It took him a while to make a move because he was scared to mess up the relationship
So either you make the first move or you'll have to be very patient 😭
Oh this one is strong on physical touch btw
He likes to cuddle, he will always save a seat for you next to him, random hugs just because
And he will never let go of your hand
Trust me on this one
If you're walking around, better believe he WILL be holding your hand
And he also hugs you when you're cold to warm you up 🙂↕️
Your opinion is EXTREMELY important to him
Both on trivial matters, like what hat he should wear, and on more important things, like his job
You always receive spoilers to the tracks he's producing as well
Partner privileges
Talking about partner privileges
He takes such care of you
Always make sure you ate enough and on time
Drives you to your work/uni and then drives you home after
Insists on you taking an extra coat on cold days
Even massages you when you're too stressed or when you had a particularly rough day
Also loves to send you texts and voice messages throughout the day
If you can't see each other that day, he's gonna make sure to document EVERYTHING to you
He loves to have you near, even when it's not physically possible
He also smiles mid kiss 💔
He perceives everything as well
You're currently obsessed with a new series? He's already sending you videos about that
You're feeling kinda down? He is comforting you before you can barely understand what you're feeling
You want to go to some place? He's already cleaning his schedule so you can go asap
He's so observant
And if you're talking, his eyes are on you
The type of guy to put his full attention on you
He's a perfectionist, nothing new here
So if you guys ever fought it would probably be because of these details
And because he wanted the relationship to be so perfect, there would probably be a bit of accidental self sabotage
But with time this gets better
He also needs a bit of validation
I don't think he'd be very jealous (considering the perilla leaf debate)
But some validation is still nice lmao
Trusts you with his life
You know every single secret of his
You know where every precious possession of his is, and you can use all of them
You're his emergency call
He genuinely trusts you a lot
He's not jealous, but he is protective
If he senses you're feeling uncomfortable, he will step up with no hesitation
Sidewalk rule
He loves your smile
He has 649264 pictures of you smiling
And most of these pictures were taken secretly, when you were too focused on just enjoying life to notice the camera
Idk he also seems like he would want to have matching items with you
If English/Korean are not your mother tongue, he would LOVE to learn your language
He would learn a few words and suddenly that's all he's saying for the rest of the week
Overall, he's your safe place and you're his
He is your personal sunshine: cheer you up on sad days and make happy days even brighter
Confidents of each other
It would be a dream, honestly
Masterlist | you'll probably like: Fri(end)s
Reminder this is just fiction!! I'm not trying to portray real life and you shouldn't believe that this is how the members actually are. This is just for the vibe and the delulu!
Summary: It’s been months since you and Hoseok started your friends-with-benefits arrangement, and somehow, things have only gotten more complicated ever since. So, in an attempt to make your heart forget the feelings it’s developed for your best friend, you decide to do the most logical thing you can think of: go partying and find another guy to spend the night with.
wc: 2.6k
Pairing: fwb!Hoseok x fem!Reader
A/N: I wasn’t planning on posting a Hobi fic anytime soon but… well, I’d been dealing with a writing block that made it impossible for me to finish anything I already had pending, and my bestie suggested I try practicing with a request from her instead. And guess what? IT ACTUALLY WORKED JDKSJDK so yes, we owe this fic to our beloved @thunderg for sending me a request right in the middle of my breakdown <3
Dividers | Masterlist
You looked at yourself one last time in the mirror, checking your hair, your dress, the beautiful violet necklace hanging around your neck and resting gracefully against your collarbone; you looked… good. Better than good, actually. You couldn’t remember the last time you’d put this much effort into looking like this, into feeling desired.
Probably after breaking up with your boyfriend. And before you started sleeping with your best friend.
“Woah! Look at you, you look gorgeous.”
Soyeon looked just as beautiful as always, of course she did. She was beautiful. She didn’t need makeup, an elegant hairstyle, or a dress tailored to flatter her figure; she looked like a fucking magazine model with tanned skin, freckles, and lips that practically screamed kiss me from miles away. You couldn’t understand how someone like her had fallen for Jimin, honestly. She didn’t seem like the type to date the class president, the university’s top student with a physics degree who was currently leading his own research project.
“I’m sure people are going to do double takes just to get a better look at you.”
“Don’t exaggerate.”
“Stop pitying yourself for one night and be thankful you look like a fucking goddess.”
For your own sake, you decided to keep your mouth shut and let her think whatever she wanted. Besides, she had a point; the best thing you could do right now was set your self-pity aside and try to look at yourself from the outside, like someone who had just met you. Try to give something a fresh start.
“I guess… Is Jimin coming with us?”
“Of course not. It’s girls’ night, inviting Jimin would be, like… I don’t know, ridiculous,” she said, shaking her head while checking herself in the mirror, wiping away a bit of excess mascara left on her lashes, the only flaw in her otherwise perfect makeup. “Besides, he had some important meeting with that Taemin guy—”
“Taehyung.”
“Whatever,” she turned around halfway, flashing you that contagious smile you’d grown so used to over the past few weeks. The little time you’d allowed yourself to meet new people, expand your circle and… well, get outside opinions on your disastrous love life. “Point is, he won’t be available tonight, and we didn’t need him available anyway.”
“If you say so…”
“Exactly, I do say so. Just like I say you should wipe that miserable look off your face and stop thinking about that idiot Jung for one second.”
You felt your hand tense against the fabric of your dress as a hollow feeling slowly settled in your stomach. Were you really that obvious? Was your expression really that easy to read?
“We’re going out to have fun and, if you’re lucky, maybe find someone you can have a fun night with,” she said, placing both hands on your shoulders before spinning you around and nudging you toward the apartment door, giving you a few gentle pats along the way. “And trust me, doing that last part is going to be impossible with that idiot still stuck in your head… unless you want to scream his name while you’re with someone else.”
“Soyeon!”
“Okay, okay, my bad,” she laughed quietly, tossing her keys into the bottom of her purse. Her teasing smile made one final appearance before she opened the door, letting the hallway light spill across her back. “Now, ready to have the best night of your life?”
Saying it was going to be the best night of your life was, ultimately, a mistake. Though you were sure it would come close. The bar Soyeon picked was actually pretty nice, exactly the kind of place someone her age would go to, still in her twenties, still enjoying her youth without a care in the world.
There was smoke and flashing lights everywhere, along with a bunch of songs you’d never heard in your life, your mother was to blame for raising you surrounded by eighties artists. The scent of expensive perfume and alcohol filled the place, overwhelming your senses in the best possible way.
It felt like you were a young, single woman again, ready to experience everything you possibly could.
By midnight, there were already a couple of drinks in your system, and you’d danced to a few songs with some attractive guys you’d met in the middle of the dance floor. It still felt strange having unfamiliar hands on your waist, swaying you from side to side while the music pulsed through your body. Closing your eyes and imagining his face behind your eyelids was pathetic, sure, but it was the only way you knew how to soothe the hollow ache in your stomach whenever your insecurities came creeping back.
It was easy to picture him. You’d known him your whole life; you knew where his lips were even without looking, knew exactly how to move so his steps blended naturally with yours, just like you knew precisely where to kiss him to make him shiver beneath your touch.
You knew him like the back of your hand.
And he knew you too.
And that was the worst part.
Because no matter how many ridiculously hot men danced with you, making their desire obvious every time they pressed their hips against yours, the only thing that filled your mind was his face, his voice, his lips against your neck, his sweet words whispered into your ear reminding you over and over again that you were the most beautiful woman his eyes had ever seen.
“Y/N?”
Ah.
You were picturing him so clearly you could even hear his voice now.
“Excuse me, do you mind…?”
You frowned when you felt the hands of the guy you’d been dancing with disappear from your body, forcing you to open your eyes to see what had happened. Instead, you found the subject of your worst dreams standing in front of you, politely shooing the guy away while looking at you with raised brows.
Holy shit.
Your luck really was awful.
“What are you doing here? I thought you were going out with Jimin and his girlfriend.”
“Something came up and Jimin couldn’t make it,” you already knew Soyeon would hit you if she heard how quickly you answered him. You didn’t owe him any explanations, you were nothing, after all. “Soyeon’s over by the bar. It’s easier that way when they pay for drinks.”
“You should’ve told me you were coming here,” his gaze shifted from her back to you, flashing that same smile that always made your legs weak. “I would’ve driven you.”
“Don’t worry, we got an Uber and—”
“You’re leaving in an Uber?”
“Well, Jimin offered to pick us up later. He didn’t like the idea of leaving his girlfriend alone with some stranger in a car,” and honestly, you understood. The thought of getting into a car alone with a stranger in the middle of the night made you nervous too.
“Why don’t I drive you instead? They live on the other side of town anyway. It’d be easier dropping you off.”
Shit.
And how the hell were you supposed to say no when he looked at you like that? You hated how easily he could convince you to do whatever he wanted just by opening his mouth.
“I don’t know, Hoseok. I don’t want to be a bother.”
The two of you stared at each other silently for a few seconds. Music blasted through the bar, yet neither of you seemed to notice it, both too busy trying not to… ruin the moment?
No.
There was no “moment” happening here. You didn’t know what to call it, and you didn’t want to put a name to it.
“Did I… did I do something wrong?”
“What? No, you didn’t do anything,” you hadn’t even seen each other in over a month, how could he think you were mad at him?
Obviously, you only thought that last part. Saying it out loud would’ve been far too embarrassing.
“You called me by my name.”
“And? It is your name.”
“You never call me by my name,” he raised one brow, tilting his head slightly to the side and, oh god, his neck looked way too good like that, “unless you’re upset.”
“Well, maybe I am upset because you scared off my date for tonight,” you tried to walk past him, heading toward where Soyeon had been so you could order another drink and get rid of the knot tightening in your throat.
But of course, someone like Hoseok wasn’t easy to avoid.
Your Hoseok.
Because he knew you too well. Because he knew when your “no” actually meant “yes.” Because he was your best friend.
And now it felt like you’d lost him just because you’d fallen in love with him.
Your fault.
Because from the very beginning, the two of you agreed it would stay casual. Because he asked you over and over again if this was really what you wanted, and every single damn time, you said yes.
Now you had to live with the consequences of your own choices.
“You were uncomfortable.”
“No, I wasn’t.”
“You scratch your arms when you’re uncomfortable,” he pointed toward your bare arms, where faint reddish marks already lined your skin. They weren’t deep, just tiny scratches you hadn’t even realized you’d made. “You know I wouldn’t have interrupted for no reason.”
That made a dry, humorless laugh leave your lips, more of a scoff, really.
You wanted to remind him that things had ended up like this precisely because he never wanted to inconvenience you. Because he was always content with what you had. Because he never asked for more, never took the initiative.
“Yeah, I know. I know that very well, Hoseok. It’s what you’ve done your entire life since the day we met.”
“What do you mean?”
“Forget it. I’m not in the mood to let you ruin my night,” you managed to make your way toward the bar. Soyeon was nowhere in sight, maybe she’d gone to the bathroom or stepped outside to answer a call. She always disappeared at the worst possible moments.
“Hey, wait.”
You could hear his footsteps behind you, his quiet apologies to strangers he bumped into while trying to catch up. You ignored every call of your name.
Not this time.
You were going to do what Soyeon told you to do. You were going to forget him, because that was what was best for both of you.
What was best for your friendship.
“Excuse me, could I get a mojito? Please,” you asked the bartender with a tight-lipped smile, hoping he’d be quick because there was no way you were surviving this night sober.
Your eyes silently followed the bartender’s hands until you caught his scent filling your lungs again.
He’d settled into the seat beside you, brushing his hair to the side to keep it out of his face.
Or maybe just to ruin you even more.
“You can’t say something like that and just disappear.”
“Well, clearly I can. That’s exactly what I did,” even if he’d ruined your attempt by following you here.
“What did you mean by that?” he asked softly, using that same tone he always used whenever the two of you ended up tangled in his sheets, trembling beneath his warm, sweaty body. The same tone he used when whispering sweet words you pretended were just a dream the next morning.
You hated him.
You hated yourself for still reacting to them.
“Y/N…”
“Why did you agree to it?”
“Agree to what?”
