Idolatry Pt. 2
Okay so Friday last week ko narealize yung self-idolatry ko diba. Alam nyo bang sa church that night, Jesus at the Center yung kanta sa praise and worship hahaha. Sabi ni siguro ni Lord, “tama ka nak, buti narealize mo na self-idolatry mo. Mali diba? Kasi dapat from your heart to the heavens, Jesus is the center.” Natuwa lang ako na parang naproud Siya sakin na finally, narealize ko na hehe. Tapos nung Sunday naman, first time ko narinig yung kantang, “Yet not I but through Christ in me” mga bes nakakahiya kasi first time ko sumali sa dgroup ulit tapos sila kasama ko magsimba ayun hagulgol ako dahil sa kanta huhuhu. Sobrang narealize ko ulit yung mali ko eh. Si Lord yung laging tumutulong sakin tapos kapag blessed yung mga tao sa stories ko, taena ako na yung magaling?! HAHA lala self. Pero ayun, first step naman talaga is identifying your sin eh. Para rin alam mo bakit ka ba magrerepent. So now, I know na that I have to work on this sin.
Come Tuesday morning, nakila Dianne pa ko neto. Aba! Biglang labas sa newsfeed ko article from Desiring God entitled, “Lord, Spare me from Success” shookt ako agad nun di ko pa nababasa yung article mismo haha. Pero grabe amazed ako after reading the article. May guidance agad kay Lord pano ko ihahandle yung self-idolatry ko eh! Sad na I had to learn it the hard way. Pero at the same time, sobrang thankful ko kay Lord na pinalo Niya ko agad. Pero fair disciplinarian si Lord. I had to face the consequences of my sin. Nawala yung trabaho kung saan ako masaya, pabigat ako ngayon sa bahay. God had to rid me of myself to remember that I belong only to Him. Sabi nga sa article, “I thanked God for sparing me from my dreams of greatness. In my mediocrity, He protected me. In allowing me to fail, He fathered me. In keeping me from success, He kept me for himself.”
Now I have this mantra to defeat my self-idolatry:
When the race is complete, still my lips shall repeat, “Yet not I, but through Christ in me”
