I would’ve put him in hufflepuff but urs is so much more interesting

Iida’s one of the few characters I felt like I could place easily--he’s just... so Gryffindor to me?  Also I’d love to hear your reasoning for putting Kaminari in hufflepuff!  He was kind of a challenging one and like, I could definitely see it.

[omgjustinoluransi]

Can you do like...Sierra, or Grace? Like, if you're still doing the name thing. Sorry if you're not, I don't wanna bother you!

i’ve already done Grace here :))

Sierratummy rolls

the happy barking of dogs

supportive friends

an overflowing shelf of trinkets

post it notes

[actuallyadhd]

I took concerta for years and we recently found that for me, vyvanse works much better. Why is it that for some, different meds work for the same disorder?

Here’s what I understand about this.

ADHD is basically a dysfunction of the frontal lobe and primarily has to do with the brain not having enough dopamine doing its thing. Now, in some people this is due to not using dopamine efficiently enough, while in others it’s due to not producing enough dopamine to begin with.

Amphetamine-based medications like Adderall and Vyvanse cause you to produce more dopamine, which is why people like them for getting high; if you already produce enough dopamine, you’ll make even more and that will make you feel really good.

Methylphenidate-based medications like Concerta and Ritalin cause you to use your dopamine more efficiently; you already produce enough, but your brain isn’t using it right and that’s why you have ADHD symptoms.

This is explained more here.

ADHD is really a collection of observable symptoms (and some internal symptoms), and there isn’t a reliable way to diagnose it with things like blood tests or brain scans. It’s quite possible that eventually we’ll be able to tell which type of dopamine problem someone has, and there won’t be “ADHD” anymore - it’ll be called something different depending on which type of dopamine use problem you have. (And no, I’m not forgetting the people who have symptoms due to other things than dopamine stuff! This is a really simplified look at how it all works. I’m not a neuroscientist, so this is just what I understand about it and if someone who knows more wants to share, that would be awesome!)

-J