“Why did you agree to our arrangement?” The bartender placed your drink in front of you before quietly stepping away to give you space, something nearly impossible in a bar where you could barely move without bumping into someone. “Were you really that desperate to fuck me, or… or did you just pity me that night and think, ‘You know what? I’ll sleep with my best friend so she doesn’t feel miserable about getting dumped by her boyfriend’?”
“Y/N.”
“I just don’t get it. I don’t understand what you’re trying to do here. I know I agreed to this —I’m not the fucking victim here— but I can’t… I can’t understand what this is supposed to mean to you,” you tried to press your hand down against your knee, forcing it to stay still instead of bouncing nervously, because every little movement made the urge to cry even harder to suppress. You couldn’t even control yourself anymore. “You said it would only be one night, and then it slowly became more common, a-and you started saying sweet things to me, acting like you actually wanted something more from me when you know I can’t give you anything more than this.”
“Y/N.”
“You didn’t have the right to make me feel like this. You didn’t. Not again—”
Before you could even process what was happening —what he was doing— his hands cupped your face, pulling you toward him until his lips crashed against yours. It wasn’t a sweet kiss, like the ones he gave you whenever you snuck into his apartment, nor was it deep and slow like the ones he kissed you with while peeling your clothes off one piece at a time, easing your body back against his bed.
No.
This one was urgent. Desperate. The kind of kiss that made your mind go blank for a second, that made your body move on instinct alone, following his rhythm almost automatically. A kiss made up entirely of teeth, bitten lips, and clumsy tugs at each other’s hair because neither of you knew where to place your hands.
The kind of kiss you’d only ever seen in movies or read about in books, the kind you never imagined you’d someday be the protagonist of.
“Babe,” he whispered against your lips, his voice barely audible over the music blasting through the bar. “Wait, listen to me. I need you to listen to me.”
With a weak sound somewhere between a sigh and a whine, you pulled away from his lips, your eyes barely opening through dazed blinks. Somehow, he looked even better with his hair messy from your hands.
“I have never looked at you as someone I could use just because I was desperate to sleep with someone, okay? It never once crossed my mind to sleep with you out of pity. Fuck, Y/N, I never pitied you. You got out of a difficult relationship on your own and managed to keep going even when you were vulnerable. The only thing I felt was pride.”
His thumb brushed over your cheekbone, wiping away the invisible trail of a tear you hadn’t even realized had fallen.
“I agreed to this arrangement because you’re my best friend. Because you’re the only person I can picture in my future, and I couldn’t stand the idea of you going around looking for some stranger who could hurt you just because you wanted to have fun for one night,” he ran his tongue over his lips, glancing away for a moment before continuing. “I couldn’t stand seeing you with another man, and I thought… I thought that even if it stayed casual, that would still be enough for me.”
“Hobi…”
“I know I was being selfish. It probably wasn’t the best idea, and I clearly wasn’t thinking straight back then. And I’m genuinely sorry you spent all this time believing those things. But I want— no, I need you to understand that none of the things I said were meant to mess with you. None of it was a lie.”
“Do you promise?” God, you probably sounded pathetic right now. Part of you certainly felt pathetic, for asking something so vulnerable, for sounding this vulnerable. But another part of you, maybe the part soaked in all the alcohol you’d had tonight, genuinely needed to know he meant it. Needed to know he wouldn’t regret this tomorrow morning.
“I promise,” he murmured with a soft smile, brushing your bangs aside before pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead.
“You know what that means, right?”
“Mhm.”
“You’ll have to put up with me every single day.”
“I’ve been doing that for practically my whole life.”
“There’s a chance we’ll end up moving in together someday.”
“I can clear out half my closet. Honestly, it needs organizing anyway.”
You lifted your gaze just enough for his eyes to meet yours. There was something in the shine of them, in the smile tugging at his lips, in the faint pink tint spreading from his cheeks to the tips of his ears that made your heart beat even harder than it already had at the start of this conversation.
“I can be really difficult sometimes.”
“I know,” he said softly. “That’s why I fell in love with you.”
Oh.
He’d said it.
He said it before you did.
That’s why I fell in love with you...
How long had you waited to hear those words? Had it ever felt like this when your ex-boyfriend used to say them? Had you ever felt this same dizzy rush of adrenaline flooding your chest?
Honestly, you didn’t even need to ask yourself those questions anymore. You’d known the answers for a long time now, it was just less painful to admit them silently.
More real, too.
“Okay.”
“Okay.”
“Can we go home now? My feet are killing me.”
“Say no more,” he laughed, lifting you into his arms and throwing you over his shoulder as if you weighed nothing at all.
“Holy— Hobi!”
“Your place or mine?” he asked with a grin, hurrying toward the entrance of the bar. You could feel a few people staring at the two of you with amused smiles and raised brows, and some guys near the back even started clapping mockingly.
For the first time in your life, you didn’t feel embarrassed that people were laughing at you.
warnings: mutual pining, hobi is a feet guy, mentions of a partner giving you a cold shoulder and silent treatment, strong tension, praise kink, petting, nipple play, oral sex (f. receiving), overstimulation, slight dd/lg, raw and rough sex, size kink.
note: SHE'S BACK. HOSEOKSLUNA IS BACCKKKKKKKK. HELLO, MY BABIES. I MISSED YOU ALLLLL SOOOO MUCH AND I MISSED WRITING SO MUCH THAT THIS IS SOMETHING I WROTE IN MY YEARNING TOWARDS THE END OF MY HIATUS. fuck, this is way too hot. and i, again, had to take breaks to do something :D actually, i was inspired to write this at 4 am when i landed in my country after my vacation in dubai and got the weverse notification from hobi. :) yep. he ruined me, destroyed me, and i had to start writing. ENJOY THIS FILTHHHHHH. i missed writing abt dd/lg, too.... hehe. let me know what you think. and if you mayhappsss want part two? I LOVE YOU, MY BABIES. MWAH.
Hoseok, at your doorstep bringing in the moonlight before the midnight hour, was not something you quite expected to see when you heard the bell ring. You were lounging around on your couch, clothed in your new silky pajamas that you bought to heal your wounded heart a little, along with a peachy Korean face mask, a banana vape and a vanilla candle that you lit up as soon as you exited the shower. The creamy white sheet is what you were still wearing on the planes on your face when you stood there, taken aback because the man, clad in his military uniform, was certainly not your friend that visited you often.
Hoseok was a mutual friend. A friend of your best friend Karina… and a friend of your now ex-boyfriend Namjoon. A friend that hated your guts—a friend that could not stand you.
A friend that would let his eyes linger a little while longer on you upon seeing you on regular night outs and then ignore you for the rest of the event. A friend that would lock his gaze on your intertwined hand with Namjoon’s before narrowing it and scoffing in a private way that you invariably saw through.
You weren’t stupid. You knew what his deal was—it’s only that you couldn’t do anything about it. You were Namjoon’s for eight wonderful months that were splotchy with the depth of poetry. Words from his heart that would give your life meaning, keep your head up above the surface. You needed those words as you spent your whole girlhood drowning in the sea of FOMO, rowing your arms through the waves of life that never got you anywhere. Seeing the little beauty of day and night of Seoul with your friends paled in comparison with what Namjoon showed you. You always believed that your life would begin with a man by your side—you prayed for it, you waited for it and it became reality.
But it was not the reality that your body sought in the long run.
Yes, the sex was great. Significant to your mental development, especially to your female one as you truly did become a woman in his hands, letting the lush girlish version of you die in his palms. As well as the museums, the hikes, the dinner dates that let you in on the complexity of Namjoon’s intellect that you found so profound and full of beauty.
But as you nearly reached a year with him, your body began to seek more. The flowers beyond the box of your relationship with him—and you knew that those petals carried the scent of Hoseok.
He liked you. You saw it in the extremity of his purposeful ignorance towards you, in the forced hatefulness he put across, and in the distance he set as a boundary. You saw it, too, in the way he would entertain other women in the bars and glance at you every now and then to make sure you’re seeing what he wants you to see. And it excited you, his interest in you that he kept at bay.
It was a forbidden fruit that you smelt and smelt, but could never bite into—and it drove you insane. And when he got enlisted in the military, it drove you off a cliff.
Missing him made you search for him. Not in Namjoon, but in other men. Privately, in your soul. And it cost you your relationship.
Namjoon was a jealous, possessive man. He would fight with you if you looked at a guy for a beat longer than is necessary and if a half of a smile crept up upon the corner of your lips, he would give you the cold shoulder. An action that cut through you deep enough to make you bleed and you had to put a stop to it.
You thought talking to him about it like an adult would straighten the road you were walking upon, but like the intelligent man Namjoon is—he knew that what he was giving to you was no longer what you needed. He threw it back at you, using the poetry of his words, and all you could do was be honest with him. Nod your head, tell him he was right, that you were seeking something more. And what surprised you was that Namjoon wasn’t willing to go the extra mile.
He didn’t consider it. Didn’t mention it.
He nodded his head, too. And you parted your ways as friends who loved each other and lived an artistic life together.
And at that moment, a door to your mind opened and Hoseok stepped in. Made a bed, fluffed the pillows, and rested.
It seems now he has awoken. Rang your doorbell, bashed his fist against the wood and narrowed his eyes at you in his normal fashion.
An action that weaves a rhythm into that flat, bruised heart of yours.
His military jacket is slung over his arm. His two black dog tags, hung by a silver chain around his long neck, rattles as the breath of the fresh, autumn evening breezes past, scattering goosebumps along your chocolate-buttered skin. You notice, within the brief silence while you look at each other and exchange words long overdue, that his hair is way shorter. Not buzzed anymore like Namjoon showed you on Hoseok’s first day in the military six months ago, but tousled and sticking out in different directions as if he raked his fingers through the strands a million times over. Your own itch, wrapped around your vape, his beauty heightened by his evident newly-gained manliness washing over you like an icy stream of water.
You shiver, blaming it internally on the wind, and not on the lightness of the attraction that you feel sinking beneath your skin, overpowering you.
And that small movement of your body propels Hoseok to speak, at last.
“I come home to find you single,” he scoffs, his voice deep and raspy, marked possibly by his job in the military. And you feel it marking you just the same, opening windows in the house of your body for that wind to blow in and exhilarate you, help you breathe. “He’s drunk out of his mind, crawling on Jungkook’s lap and you’re here. In your pajamas with a fucking face mask on.”
Briefly, you furrow your brows, not understanding the meaning of his words. Is he bashing you for not crying your heart out? Or is he bashing his brother for doing whatever it was. Your heart turns halfway, painfully. Those days are gone—those you spent in bed while that broken muscle wept while your body used that time to repose from all the stress it went through, being in an environment it grew out of.
You sigh, weary of the recollection of that peculiar pain, and show no sight of the turbulence happening within you. “Jungkook must be happy about that.”
Hoseok chuckles, humorlessly. A chilling noise that erects your bare nipples beneath your pajama button down. Awkwardness slinks down your sternum and you shift your weight on your other foot as Hoseok deepens his gaze down on you.
Tension settles between you and you use it. You use it, wholeheartedly, as you should have all those months ago. The only thing you ever took advantage of were the touches Namjoon graced your skin with. You’d grab his hand, while Hoseok watched, and bring it underneath the table. Part your mouth, pretending he was touching a sensitive, private place while he was merely drifting his fingers along your thigh. Hoseok would gulp, but he would keep his gaze locked on yours, very much like he’s doing now. It’s the only form of intimate interaction you ever had, save for the heated debates about different things you two did not have in common.
All else remained hidden in the silence shared between you.
And it no longer shall.
If he came all the way here, unannounced, then you shall let fate, one that is enamored with your body, have her way in your life.
“If you came here to talk about him, then I’m not interested,” you say, letting go of the door and slipping off your face mask, ignoring the hurtful pinpricks along the perimeters of your heart. “If you came here for me, then the door is open.”
And with that bravery, you pivot on your heel and walk back into the living room, not expecting him to follow you and not expecting him to walk away. You let fate do her thing, and you begin to tap in the essence of the peachy face mask into your skin with quick, gentle slaps.
You toss the sheet, along with the packaging, into the trash, your hair clipped away from your face whooshing around you with your movement. Kicking off your slides, you hear them bump into something stable, and when you turn around to seek that strange sound, you see Hoseok standing by your armchair near your couch.
So he did come here for you. You tremble in a different manner, filled with sparks of excitement, and, turning around to sit on the couch, you flush, smiling happily to yourself.
But all those feelings turn to dust when Hobi kneels by the edge of your couch and fixes your home slippers. Aligns them rightly in front of you so you can comfortably slide your feet into them once you get up.
Your stomach drops and your fingertips tingle, all of your nerve endings set on blazing fire by that one act of service.
The first kind thing he’s ever done for you.
He throws his military jacket over the backrest of the armchair, where he nestles himself. Legs spread, elbows propped on his knees. His long dog tag chain swings back and forth in the sudden, atypical calmness of the atmosphere that you cannot adapt to fully. Not when your mind creates an image of that chain hanging over your face, your neck and your chest when you’re bare and ready for him, laying on your back, all for him to take.
You bite your lip, tracing the band of your sleep sock with your fingers, and Hoseok’s eyes fall to it. You quickly lift them, sheepish. Distract your mind by opening a package of eye patches and placing them on your dark circles that just won’t leave. His gaze skims over each motion, studying it, wordlessly, and you can’t take it anymore.
You can’t be the only one who’s brave this evening.
You take a puff of your vape, inhaling its sweetness, and stare right back at him. A smile, a foolish girlish smile quivers upon your lips. One that you dislike because you did grow out of it, but it seems as though the more you swallow the intensity of his shadowed, violent sea-charged energy, the more you transform back into that little girl you were.
And the process soaks your panties.
So much is said in the silence, always has been, but you can’t stand it anymore.
“You should start talking before I go to bed,” you bite, willing your smile to flatten, and Hoseok kneads his hands. His knuckles bear a faint memory of yellow bruises, veiny and strong as they are, and for a moment you wonder how far his ferocity reaches.
He showed you little of it. You know he’s capable of doing things that would change you for all eternity, give you a new form that would not wither with age.
And you yearn for it. Have yearned for it all those months without knowing that was the thing your body sought. The thing Namjoon could never give you.
Violence. Roughness. The licks of an outraged sea.
You’re a witness to it sloshing in the pools of his darkened eyes as he chews the provocation you uttered his way. And you can bet he likes the taste.
“Did he break your heart?” he asks amidst the banana-flavored smoke, his knuckles whitening for a split second as he clenches his fist before relaxing—as if the thought of Namjoon breaking your heart angers him.
It rouses you, and the way your chest lifts with each breath stimulates your stiffened nipples. The candlelight sways, casting shadows on his worn features, and you’d much rather sit on them than talk about your ex.
“Did you not hear what I said?” you spit, throwing your vape on the cushion of your couch. Hoseok’s façade splits as he smirks, dropping his gaze for a moment before lifting it back to you.
He leans back, slouching in the chair. “Answer the question.”
The sedatedness of his tone stuns you. Your heart begins to thump as well as the bundle of nerves between your folded legs. It has been too long since you had your release. Months upon months. And you’re too weak to not get carried away by these new feelings you’ve shamefully forgotten about.
The veins from his knuckles travel all the way back to his arms and your brain empties out. Too, too fucking long. You should’ve fooled around with every guy you found attractive, use them for orgasms, make the best of your womanly years, but instead you dwelled at home—in and out of your misery. And now, now it feels as though you’re a virgin, alone for the first time with an older man that enlivens your body.
And you might as well give him what he asks of you.
Sucking on your vape for a puff of bravery, you don’t blink as you stare at him through the smoke. You elongate your legs, placing them on the coffee table next to him, your toes facing his outstretched knee, and his eyes, once again, plummet to them.
“He didn’t break my heart, I broke his,” you say, your words shrouded by that white mist curling out of your mouth, and you watch as his eyes widen en route to yours.
He didn’t expect that.
Something about that satisfies you. Selfishly.
Hoseok runs the pad of his finger across his bottom lip, his head tilted to the side a little bit. “It was about time you did.”
The searing heat that rushes forward in your cheeks forces your gaze away from him, begs you to look away, but you don’t. A bead of perspiration trickles down your cleavage, one that is visible to him as you couldn’t be bothered to do all the buttons after your shower. But Hoseok’s eyes don’t flick to it. No, he can’t miss this. He can’t miss the gravity of the moment, of the spoken confirmation of the fact that what went on between the two of you for so long is real. You squeeze your thighs together, the thumping in between unbearable, and the longer you bask in his brave words, in the masculinity of his initiative, the more your own poetry begins to rise in you.
If it drags, it’s not meant for you. If it’s fast, it couldn’t wait to meet you.
And Hoseok notices. It is only when you let out a little, barely hearable sigh that his eyes do travel down to scrutinize your bodily reaction. To your nipples poking through, the shine of your sweat in between your bare breasts, to the friction you’re rubbing—the miniscule grinding movements that you make in order to alleviate yourself of the ache of desperation that you feel. And because you’re baring yourself out for him, he does the unthinkable.
He lets you see his true face, his façade collapsing at his big, sock-clad feet.
Hoseok lifts his hips, hides behind the pretense that he’s just making himself more comfortable, but in reality he did it to turn your attention to his lower region. His length, semi-hard yet still long, stands out, protruding from the camo of his pants and you’re hot, hot all over.
The thumping worsens—and you need him, all of him, to make it better.
Perceiving that he’s succeeded in his strategy by the way you just won’t stop ogling him, he blushes and hides it, in vain, with outstretched fingers spread across his face. As if he was doing his signature idol move. It’s a riveting sight to behold, a seemingly cold person growing warm from you gaping at that private part of him.
And you want more. You want to see more places of his body that are flushed. And you want it now.
“It was about time you and I talked alone, don’t you think?” you ask, following on from his previous statement. All that pining, those stolen glances, that distance—all that tension advances forward now, stronger than ever.
Hoseok can feel it, too. At your words, his manhood grows harder and his breathing quickens. He tries to stabilize it, but he fails. He fails even when he returns to his original position with his elbows propped on his knees. That chain of his swings with more momentum, teasing you, and you place your legs even closer towards him, and upon witnessing the light flash in his eyes, you realize that you teased him right back.
The man likes feet.
You draw in a sharp breath when he fists both of your feet in one hand, brushing his thumb over the tips of your toes. The first touch in this lifetime, the first time upon your new virgin body, so intimate, private; he might as well have wrapped a blanket around them with how warm his hand is, secure and trustful. Goosebumps flood your skin, bringing in the iciness that you felt when you took in his beauty against the background of the trees and the moonlight. And its beams must be stitched around his fingers because daintiness clasps you close, the notion that you’re taken care of, in good hands, descending upon you like the most delicate feather tickling you, and you let it—you let it consume you.
And you let his following question consume you just as much.
“Were you in love with him?”
It’s a question you never had the bravery to ask yourself in the two months you’ve been single, but it is here and you welcome it. You hear it whisper to you the hint of your answer and your body is smart enough, capable enough to figure it out.
No need for long nights of overthinking.
No need for long hours of listening to your heart crack.
“No, I was used to him—that’s different,” you hush out and the moon lowers herself, spilling through your windows, bathing you in a milky light that feels as welcoming, as right as your confession. And maybe, just maybe it’s the way the shining stream submerges in your neediness that drives you to be bratty. And briefly, before you do, you ponder over the fact how in your life shared with this person drives, moves forward. There’s never a still time—and you find that mesmerizing. Enough for you to simply brood in greed. “What’s it to you?”
Hoseok flinches. Parts his mouth. His chain rattles and his fingers squeeze the balls of your feet, coaxing a hum out of you that is immediately silenced by his sudden outburst.
“What’s it to me?”
There it is. Another plot point. Your heart hammers.
Hoseok lets go of your feet and you lament the absence. Stands up and towers over you, the moonshine soaking him in divine light that causes your breath to hitch in your throat. A faint layer of sweat has coasted along his hairline and settled there—and you long to swim in his bodily fluids. In the persona of his, in the tumultuous sea of the tension locked within him.
“You’re genuinely asking me this question?” he pressures, lifting your legs in order to step in between them, and the unthinkable visits you once again. He props his hands on either side of your head and those two dog tags swing in your face.
A wet patch forms in the center of your pajamas. Your breath mirrors his—hasty, deep and strained—and you can’t take it anymore.
How far into this road of bravery until the moon averts its opaque eyes away from your sin?
You arch your spine, hook your fingers on his dog tags and pull him a little closer. Breathe his air, breathe in his masculine, musky scent that intoxicates your senses to the point that there is absolutely nothing stopping you from getting dragged in the natural flow of this situation.
“Yes, Hoseok. What’s it to you?”
He pants. Glides, delicately, his fingers along your arm until he winds up at your small fist, clutching it in his as if it was his. And that warmth, you want to dip your head in it.
“I had to watch you sit in that chair and not crack a smile. Sit next to him like an obedient girl, not allowed to speak. To me,” he grunts, tightening his lips, and that anger of his seeps into you, becoming yours. “He didn’t deserve you. You’re not a pretty toy. You’re a person.”
He straightens but, panicking, you draw him right back by that chain. “Don’t fucking walk away from me.”
He seethes and you feel your essence trickling down your thigh. That sea, inching forward, you whimper. And then he spreads that warmth over the crown of your head, rubbing your hairline just once with his thumb before he peels off your eye patches that you have forgotten about.
And this is when your brows curl. This is the time that says there’s no going back.
“I talked to you. We fought, don’t you remember?”
He sweeps that digit over that soaked dark circle of yours underneath your eye. “What do you think would’ve happened to you if I talked to you nicely?”
Cold shoulder. Uncomfortable time of forced aloneness, filled with the abyss of guilt that you had done something wrong. A toy that didn’t move its lifeless limbs right by his will.
“I’ve known him for far longer than you. I know how he treats those he thinks he loves. I brushed it away with the others, but with you… I couldn’t. You were so full of life that was stuck in you because of him. Because he didn’t let you let it out. And I can’t forgive him for that.”
What life? The one you searched for all your girlhood, the one Namjoon molded with his own hands until it no longer recognized the once-familiar lines of his palm? The one that yearned for Hoseok instead?
A film of tears clouds your eyes and as hard as you try to blink them away, they linger, pooling at your waterline like sea foam. You need your vape, you need him inside you—you can’t face the mirror of the reality of that unfair treatment.
How blind you were; how Hoseok has become that guiding stick.
“Don’t forgive him,” you utter, grasping his chain tighter, drawing him even closer, making his breath tremble. The first tear that pours out leaks into the print of his thumb and at the sound of your soft cry, Hoseok topples. Kneels on the couch with your legs on either side of him and you pull, you pull him closer.
“Do you want me?” he asks—a foolish, foolish question. Presses his forehead against yours, cups your face with both hands now while his back shakes and you touch it, you drag your fingernails down those prominent muscles. And he sighs, so desperately, so tenderly. “Do you want me to let out that life in you?”
“Yes,” you whisper, sliding your hands underneath his black shirt, scratching the lowest part of his warm, warm waist before hooking your fingers on the waistband of his pants. It’s his—it always belonged to him. “Take me. Here.”
He brushes his nose against yours, your breath and his singular. “You’re so feisty.” Lips nearly touch yours and your lungs give out on you, your air coming out in pathetic staccatos that make him growl, subduedly. Muscles rigid, bundle of nerves devoutly pulsing. Please, please. “But no.”
The world implodes, the mocking shimmer of that planetary light gushing through—hand in hand with sobriety.
But Hoseok, the prince of the unthinkable, dips your head back into that darkness. Lifts you by your armpits and sets you down on his lap, his hard length against your core uprearing your need for release.
A hand sailing down your neck, your sternum, acknowledging itself with your respiration. “Don’t give it to me that easily.”
Your own cages him there, right at the apex of the fleshiness of your breasts. “Jebal, Hobi.”
Please, Hobi. You drive, in his fashion, your hips forward—ever so slightly. His eyes round at the mellow variation of his name wandering out of your mouth and wrapping around his neck, as if the gentleness you give him pains him, transforms into a noose around his vocal cords and he can’t speak.
He sighs, the noise melting into a soft, low-pitched moan. “Don’t beg me,” he croaks out, so terribly strung out. “I’m-I’m—”
You lengthen your spine, closing your mouth over that one spot on the side of his throat that you can reach, silencing him. He doesn’t need to speak—you’re fine with the tacit language of his hands. And the taste of his skin, that fucking warmth dissolving upon your tongue, you can’t help but to moan just the same against him like that, rocking your hips awfully, awfully slowly, driving him to the point of madness that he stood at the edge of for so long.
“I want you to touch me,” you murmur, tugging his hand lower to the first done button of your silky shirt and it’s him who hooks his fingers over that fabric now. You lick a stripe across the thick vein of his throat, grinding a little harder when you hear him suck in a pained breath. “I want you to feel that life in me and know it’s yours. Jebal, Hoseokie.”
He grunts, ripping you away from him. You expect his eyes to be narrowed in that typical manner of his, but they’re not. They’re soft, round and glossy, looking down at you, unblinking. A face you’ve never seen before, that feels too, too significant—and you’re not sure if you deserve to get a load of it. Of his pinkish cheeks and downturned mouth, of his fingers agonizingly sluggishly undoing the first button of your shirt.
Of his sentimentality that you never thought he was so efficient at.
The sea that has remotely stilled—but you’re still riding the lenient waves, your torso curving with each button popping off as he engraves his warmth into your cold, cold skin. And once he reaches the very last one, he stops. Holds your shirt together, squishing your breasts, waiting for you to lift your head out of the sea water.
And you do.
He inches forward, grazing his lips against yours, making you feebly cry out.
“Did you cry for him?”
Your cry prolongs, vexation splattering over your arousal, and you’ve had enough of it. You flick your eyes between his, drawing back, flattening your lips in that anger of his that seems to be still flowing in you somewhere. No more, no more Namjoon; no more talk of your past relationship. It’s over, it’s over.
“Stop fucking—”
Hoseok doesn’t relent. Sinks his fingers into the roots of your hair at the nape of your neck to make you listen. “Did you cry for him?”
Your heart wept, but your eyes didn’t. The tear you shed in front of him was the only liquid emotion that spilled out of you since the day of the break up. “No.”
He blows a heavy breath of relief that oddly validates you—and light opens in your sensitive bosom. “Good girl.”
And it is now that Hoseok presses his chest, his dog tags against that light of yours and clamps his mouth down on your top lip, hoisting you a tiny bit to sit you right down on his manhood. His strong arm wraps around your back while the other floats down and curls around your bum, growling into the kiss that he deepens. And then he parts your lips with his, slipping his tongue inside, and the dam breaks between your legs—as well as the quick little whines and squeaks that begin to leak out of your mouth and into his.
The life in you throbs.
His cock hardens even more underneath you and he pushes your clit against it, his noises and yours growing louder and louder in tandem until he’s breathless, panting so vivaciously that he needs a moment. A moment to focus on the mess he’s created of you, a glowing ball of rosiness, the prettiest of all flowers—and you feel like it, being looked at like that.
“I knew you were smart,” he coos, peppering feathery kisses upon your cheek, jaw and chin, descending to the base of your neck. You moan out, fisting his shirt below his collarbones, the continuation of his validation for you nesting in your core. “That life in you will always win. No matter what.”
You believe him—in fact, there’s nothing left for you to do, but to submit, submit and submit. And it feels like entering a dream that is kind, a reality that appears to be a dream, but is better. An existence smeared with clemency, where you can be a little girl again.
“Touch it, please.”
Hoseok hums, kissing the cleft between your clavicles. Shifts forward on the couch so you can rest your spine on the backrest, your head against the wall, and he slides his palms upward from your tummy to the apex of your breasts. You whine, torturously, at the contact, and you shudder and double over when he swipes his thumbs over your still stiffened nipples, buzzing shocks of acute pleasure coursing down your body, rooting in your clit that asks for his fingers, his tongue, but he remains where he is. Transfixed, starving, ravaged.
He kneads your breasts like he kneaded his hands, with overpowering strength that quickens your blood flow, your body submitting to him and flushing like his does. A sliver of skin that your shirt exposes catches his attention—and at the sight of the flesh of your breasts spilling through, his cock twitches, his breath ragged, eyes droopy and so, so drunk. He pinches your nipples, still through that silken fabric, as if he was punishing you for causing him this unfair pain.
Knead, flick, pinch. Your noises are obnoxious, his heat in you rising and rising, and you can’t take it anymore. The drum in your clit thuds and you push him away, the pleasure too overwhelming, too good and too arousing.
And he pushes away the fabric, revealing your perky breasts. A glint settles on the edge of his irises and he gives you a coy smile before he smashes his mouth against yours, moving it in a rhythm that reflects the one in your bundle of nerves. And you grind, you grind like your life depends on it, your nipples and your pussy rubbing against him, against his icy dog tags, getting you closer and closer to your orgasm. And you would come like this had he not physically ripped you away from him.
Heaving, he focuses, all over again, on the ruination he makes of you. The warmth in you flits so invitingly that you have to touch the places he did—your stomach, your sternum, your breasts. And as you do, you watch his gaze darken, you watch him nod his head, and wipe the corner of his mouth clean, catching his drool.
“You feel it, don’t you?” he rasps, following the invisible traces you left on your body. Your stomach, your sternum, your breasts. “Right here. Life. Beautiful life.” He teases your hardened nub, circling it with the pads of his fingers, sliding it between his knuckles and squeezing, his smile growing with each shudder of your chest, with each response. “It’s time to make you come and let it out, you ready? Let’s take these off.”
He tugs off your pajama pants, throws it behind his shoulder, examines the large wet stain on your panties that he coos at, raspily, petting it with his thumb—and you’re so turned on that even such faint touch like that brings you pleasure. You hold onto his arms for dear life, depending on him, trembling when the panties and the shirt are next, tossed upon the pile of your pants.
You’re bare and he’s still fully dressed. Such titillating unfairness that turns you unhinged, maddened by liveliness your body is diffused with.
Hoseok pins your legs back. Takes one hand and glides his fingers across your entire femininity, soaking them in the dew he has coaxed out of you, moaning gutturally.
“He never made you wet like this, did he?” he asks, pride dripping out of him like his masculine pheromones, and with his wet fingers he palms himself. “You don’t even have to answer that. I know. I need to taste you, baby.”
You don’t even get to fill a lungful of the stuffed, vanilla-scented air and he dives in, keeping your legs glued to your shoulders as he seizes your clit in his mouth, sucking on it briefly before he flattens his tongue all over you. He licks you like a lost man finding an oasis, humming into your heat while he tastes your personal slickness, swallowing everything he sowed. You bang your head on the wall, a numbed pang expanding all throughout your scalp by your claw clip, taking it all, moaning so loudly the whole of Seoul must be hearing you. Even Namjoon in his drunkenness, shameful that he never managed to eat you like this in the eight months you were his to consume.
Your orgasm inches to you quickly. With half-lidded eyes, you watch the candlelight create sublime, eccentric images on his back. And as if he couldn’t handle the warmth anymore, he peels himself away from you just to take off his shirt, adding it to the pile. He doesn’t let you see his muscular body—he plunges back down, tongue outstretched, flicking the muscle on your swollen clit. He pinches your thigh, your mound, your folds, whimpering onto your flesh, hurrying to close his mouth over you to suck your clit.
And within that divine suction, you come apart. The beautiful images on his back advance, fluttering on his smooth skin, and you hold him to yourself. The life in you explodes, saturating him in a dimmed, soft-hued, colorful light that he himself must be sensing because he moans, loudly, sinking his index finger inside your clenching hole. You can’t speak, you can’t breathe—you can only feel, you can only take. Your orgasm continues on, a ceaseless stream of delight untwisting in every part of your body.
And when he begins to fuck you with that finger of his and hits that good spot, your orgasm melts into another one. And this time, you can’t take it.
You shake so vivaciously that you fall off the edge of the couch, but he catches you. Hoseok unclips your hair and lays you down, propping your hips on the armrest instead and when he bends at the waist and opens his mouth, you scream out your disagreement, pushing him away.
He blinks at you, mouth sopping wet. “I wasn’t finished.”
Your oxygen is stuck in your throat, one that gets bespeckled with the beads of your dew. “Hoseokie—”
He traces it, wiping it off, holding you there. Presses his hard, clothed length against your bare pussy, rocking slowly, casting a private, affection-filled shadow with the arch of his body over yours. Hoseok kisses you once, a nasty kiss perfumed with your tangy scent, and you cry out.
“The fact you can’t take the bare minimum personally offends me. He had you all to himself and he didn’t do his job well,” he mutters, squeezing your throat once. Drags his wet hand down your sternum, grasping a hold of both of your breasts, clenching them until they flush, again, like him.
There it is, the saltiness of his sea. You yearn for the physical principle of it coating your tongue—for his cum to trickle out of the tip of it like your dew is off of his. And his words, his anger towards his best friend because of you—it heals you in a way you could never heal yourself. Another person seeing you and telling you that you deserve better, it is the most pristine form of remedy there is and you splutter on the whole beauty and compassion of it all, too weak to accept it at once.
“That’s right,” you agree, as enthusiastically as your dopeness allows you, smiling lopsidedly, heart pounding. “Go slow on me.”
He croons, squeezing his eyes. “My little girl.”
He buries his face in your neck, kissing you there, and along with the life in you—your heart explodes, too. The finality of your detransformation. Tears of joy ache in the corners of your eyes, the rawness of human fulfillment housing in you for all eternity.
He kisses his way down to your breasts. “I’ll go slow on you,” he promises, darting out his tongue and flicking it over your nub, making you tremble. He straightens and dances his fingers along your thighs—up to your knees. “Do you want to stop here?”
You shake your head. Place your feet flat on his toned stomach while you feel your dew dribble down your bum. Hoseok smiles, his mouth curving in that way of his that causes your own stomach to drop. He holds your heels, hooking his finger under the band of your socks and yanking them off.
And his grin blooms at the sight of your dusty-pink toes, an endeared look thawing his eyes. He rubs them like he did at the beginning of this journey, keeps one at his stomach while he lifts the other one to his mouth.
Your poor heart skips a beat.
“Do you want me to fuck you like a little girl like you deserves?”
He kisses the ball of your foot, doesn’t break the eye contact. Watches your mouth part in absolute astonishment and your cheeks deepen in their hue. And when he kisses it again, slower this time, it wakes you up from your stupefaction, and you lower your free foot down to his clothed cock. Hoseok groans, the sound muffled against your tootsie, shutting his eyes at the impact. Your chest flickers with a sense of pride that you made him react like that—and you want it again. You trail your toes across that length of his, but before you could reach the most sensitive part of him, he stops you.
Sucks in that pained breath of his, red all over.
“If you keep doing that, I’m gonna come.”
You mirror him, the idea of being capable of doing that to him pleasuring you. You leak onto the couch. Your blood boils.
“That’s so hot.”
He chuckles, anchoring your foot upon his heart, tapping it with your big toe. “It’s because you have my heart.”
Your body ceases all work, as well as time. Even the candlelight pauses its dance, concentrating its caressing radiance on that chain of his.
And you don’t think as you scurry onto your knees and embrace him, his dog tags no longer icy. He plants his nose into your hair, inhaling you, sealing you into the hug with both of his arms. Your heart reaches its own towards his and they cling to each other, too.
And you’re not afraid to reciprocate his feelings—they’re as clear to you as that very luminescence of the vanilla candle.
“You have me,” you whisper into his ear, his body not quivering but stable, safe. “You have my life. It’s more of a treasure than my heart.”
He had you the moment he so evidently disapproved of your past relationship. He had you the moment he was curious to see if you were jealous when he was entertaining other women. He had you the moment he purposefully put a distance between you and him because he didn’t want you to get hurt by Namjoon.
You just didn’t know it yet, not until clarity arose in front of you in the form of his honesty.
Hoseok kisses your own ear, lingers there. “I want both.”
“Then, have it.”
And he kisses your forehead. “Thank you. I’ll take care of it.”
You can see in the ivory mist of his eyes that he means it—and so you tug off his military belt as you begin to pepper kisses down the column of his neck because he deserves it, because he cares for you, because he came to you as soon as he heard that you were single. And when you reach those dog tags, the words of his title imprinting themselves onto the surface of your lips, you clasp his cock in your hand. Too big for your small fist, too warm for you to handle—
“Lay back down.”
You bite into the flesh right above that first steel pendant while keeping your eyes locked on his. “Yes, Sergeant.”
Hoseok curses. Wrings a sharp gasp out of you when he pulls on your hair, giving you a nasty kiss full of tongue. “Don’t call me that when I need to be gentle with you,” he scolds, sucking on your bottom lip to make it better and you disintegrate. “Right now I would bend you over this couch and fuck you until Sergeant and Sir was all you knew, but I can’t do that. Not when you’re not used to me yet.”
Yes, the promise of the sea—you convulse from head to toe, pining after it.
“I want that so bad.”
He nods, marking you on your neck. You whimper and he groans in response. “And I’ll give it to you, you just need to be good now. Lay down.”
You comply, but you take him with you—grabbing him by that chain as you arch your back on the couch. He lets you, grins at you like the utmost sunshine, but that expression of delight breaks when a certain realization dawns upon him.
“I didn’t bring any condoms.”
You huff out a soft noise. “Good. I want you to come all over me.”
Hoseok hangs his head low, sighing, on all fours above you. His chain swings, drawing the memory of this very night on your breasts. He looks up at you from this position, his eyes thin slits that cause you to clench around nothing.
“I’ll give you a big load.”
You beam like the purest angel, in spite of the context. “Yes, please.”
Hoseok rolls his eyes back, his façade cracking, and he beams just the same, his mouth widening in the shape of a heart that moves through you. He kisses you deeply, a long peck that breaks you down into a putty, and when he withdraws, you can still see that smile plastered on his glowing face.
“Good girl. Such good manners.”
And with that praise, he sheathes himself inside you. You both gasp in union, entering a paradise no other human will ever witness in the afterlife. He stretches you out, slowly, careful not to hurt you as he waits it out, petting your hair in the meantime.
“I can feel you stretching around me, fuck. You’re so warm, so tight for me,” he rasps, panting, that smile trembling on his lips as he tries to keep it together. He straightens, pinches your nipple and you feel yourself accommodating him quicker at that sudden electricity of pleasure, at the sight of his toned body and that chain. The shine of sweat, the dance of the candlelight, the width of his shoulders and carmine chest as it heaves in desperate hums and groans. You could come just from that—and the sensation is so dizzying that your eyes droop. Hoseok notices, grappling the crook between your neck and shoulder. “Stay with me, baby, you can take this. I’m gonna make you feel so good and you’re gonna come on this cock.”
Those hums of his cruise all the way to your mouth as he sinks that encouragement into it, kissing you deeply, pinning your hands back above your head and sliding his fingers into a celestial intertwinement with yours. They throb within you, those words of his, where they disperse all around, helping you believe that you truly can take the whole manliness of him. Your mind spins, the pressure of your shared atmosphere ringing in your ears, and he knows, he knows that you’re ready for him.
“I’m gonna start moving now. Talk to me, baby. Tell me everything you’re feeling as I fuck you,” he murmurs, unsheathing himself a tiny bit before he curls his hips forward and upwards, creating a languid, spine-tingling rhythm that replicates the waves of his sea. They slosh to and fro with every slow stroke and he kisses your good spot with the tip of his cock. Your eyes flutter open and close, rolling like those waves, but you can still see the way his jaw is clenched, his gums on full show as he seethes in his self-control, the flush of his neck and the flexing of his abdomen that you can’t help but to touch in your otherworldly daze. He stares down at you, intensely, narrows his eyelids and furrows his brows when he feels your touch, and you discover that the spot, where his V-lines lead to your antidote, is one of uttermost sensitivity.
He moans, burying himself deep in you, and stopping there. Mound to mound, soul to soul.
“Fuck, baby, you just know where all my spots are, don’t you?” he asks, his voice so terribly strained, torso doubled over, and you grin.
“I think I was born already knowing them,” you flirt and Hoseok pounds into you for it—a singular thrust that scrambles all your brain cells. Your smile falls, your brows crunch, your throat utters such whiny noise that he himself grunts at the sound of it, and when you lift yourself onto your elbows to see his length driving in and out of you, he pushes you right down by your throat, kissing you hard enough that it hurts.
And he alleviates the lip lock by licking over your tongue, toying with it—all while he, little by little, picks up the rhythm, fucking into you with a force that coaxes your rawest moans out of you.
“You can’t handle my tongue and I can’t handle it when you flirt with me,” he scoffs, smacking his mouth as he turns his head, claiming your mouth, claiming you. “God, I wanna destroy you so bad.”
Your cry is cut out by another savage thrust and you claw at that sensitive spot of his, inciting him to do it again and again. “I’m yours to destroy.”
He pauses, the crown of his cock teasing the beginning of your heat. Sweat drips down his temple and he runs a hand through his hair, messing it up in a way that makes your heart twitch in absolute sensuality and relish.
“Say that again.”
Your breath hitches. “I’m yours to destroy.”
Hoseok curses, driving into you all the way. You whine out, clenching your fists, feeling every ridge and every vein of his cock glide forwards and backwards along your walls. And by tensing your body and focusing on the delight he’s gracing your body with, the build-up of your orgasm announces its presence.
“Fuck, Hobi, you feel so good,” you cry, gripping his forearms as he begins to hold your waist steady. He jackhammers into you so viciously that your vision scatters with a creamy hue of ivory, moaning in ragged staccatos that influence you so much that you naturally imitate them, fading into him, becoming one.
“Whose are you?” he growls without interfering with the gracefulness of his sadism, moving back only an inch before slamming back into you, bruising your cervix—and you lose all brain cells, the synapses blanking out.
But only one thing is clear.
“I’m yours.”
And the following snap of his hips drives you out of this world and out of this universe. The gravity keeps your muscles tense, confining your pleasure and the closeness of your orgasm within. The ringing grows in volume and you’re on the cusp.
Hoseok is, too, because he begins to beg.
“Please, please, baby. Come for me. I’m so fucking close for you. Please, I’m gonna come all over you.”
And with a scream that vibrates through the walls of your living room, you comply. Your core grips him, your skin prickles and you levitate—your back arches off the couch, aching to be closer to him, and Hoseok whines.
Pulls out, straddles you, and fist-fucks his shaft with frantic, frenzied motions. Covers you with ropes and ropes of his cum that ripple on your stomach, your sternum and your breasts as you drift in and out of consciousness. Warm, warm essence of his masculinity that is warmer than the rest of him.
Blood-hot.
And you feel as though you deserved every drop.
Deserved to see the beauty of his orgasm. The flush of his lower regions, especially. The sight you longed to see.
Hoseok lets go of his manhood, his hand shiny and wet, though he’s still hard, reaching the beginning of your parting lungs with how big he is. Bigger than Namjoon, bigger than anyone you ever dated. Their names wither in your mind, decomposing. And they lose all meaning.
They cease to exist.
You’re not his best friend’s ex. You’re not anyone’s ex—
“Look at how little you are,” Hoseok comments, interrupting the surge of your maddened thoughts. He smears the puddle of cum on your stomach that his cock can reach and your pussy flutters in constant motions that ask for him again. “So little under me and all mine, aren’t you?”
His avowal brings a fresh dose of oxygen into your lungs and you breathe it in. Want to breathe it in for the rest of your life with him.
But Hoseok doesn’t stop there. Once you agree with him by the nod of your head and a dopey, gratified grin that casts an affirming light on him, he bends over you, his fists on either side of your head.
“I’ll show you what true possessiveness looks like. The world will burn if it hurts you and if people say one bad word to you, it will be the last one they ever said. But they will talk to you and you will talk to them. You will learn about this life of yours. What it holds, what it looks like. And I’ll be standing beside you and I’ll watch over you. Learn it, live it with you.”
He rubs your forehead with his thumb in a fond gesture. Looks at you with a mute meaning that touches your heart and crawls inside before he kisses you, relaxes his lips against yours, and kisses you again.
Again and again.
Again in the shower. Again in your bed when you’re riding him, tasting the life he let out of you, because you blazed up with desire after you washed his body. And the sex is quiet, smothered with those kisses until your mouth and his is numb.
And again throughout the years you acknowledge yourself with that life and realize that you understand it more profoundly and clearly in the process of getting to know Hoseok than this world.
Hoseok is that life.
And you kiss him and whisper those words onto his mouth when you marry him at the altar, years and years later, connecting your life and his forever.
In honor of Mona Lisa can we get a jhope fic please Mona Lisa inspired ofc😔👉🏾👈🏾
A/n: so sorry for how long this took but ohhhh my god I loved writing this lmao this was good. it was also lowkey intimidating to write this bc I kinda had to write "mona lisa" as closely as hobi describes her in the song but I think I did a pretty good job lol I hope you loved this!!
Mona Lisa, Yeah I Need Ya (Jhope)
Summary: After a painful breakup, Y/N cautiously reenters the nightlife scene, where an unexpected encounter with the charming Hoseok awakens new desires and challenges her emotional boundaries.
Themes: softdom!Hobi, PleasureDom!Hobi, Independent!Reader, Self-Possessed!Reader, Fem recieving oral and fingering, protected sex, alcohol consumption
Word Count: 5.2k
It had been a few months since the breakup, and by the second month, you had started to feel like yourself again—steady, clear-headed, no longer unravelling at the sight of old photos or mutual playlists. Still, you decided to lay low a little longer. There was no rush to be social again, no pressure to be seen. You gave yourself the space to rebuild in peace, focusing on self-care, solitude, and the small comforts that often go neglected in the wake of a relationship’s slow erosion.
The breakup itself hadn’t been dramatic—no screaming, no infidelity, no grand exit. If anything, the ending mirrored the relationship itself: quiet, slow-burning, and far too polite. You’d both simply drifted apart, pulled in different directions by work schedules, emotional needs, and that inevitable, unspoken disinterest. He had been distant for months, and though you'd noticed, you had never demanded answers. You didn’t issue ultimatums or stage a last-ditch confession. You were composed. Stoic, even. So when he ended things on a mild spring evening while the sunset painted your apartment in gold and coral, you simply nodded and offered him a drink before he left.
He had been neglectful, true—but mature enough to do the leaving himself. You didn’t mention that part to anyone. Too considerate. Too loyal, even after the fact. It’s a quiet tragedy: how often women swallow the discomfort in favor of appearing unbothered, offering their partner a gentle exit in the name of dignity. “If you don’t love me anymore, just say so.” But that wasn’t the line you fed him. You simply let go.
By the fourth month, the fog had lifted entirely. And when your best friend Gissele texted you an invite to a party at one of the city’s most talked-about clubs, something in you stirred. Not apprehension—readiness. Excitement, even.
There was a dress hanging in your closet you hadn’t worn yet—bought during an impulsive shopping trip when you’d told yourself you would have something to dress up for eventually. It was sleek and unapologetically bold, black silk and structured seams, still crisp with tags. Tonight was the night.
You and Gissele entered the club hand-in-hand, laughter already dancing on your lips as blue and violet lights swept over the crowd. The bassline of the music thrummed in your chest. A kaleidoscope of bodies moved across the floor, sweat-slicked and electric. You hadn’t realized how much you missed this—the ritual of getting dressed up, the chaos of the night, the sense of belonging to your own body again.
“I am so ready,” you said with a grin, glancing at Gissele.
“I’ve been waiting for you to say that,” she teased, dragging you toward the bar. The two of you settled on stools, giggling as you sipped pink Whitney from dewy glasses.
“I’m glad you came,” she added, more serious now, swirling her drink. Her honey-brown eyes shimmered under the strobe lights, and her hot pink lacefront framed her face like a crown. Gissele never did subtle. That’s what made her so magnetic—every movement was intentional, every outfit a declaration.
“I just needed time,” you replied softly, shrugging. “To recalibrate.”
“I get it,” she said. And you believed her.
One of the many reasons you adored her was that she always made you feel safe. She had an eye for detail, a sixth sense for shady behavior, and could destroy a creep’s ego in seconds flat—all without smudging her lipstick. She was your shield, your chaos twin, your anchor.
Tonight, her look was a statement of its own. She wore towering white platform boots that wrapped just under her knees, layered shredded tights in blush and fuchsia, a silky white slip dress, and a structured harness that gave her an edge of danger. She looked like she’d stepped out of a cyberpunk magazine. In contrast, your style was more refined: a black dress with asymmetrical ruffles and heeled boots. Romantic. Reserved. A perfect foil to her explosive palette.
“I swear to god, the men here are insane,” she whispered, eyes scanning the crowd. “Wait—yup. That one’s staring at you.”
You blinked. “Which one?”
But she was already gone, abandoning her stool with a laugh and a wink. “Have fun,” she called over her shoulder, leaving you alone with your drink—and, apparently, under observation.
You didn’t have to wait long.
A few moments later, a hand gently brushed your elbow. You turned, startled, only to meet a pair of warm, expressive eyes and a mouth curved into a smile that was as soft as it was knowing.
“May I buy you a drink?” the man asked, voice velvet-smooth. He slid into the seat beside you—the one Gissele had left vacant—as though it had always been his.
You looked at him—really looked. The subtle shine of sweat on his brow, the warm bronze undertone of his skin, and the twinkle of his grill as he smiled, catching the light like a constellation. Elegant, refined—and yet there was a hint of mischief beneath his charm.
“I’m still working on this,” you said, lifting your half-full pink Whitney and licking the corner of your lip, as if to test his reaction.
A rejection, technically. But not a closed door.
His smirk widened just slightly, like he understood the game. “Fair enough,” he replied, his eyes not leaving yours. The air between you shifted, magnetic. He didn’t press—but he didn’t leave either.
You crossed one leg over the other, sitting up straighter, aware of the way his eyes briefly flicked down and back up. “Your friend seemed eager to disappear.”
“She saw you coming,” you replied, letting a slow smile curl your lips. “Thought she’d give us a moment.”
“Smart woman,” he said, clearly amused.
“I’m Y/N.”
You extended your hand, and instead of shaking it, he brought it to his lips and pressed a kiss to your knuckles—light, gentlemanly, deliberate.
“Hoseok,” he said. “Pleasure.”
You felt your stomach flutter—ridiculous, you told yourself. It’s just the alcohol. But you knew better.
“Is this your usual scene?” you asked, easing into conversation, trying to keep your tone casual despite the way his presence kept pulling your attention like a gravitational force.
“I show up when I feel like dressing up and flirting shamelessly with beautiful women,” he replied without a trace of irony. His gaze locked with yours. “So tonight, yes.”
You laughed. “That a line you use often?”
“No,” he said, “I save it for when it’s true.”
The banter had an easy rhythm, but it was laced with a sincerity you weren’t prepared for. He wasn’t just trying to charm you—he meant what he said. Every compliment had weight, every glance held intention.
And still, there was no pressure. Just presence. Just a man leaning in slightly, his fingers ghosting the rim of his glass as he listened to you speak. You told him about your job, your last girls’ trip, your recent obsession with 90s R&B. He told you about his travels, his work in dance and music, his deep affection for old vinyl records and lavender-scented candles.
The two of you slipped into a corner booth after the second drink. The crowd pulsed on around you, a blur of motion and noise. But the space you occupied felt insulated—separate, private, like a soft secret between the two of you.
He leaned closer.
“You have a way of being still in chaos,” he murmured, his voice low, almost reverent. “It’s... rare. That calm.”
You raised a brow, caught off guard by the poetry in his tone. “You talk like that to all the girls?”
“No,” he said again. “Only when I mean it.”
This time, the blush crept to your ears. Hoseok watched the shift in your expression with barely concealed satisfaction, like a man who knew the power of words and wielded them carefully. He didn’t reach for your thigh. He didn’t try to kiss you. But every movement, every word, made it clear: he was interested. And he was in no hurry. This wasn’t conquest—it was intrigue. And the longer you sat with him, the harder it became to look away.
“Come dance with me,” he said, standing and offering you his hand.
You hesitated only for a second before slipping your fingers into his, letting him guide you onto the floor. The music shifted to something sultry and slow, the kind of rhythm that curled around your limbs and made the space between bodies feel charged.
And when he placed his hands—gentle, respectful—on your hips, guiding you to move with him, you felt the heat settle into your skin.
Maybe it wasn’t the alcohol after all.
The music thrummed low and seductive, a steady rhythm that seemed to sync with the beat of your heart as Hoseok guided you into the tangle of swaying bodies. His grip was light at your waist—two fingers resting just enough to suggest control without taking it. You settled into the tempo, allowing yourself to relax into the motion. He moved close, not too close, but close enough to feel the heat of his body through the thin black silk of your dress.
“You dance like someone who doesn’t come out often,” he murmured, leaning just enough that his breath stirred the strands near your ear.
Your lips curved. “Is that a bad thing?”
“No,” he said smoothly. “It means I get to watch you rediscover it.”
You turned your head to glance at him, amused and a little intrigued. “And what exactly am I rediscovering?”
His eyes flicked down, just once, before settling back on your face. “What it feels like to be wanted.”
That one hit deeper than you expected. But you didn’t falter. You just tilted your head with a coy, polished smile, like he hadn’t just said something that made your stomach twist with heat.
“Is that what this is?” you asked, voice even. “You wanting me?”
“Undeniably,” he said.
A beat passed. You looked away first, the corners of your mouth twitching upward in unspoken amusement.
He didn’t press. Instead, he shifted closer—so slowly it was imperceptible at first. His chest barely grazed yours now, and his hand had migrated, palm resting against the dip of your spine. He kept the movement subtle, his other hand lifting to brush a stray hair from your cheek, fingertips skimming along the line of your jaw. Polite, still. But loaded.
“So,” he said, voice smooth as honey, “what brings you out tonight? You don’t strike me as someone who comes here for the drinks.”
Your gaze flicked up to his, your brow lifting. “I could say the same to you.”
He chuckled, clearly enjoying the push and pull. “Touché. But I asked first.”
You paused, just for effect, before answering. “I needed the reminder that I still exist outside my apartment. Outside my routines.”
“A reawakening,” he said, the word drawn out thoughtfully, like he was tasting it.
“Something like that.”
He nodded, hand pressing a little more firmly against your back now. You stepped forward slightly to keep your balance, and he didn’t move back. Your bodies were close enough now that you could feel the bass of the music reverberating between you.
“And the dress?” he asked, eyes sweeping over you again—but not lewdly. Thoughtfully. “Bought for tonight?”
“No,” you replied, tone playful. “It’s been waiting in my closet for months.”
“Ah,” he said, smiling faintly. “Then I feel incredibly lucky.”
You raised a brow. “To see it?”
“To be the reason it came out.”
Your laugh was soft, reluctant. “You’re smooth.”
“I’m honest,” he corrected. “And observant.”
His hand drifted just slightly lower, the heat of his palm lingering now at the curve where your spine met your hips. You felt the warmth climb your neck, but your expression remained neutral—poised.
“You move like someone who doesn’t just dance,” he said. “You move like you know exactly what kind of attention you command.”
Your mouth parted slightly, caught off guard by the comment, but you recovered quickly, tipping your head in mock consideration. “Is that a compliment?”
“It’s a fact,” he said, voice dipping lower, lips brushing dangerously close to your ear now. “And a turn-on.”
This time, the flush threatened to betray you. Your stomach coiled with something sharp and satisfying, and though you didn’t respond immediately, your eyes met his again with that same unreadable smile.
He searched your expression, but you gave him nothing—just subtle amusement and polished restraint. That only seemed to intrigue him more.
“You’re good at this,” you said at last.
“At what?”
“This slow burn thing. Drawing people in.”
“I could say the same to you.”
A silence settled between you—thick, charged. His hand still rested against your lower back, and your arms had looped, almost instinctively, behind his neck. There was no distance left between your bodies. You were moving in sync, slow, deliberate, the music now secondary to the tension blooming between you.
You leaned in slightly, voice low. “I should probably check on my friend.”
Hoseok glanced across the floor, spotting Gissele leaning against a far wall, already deep in conversation with two girls and laughing over something shared on a phone screen.
“She looks... occupied,” he said, then turned back to you. “But if you want to leave, I’ll walk you both out.”
You studied him for a moment. His posture, his ease, the way he never once made you feel boxed in despite the magnetism between you. He didn’t ask for anything—but the possibility hung heavy in the air.
You took a breath. “I don’t want to go home yet.”
There was a pause—brief, electric.
“My hotel’s nearby,” he said, simply. No edge, no pressure. Just suggestion. “If you’d like to keep talking somewhere quieter.”
“Talking,” you echoed with a knowing smile.
His own smile widened. “I did say I was honest.”
You didn’t answer right away. You turned toward the crowd, eyes finding Gissele again. She caught your gaze immediately and raised a brow, already knowing. You mouthed something across the distance—going to head out—and she responded with a wink and a thumbs up before returning to her new entourage.
You turned back to Hoseok.
“Well,” you said, brushing invisible lint from your dress and adjusting the strap on your shoulder. “Lead the way.”
He offered you his hand again—this time not for the dance floor, but for the descent into something far more intimate. You took it without hesitation.
As the two of you exited the club, the air outside wrapped cool around your legs, balancing the heat that still lingered across your skin. Hoseok pressed the hotel’s location into his phone with one hand, the other still cradling yours like it was second nature.
And all the while, you walked beside him, steady, unreadable—but your pulse betrayed you, thrumming in places he hadn’t even touched.
Not yet.
Not quite yet.
The elevator ride was quiet at first. Not awkward—just charged. A kind of silence that hung heavy between you both, weighted by everything unsaid but fully understood.
Hoseok leaned back against the elevator wall, one hand in the pocket of his slacks, the other running through his dark hair as his eyes traveled over you again, unapologetically this time. The overhead lighting softened his features, casting delicate shadows across the sharp lines of his face. His bottom lip caught slightly between his teeth before he spoke.
“You know,” he began, voice lower now in the confined space, “I wasn’t expecting much tonight. A few drinks, some polite conversation. Maybe a dance.”
You arched a brow, arms folded loosely, your smile just barely present—soft, knowing.
“But then I saw you,” he continued. “And you were… still.”
Still?
“Everyone else was moving, talking, laughing. But you were just there. Still and deliberate. Like you didn’t have to do anything to be seen.”
He pushed off the wall just slightly, not closing the distance between you, but enough to shift the tension in the air.
“You’re beautiful,” he said simply. “But it’s something else. Something about you makes me want more than just tonight.”
You tilted your head slightly, lips pressing into a faint line of amusement, not revealing much. Your posture hadn’t changed—you remained poised, calm, with that same unshakable grace—but the warmth that bloomed in your chest betrayed your exterior.
“I’m not saying I’m expecting anything,” he added, quickly but not nervously. “I mean that. I just want to talk to you. Maybe get to know what it is that makes someone like you walk into a place like that and look like you already own it.”
You glanced sideways at him. “Smooth,” you said, your voice light but your eyes sharp. “Again.”
His grin deepened, dimple flashing. “Told you—I’m honest.”
The elevator chimed, and the doors parted.
Hoseok stepped out first and held the door without needing to look back, like it was muscle memory. You walked past him with that same unbothered elegance, and he fell into step beside you as the two of you moved down the hall toward his room.
Once inside, he didn’t rush. The suite was wide and open, the lights dimmed low and the view of the city glittering through the glass balcony doors. You made your way there without needing an invitation, pushing them open and stepping outside into the night air.
The wind was soft, almost warm, carrying the sounds of distant traffic and nightlife up to the high floor. Hoseok joined you moments later, two glasses of something amber in hand—he offered one to you silently, and you took it without comment.
The silence returned, this time more companionable. The city stretched out before you in every direction, glittering like it existed just for the two of you.
“So,” you said, finally. “What brings you here?”
He exhaled slowly through his nose, sipping from his glass before replying. “Work. Mostly.”
You nodded. “What kind of work?”
He turned to you, leaning one elbow on the railing. “Creative consulting. For artists. A little bit of choreography. A little bit of producing.”
Your brow lifted slightly. “That’s vague.”
He laughed, the sound quiet and unforced. “It is. That’s on purpose. I’m not really supposed to name names.”
You hummed. “Discretion. That’s attractive.”
“And rare,” he said, eyes flicking to yours again. “But I don’t just come here for work. Sometimes it’s a reset. Different city, different pace. New people.”
You sipped. “New distractions.”
“Maybe.” He glanced sideways at you again. “You don’t seem like one.”
You smirked. “No?”
“No. You feel more like a disruption.”
That word hung in the air between you.
You didn’t respond right away. Instead, you leaned forward slightly, resting your elbows on the railing, letting the wind lift the ends of your hair. The glass in your hand caught a glimmer of moonlight, casting tiny golden flecks onto the concrete floor beneath you.
He watched you. Carefully. And when you looked back at him—slow, deliberate—his gaze didn’t shift away.
You held it.
That’s when the space between you shortened.
He didn’t move all at once. Just a step, and then another. His hand rested lightly on the curve of the railing beside yours, knuckles brushing your wrist.
“I’ve been trying not to stare,” he said, almost under his breath. “But you make it hard.”
Still, your smile didn’t waver. You simply turned your face toward his, eyes locked, unreadable.
The kiss was inevitable.
It didn’t happen in a rush—it happened in the quiet pause between glances. His hand rose to touch your cheek, thumb trailing just beneath your bottom lip, eyes watching the way your mouth parted the slightest bit at the contact. He didn’t ask, didn’t need to. When he leaned in, your lips met in a soft, exploratory kiss—slow at first, like the two of you were testing gravity itself.
When you didn’t pull away, when your fingers found the lapel of his jacket and held him there, he deepened it.
The glass in your hand tilted dangerously. You broke apart just long enough to set it down on the balcony table, then turned back to him with a heat now undeniable in your eyes.
He took your hand, no words this time, and led you back inside.
The room was cool, draped in shadows and city light. He paused at the edge of the bed, his eyes scanning your face once more.
“You’re sure?” he asked, quiet now.
You leaned in, your breath warm against his neck. “If I wasn’t, you’d know.”
That was all the permission he needed.
“I want to take my time with you,” he whispered, voice velvet. “Is that alright?”
You didn’t answer with words. Instead, you let your hands slide beneath his jacket, pushing it off his shoulders in one smooth motion. It hit the floor with a soft thud.
Hoseok’s hands were reverent, moving to the hem of your dress but not lifting it—yet. First, his fingertips traced along the fabric, following the curve of your hips, the line of your thigh. His palms flattened over your sides as he leaned in again, lips brushing just below your ear.
“You have no idea how long I’ve been holding back,” he said, exhaling slowly. “How much I’ve wanted to touch you like this… see how far I can push you before you ask for it.”
You inhaled slowly, your lips parted in the half-light, but your expression stayed controlled—poised, as ever. “I don’t ask.”
And that thrilled him.
He knelt then, lowering himself with grace until he was eye-level with your thighs. Your breath caught—not from nerves, but from the gravity of the gesture. The way he looked up at you, hands now sliding under the hem of your dress, bunching the fabric slowly to your waist, was enough to make your knees threaten betrayal.
He pressed a kiss to your knee. Then higher. Then higher still.
“Sit back,” he said, voice quiet but firm, “and let me make you feel good.”
You obeyed without speaking. Still wordless, still elegant—but when you leaned back onto the bed and rested on your elbows, your eyes stayed locked on his.
The pleasure was slow at first.
His mouth on you was deliberate, exploratory, taking his time with every flick, every suck, every drawn-out breath against your most sensitive skin. His hands pressed down on your thighs—not to hold you still, but to anchor you. To remind you where you were. With him.
You bit your bottom lip, hard. Refusing to give him the satisfaction of the noises building in your throat.
But Hoseok could read the tremble in your thighs, the subtle curve of your back arching slightly more with every languid sweep of his tongue. He didn’t need the moans—you were giving him everything already.
He pulled back just briefly, lips slick, eyes hooded with restrained desire.
“You're doing so well,” he praised, voice rougher now. “So fucking beautiful like this.”
Your lashes fluttered, mouth finally parting with a soft gasp as he moved back in and kept going—more confident now, more focused. One of his hands slid up to hold your waist, feeling the way your stomach tensed and relaxed with every wave of pressure he delivered.
And when you finally let your head fall back and exhaled a soft, trembling moan—he smiled against your skin.
It wasn’t about power, not really. Not domination in the way most understood it.
It was about control—his of himself, and yours of how far you’d let go.
You came undone in his mouth, tension bursting like light behind your eyes. Still elegant, still quiet—but shaken in a way that made your hands reach for his shoulders, grounding yourself as you rode the high out in stunned silence.
Hoseok rose slowly, reverently, kissing the inside of your thigh one last time before pulling you gently up to meet him.
He kissed you again—slow and soft—like he wasn’t trying to erase what just happened, but let it linger.
“Not done with you,” he whispered into your mouth.
Then he stood, reaching back to unbutton his shirt, eyes never leaving yours. “But only if you let me keep going.”
You smiled.
A real one this time. No teasing, no mask.
“Go ahead,” you said, voice soft but steady.
He stepped back just enough to pull the shirt from his shoulders, the faint light catching on the hard lines of his chest and the soft sheen of sweat that had started to gather at his collarbones. Every movement he made was fluid, unhurried, as though undressing in front of you was its own performance—one he wanted you to watch.
And you did. Reclined now against the plush pillows, one leg slightly bent and the other stretched long across the bed, you watched him like art. Quiet, composed, with only the slight tug of your bottom lip between your teeth giving you away.
Hoseok crawled back onto the bed, his hands brushing the sides of your thighs as he moved over you. He leaned in to kiss you again—slower this time, deeper. Like he was memorizing your mouth.
“You taste like my name,” he murmured, lips brushing yours. “And now I want to hear it.”
Your lips curled in a small, knowing smirk. “Then earn it.”
He laughed softly—low, rich, aroused. “Oh, sweetheart…” he exhaled, trailing his mouth along your jaw, “I already am.”
This time, he didn’t rush. He took his time laying you bare—unzipping your dress with care, helping you shift out of it like he was unwrapping silk. His hands explored in unhurried strokes, tracing the dips and curves of your body with open admiration. Every glance he gave you was appreciative, worshipful, but not the least bit cloying. It was honest. Hungry, but controlled.
He kissed your sternum. The curve of your breast. The space just below your navel. His hands pushed your thighs apart gently, and when you let him, you saw the gleam of satisfaction in his eyes.
He spent the next while reacquainting himself with you—like a second act to the performance before, only this time slower, deeper. His fingers were skilled, precise, coaxing out reactions you tried to smother, and his mouth followed wherever your body arched.
"That's it..." he whispered against your skin, lips brushing your inner thigh. "Just like that. Let go." His fingers gently reach deeper.
You were close again—faster this time. You could feel your composure slip, inch by inch, but not in a way that embarrassed you. It felt safe, wrapped in the cocoon of his body, his words, the sheer focus he gave to your pleasure. “Hoseok.” You nearly whined, surprising yourself.
And when you did come, he didn’t rush you through it. He kissed your trembling thighs as they shook, gently massaging your hips with open palms. His voice stayed low and sweet.
“Beautiful,” he murmured. “Every sound, every breath—you’re fucking perfect.”
You were still catching your breath when he hovered above you again. The weight of him between your legs felt like gravity—solid, anchoring. He was hard, thick against your thigh, and you could feel the tension in him, the restraint.
He kissed you again—deep, open-mouthed, and a little desperate this time.
You pulled back just enough to look at him.
“Your turn.”
That same smirk from earlier flickered on his lips. “Only if you still want more.”
You nodded slowly, letting your hand trail down between your bodies, fingers brushing over the outline of him through his pants. “I want it.”
Those three words flipped a switch.
In seconds, he was out of the rest of his clothes, and you were guiding him back between your legs. He ripped open a metallic packet and rolled on a condom. He pressed against you gently, pausing at your entrance, watching your eyes.
“Look at me,” he said softly.
You did.
He pushed in slow, filling you inch by inch, and your breath caught in your throat. His hands gripped your hips, his forehead resting against yours as he whispered a near-silent curse.
“Fuck—you feel like you were made for me.”
You smiled, eyes half-lidded. “That’s a line.”
“It’s a truth.” He pulled out almost entirely, then pushed back in, deeper. “And I’ll prove it.”
What followed was nothing rushed. No frenzied thrusts, no hurried movements. Hoseok fucked you like he meant it. Like every slow grind of his hips was a conversation. Like every breathless moan from your lips was a secret he wanted to keep in his mouth forever.
He kept one hand at your waist, another tangled with your fingers, grounding you together. You wrapped your legs around his hips, pulling him deeper, and he groaned into your neck.
“I could lose myself in this,” he breathed. “In you.”
The rhythm built—still slow, still controlled, but more desperate now. Like he was trying not to come too soon, and you were trying not to fall apart again. You kissed, gasped, touched, pressed—until the tension coiled tighter than either of you could stand.
When you came again, this time it was together.
Bodies trembling, breaths mingling, hands gripping tightly like you didn’t want to let go. His forehead rested against yours, eyes closed, his mouth parted in bliss.
The silence afterward was comfortable—thick with heat and something else you didn’t dare name yet. He slowly pulled out, then settled beside you, arm wrapped around your waist as you turned into his chest.
Neither of you spoke for a while.
Just breathing.
Just being.
Then he kissed the top of your head, his voice softer than you’d heard it all night.
“Stay the night?”
You let out a quiet laugh against his chest.
“Didn’t realize I had a choice.”
-
The sun was barely up when you stumbled through Giselle’s front door, barefoot heels in hand, hair tousled and lips still tingling but still as put together as you could be. She was exactly where you expected her to be—sprawled on the couch in last night’s chaos of pink and white, a satin eye mask crooked on her forehead and a slice of cold pizza hanging limply from her fingers.
She peeled the mask off and blinked at you. “Oh my god,” she groaned, sitting up. “You look like sin.”
You grinned, tossing your shoes down and flopping onto the couch beside her. “You have no idea.”
She gasped. “Y/N—tell me everything. Who was that man? Where did you go? Did he ruin your life or just rearrange it a little?”
You laughed, burying your face into the throw pillow for a moment before lifting your head. “His name’s Hoseok. And...he’s dangerously charming.”
“Dangerous how?”
“Like—he kissed my hand when he introduced himself. Like, who does that?” You paused, smiling to yourself. “He made me feel like the only girl in the room without even trying. And he didn’t rush anything. He...listened. A lot.”
Giselle squinted suspiciously. “Was he hot?”
You let out a short breath. “He was beautiful. Like warm smile, honey voice, perfectly tailored pants beautiful.”
Giselle clutched her chest dramatically. “I’m gonna scream. Did you kiss him?”
“Giselle.”
“Did you sleep with him?”
You gave her a look.
Her mouth dropped open. “YOU DID.”
You laughed again, hands covering your face. “It was… good. Like, really, really good.”
“I’m so proud,” she said, hugging you from the side like she was sending you off to war. “Godspeed, you emotionally available goddess.”
You rolled your eyes but smiled, still a little dazed. “It was just one night.”
She grinned. “Yeah. But sometimes, one night’s enough to shake you a little, right?”
You paused, thinking of Hoseok's hands, his words, the way he looked at you like there was no one else worth looking at.
“Yeah,” you whispered. “It really is.”
“You should have given him your number.” she sat up.
“Who says I didn't?”
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i’m aware i alr have one req in BUT i just thought up another and if i dont send it rn i will forget it🥴
so here goes; how about a hobi smau (texts and maybe insta at the end?) where reader always posts her friends etc to her stories but NEVER posts about him and he asks her about it bc he’s upset she might be embarrassed about him BUT actually she just didn’t realise she was allowed to post him bc he’s an idol etc yk?
i haven’t requested a bts one in a hot minute so that’s why i chose hobi lololol ♥️
~ your batsie 🦇🦇🦇
THIS IS SO CUUUUUTE 😭 i luv your brain batty😞☝️ hope this okay that this was kinda short :(
彡embarrassed???
pairing' hobi x reader
genre' smau, fluff
warnings' short and sweet, mentions of insecurity, hobi is a sweetie pie, reader is kinda clueless at first
The first time you realized Hobi would never just belong to you, you were sitting side by side on your tiny couch, his head tipped back against the cushions, your favorite blanket wrapped around your legs. He was laughing at something dumb you said, the sound full-bodied and warm and your heart ached because you knew in less than an hour, he’d put on a mask, metaphorical and literal, and disappear into the world where millions thought they owned him.
And you? You’d be just the ghost of that laugh, tucked away where no one could see.
It had started quietly as most dangerous things do. You met him through a mutual friend when he was on break, nothing flashy. He liked the way you didn’t treat him like an idol and you liked the way he made even a corner convenience store feel like a date in Paris. Months passed in stolen hours: late-night ramen shops, your apartment lights dimmed so the windows didn’t give you away, his laughter filling your kitchen as he danced badly just to make you smile.
You both knew what it was, what it couldn’t be…public. But still, the line blurred faster than either of you expected.
The interview aired on a Tuesday.
You were chopping green onions when your phone lit up, an autoplay clip rolling before you had the sense to look away. Hobi sat on a studio couch, dazzling smile and bright eyes, answering a question you’d heard him dodge a hundred times before.
“Dating? No, no, no,”, he laughed, holding up his hands, “I don’t even have the time. My only love right now is music and my fans.”
The knife paused mid-slice. For anyone else, it was a throwaway line. Every idol was trained for years to say it or something similar as an answer to the dating question. For you though, it landed like a blade. The day before he had kissed your forehead, murmuring he’d see you later. You stared at his smile on the screen, so convincing, so familiar, and felt something twist.
That night he came over like nothing was wrong, hat tugged low, designer hoodie zipped to his chin. You let him in, but didn’t reach for him, didn’t tease him like usual. He noticed instantly.
“Y/N what’s wrong?”, he asked softly, crouching a little to meet your eyes, “Bad day?”
You swallowed, phone in your hand, “Why did you lie to me?”
Confusion flickered, then wariness, “Lie? About what?”
You hit play, the clip filling your quiet apartment. His own laugh rang out from the tiny speakers, careless and bright. When you paused it, the silence felt louder than the words had.
He dragged a hand through his damp hair, sighing, “Ah. That.”
“That?”, you repeated, heat rising in your chest, “You looked into the camera and said you weren’t dating anyone. That music and the fans were your only love. Do you know what that felt like, sitting here, knowing you kissed goodbye last night? Said you loved em before you left? Then you go there and act like it never happened.”
Hobi sank onto your couch, elbows braced on his knees. For once he wasn’t sunshine, he looked tired, almost small, “I wasn’t lying to you Y/N. I was lying to them.”
“It feels the same.”, you snapped, softer than you meant.
He shook his head. “No, it doesn’t. I wasn’t erasing you. I was protecting you. If I admit we’re together, it won’t just be my career that takes the hit. It’ll be you. You’d get dragged by people who don’t even know your name. You’d wake up to thousands of strangers picking apart your life, your body, your worth. Do you want that? Because I don’t want you to have to go through that…especially because of me.”
The words lodged in your throat. You knew he wasn’t wrong. You’d seen the way fans tore into rumors, the way a whisper could turn into wildfire, the way they made others lives hell for just even being seen in the same room as one of the group.
But knowing didn’t make it hurt less.
“I don’t want to be a dirty secret.”, you whispered, the edges of your vision going blurry, “I don’t want to sit in the dark while you stand in the light pretending I don’t exist.”
He looked up at you then and for the first time since you’d met him, his smile wasn’t anywhere in sight. His eyes were raw, unguarded, “You’re not a secret to me. You’re the most real thing I have. Every time the cameras turn off, it’s you I run to. Every time I think I can’t do this anymore, it’s you who keeps me steady. But if protecting you means hurting you…”, his voice cracked, “I don’t know how to fix that.”
You curled your fingers into his, squeezing hard enough to hurt, “I don’t care if they hate me, Hobi. I care if you make me feel like I don’t matter. Just promise me that off-camera you’ll never lie about us. Not to me. Not to yourself.”
His breath shook out of him, relief laced with something heavier. He pulled you into his chest, arms tight around you and for a moment you both just breathed.
Outside, the world still thought he was unattainable, untouchable, theirs. But here, in your small apartment, he was just a man who loved you clumsily, fiercely, desperately.
And you decided for now that was enough.
A week later you were still carrying the fight around like a bruise. Not gaping anymore, but tender if touched. Hoseok knew it too, he’d been softer, quieter, always checking your eyes before he reached for your hand.
Then the special fan meet happened. A sort of welcome back party for the group and fans.
You weren’t there, of course, but clips flooded your feed. Hobi sat at the table in a denim jacket, hair falling into his eyes, smile practiced but warmer than usual. A fan asked him what gave him strength when he was tired. He paused, pen twirling between his fingers.
“My… favorite person.”, he said finally, voice soft enough that it almost slipped past. The other members teased, fans screamed, but he just smiled, something secret in his eyes.
Later that night, he showed up at your door with a plastic bag of takeout and tired shoulders. He didn’t mention the clip. Didn’t ask if you’d seen it. He just sat cross-legged on your floor, feeding you bites with his chopsticks until you laughed.
But you had seen it. Everyone had. And when you teased, “Your favorite person, huh?” He didn’t flinch or deflect. He just met your gaze, steady.
“Y/B…I can’t tell the world your name,” he said, “But I can tell them I love someone real. That’s my line. My rebellion.”
Something in your chest eased, not gone but lighter. You leaned across the mess of takeout containers and kissed him, slow and sure.
Outside, millions of people thought they knew every piece of him. But this…this was the piece that was only yours, no matter how he worded it on camera.
And for the first time, you didn’t feel erased. You felt claimed.
warning: bratty oc, v light dirty talk, handjob,, cum/food play ???
//
“jung hoseok, hold it still!” you snap.
glaring at the slanted wall of the gingerbread house, you huff as the creamy icing betrays you again. it smears rather than sticks. the roof slides off with an insulting little thunk, and you groan in defeat.
you drop the piping bag onto the dining table.
“i am holding it still,” he bites back, one hand gripping the crumbling wall while the other hovers like it might somehow save this sugary disaster. “you’re the one using frosting that’s basically soup!”
“oh, so now it’s my fault?” you whirl on him, your hands sticky with icing and frustration. “you were the one who said, ‘just eyeball the measurements, babe.’”
he scoffs, dragging a hand through his hair, smudging a bit of icing near his temple.
“okay, chef, excuse me for thinking we could be a team on this.”
“team?” you snort, grabbing the roof and attempting—futilely—to stick it back on. “we’re supposed to be competing against your friends in, like, an hour, and we don’t even have a house. it’s more like... gingerbread rubble.”
hoseok stares at you for a beat, the corner of his mouth twitching like he’s trying not to laugh but knows better.
“you’re kinda cute when you’re mad.”
“don’t,” you warn, pointing a frosting-covered finger at him.
but he grins, that infuriatingly charming grin, stepping closer until the counter is the only thing keeping you apart.
“i’m serious,” he murmurs, leaning just enough that you have to tilt your head to hold his gaze. “all huffy, covered in icing… kind of a look for you. reminds me of you at night—”
“hobi,” you grit out, but your voice betrays you, a little breathier than you want it to be.
“what?” his eyes flick to your lips, his tongue darting out to wet his own. “we’re already losing. might as well enjoy ourselves before the humiliation.”
“we have to be there in an hour—”
“i’m hearing we have 45 minutes.”
“hobi…” you sigh. “i want to win like last christmas. i refuse to lose before we even get there—”
“is it really that big of a deal? there’s no prize.”
“i want to win.”
“yeah… but i want you,” he says, his voice dropping a notch as he leans even closer, his hands bracketing yours on the counter. the tension in the air shifts, sharp and electric, and you swear your pulse skips when he murmurs, “we could just call it a draw, you know. skip the party. stay here.”
the way his eyes drop to your lips sends a shiver down your spine, but you refuse to let him win. “... so, you just want to make out instead of fix this mess?”
his grin widens.
“ideally, i wanna cum at some point. but, yeah, sure. let’s make out.”
you narrow your eyes at him, but it’s hard to keep your composure when he’s looking at you like that—like the messy gingerbread house and the ticking clock don’t exist, like the only thing in the room worth his attention is you.
“hobi,” you say again, softer this time, almost a warning, though even you can’t tell if it’s meant to stop him or urge him on.
“what?” he asks innocently, though the way he leans in, his breath brushing your cheek, betrays him. “you’re the one who’s irresistible right now.”
“i’m covered in frosting,” you point out, trying for sarcasm.
“exactly,” he murmurs, his fingers curling lightly around your wrist. he lifts your hand, his thumb brushing over the smear of icing on your skin before he brings it to his mouth. his tongue flicks against the frosting, slow and deliberate.
“hoseok…”
he doesn’t respond this time, just sets your hand down to his lap.
“we’ll fix the house later,” he says, his voice low, almost a rumble. “right now… i have other priorities.”
you don’t get the chance to respond, because his mouth finds yours, warm and insistent, and everything else—the gingerbread house, the party, the sticky frosting—falls away. his hands guide yours to his bulge. you feel around it, already knowing what’s to come.
and also, what’s to cum.
you let out a small gasp against his lips, and he takes it as encouragement, deepening the kiss, his tongue brushing against yours in a way that sends a shiver down your spine. when he finally pulls back, his forehead rests against yours, his breath uneven.
“seriously… we’re going to be late,” you murmur, though your hands are still tangled in his hair.
“don’t care,” he replies, grinning that mischievous grin again. “we’ll tell them the gingerbread house broke in a… freak accident.”
hoseok doesn’t know what it is about you… but man, are you good at making him cum.
his pants pool around his ankles as your body leans towards his. his head is thrown back and icing you two had once used on the gingerbread house has spilled over his cock.
your hands have been wrapped around his cock for a good 15 minutes now and he’s on his second urge to nut. each time he approached his climax, you simply giggled, kissed him, and held his dick.
you held it as it throbbed.
as the tip grew angrier and angrier.
as his precum leaked down to your wrist.
“f-fuck, fuck, fuck! baby, please…” hoseok grunts. “can i cum?”
you pout at him, leaning closer and kissing his lips softly. as you pull away, you shrug.
"but your cock is so pretty. i don't want it to go down yet."
"baby..."
you frown at him. "also, our gingerbread house needs more icing…"
"so?"
"what do you mean so?" you hiss at him. "i wanna use your cum like icing."
his eyes widen at your request.
as innocently as possible, you bat your eyelashes as you tighten your grip around his cock. you move up and down, his skin dragging along with your motion. without breaking eye contact, you spit and let it drip over his tip. he hisses at the wetness. in fact, his entire stomach flips.
hoseok has always loved your handjobs. he doesn’t know if it’s because you have such soft hands or if it’s because he liked the way they look wrapped around his girthy length. another thing is that you always have your nails done so… yeah.
it’s a thing.
your hands are so pretty to him and to see them covered in icing… it turns him on. he likes what he sees. he likes seeing how wet, sticky, and full your hands look.
from his precum, from your spit, and from the icing you poured on top.
delicious.
the only thing that could make it any better is if you sucked his hard cock right now…
but you don’t.
and he doesn’t feel like begging right now.
he knows you and knows that him begging would feed your ego too much. right now, he’s just lucky to be here. just 20 minutes ago, you were bitching at him about the icing… now, you’re milking him for some.
as you pump his length, he moans and groans. you giggle as his upper body winces and you feel the way his hands roam to your ass.
“___… p-please? can i... nghghhhhh... c-can i cum?”
you think for a moment.
then, you reach over to the table and grab the piping bag. you open it up and prepare it for his aim.
“okay,” you answer him. “but i want you to cum inside here, baby. can you do that? can you cum inside here?”
hoseok gives you a weird look, but agrees quickly.
fuck it.
he doesn’t give a shit.
if you told him to cum in your mouth, in your pussy, or a fucking piping bag—he’d do it.
so, you continue to pump him. you stroke him, adding more and more pressure. the pacing goes along with the way he reacts to your touch, slow then you speed it up to match his breathing. he huffs and fidgets in his chair.
it leaks and for a moment you forget the bag. when you remember, you wrap it around his dick and try to get the access off. quickly, you put it aside and continue to pump him, milking more out of his climax.
blinking, you watch as more ooze out from his tip.
hoseok’s cum is creamy and milky, prettily contrasting the colour of his angry pink tip. the way it mixes with the icing in your hands makes it look even more appealing. for a second, you contemplate sucking his dick.
“you wanna suck it, don’t you?” he breathes.
you look up at him, biting your lip.
“yeah,” you admit. “bet it’ll taste good.”
he rolls his eyes and leans forward. this time, he kisses you. as he pulls away, he rests his forehead against yours.
“as much as i’d love to say yes, we have a party to get to. besides, you got what you needed. should we get to icing?”
that night, your gingerbread house ends up winning the contest.
not because the cum worked like glue...
but rather because the others had gingerbread houses in worse shape than yours... and partly because everyone agreed that the shiny glaze you put on top of your gingerbread house made it look extra special.