#honestme

[teaskeaps]

First time flirting with a Non-binary acquaintance.

Wish me luck, I'm not very familiar with those who present with abundant femininity, I'm used to slightly gross older men.

It really is progress (sorry to my older men, I still adore you, but you've not always been kind to me), because I'm exploring new avenues of pleasure and life which I have not met with before.

I am excited

[diaryofarunninglady-blog]

Dressed like Yoda Doing Yoga Chasing the Buddah (mind) Everyday is work and I love the job. Working on me daily. Sometimes I slip because it's my norm but I don't sweat my mistakes because I'm too busy learning from them. #diaryofarunninglady #lunchtimediaries #honestme #beopen #behonest #sharingmyjourney #mypassdontdefineme #meditating #coolandcalm #raisingmyvibrations #vibing #doingthework #mindingmyownbusiness #lipstickmonday #blackgirlyoga #blackgirlmagic (at Delaware) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpzqN_ihabv/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1l9fhvk8evxeq

[trueinconsistency]

22 Thing I Wish I Knew Earlier

Today is my last day as a 22 year old and it’s absolutely bizarre… It’s so crazy to me that I have made it to this place in my life where I feel like I have something to offer others. Through…

I realized something today. I really must sit down and organize my life. Well organize may not be the right word, but sitting down and weeding out what I want to work on within myself and what I want in life.

I found this lovely Youtuber and blogger, Tatiana Shabacon, which is provided in the link. I really loved #’s:

5. Find your purpose. Focus on “why” you’re going to do something instead of “how”.

17. “This too shall pass.” Whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing in your life, it will eventually pass.

21. Everyone is just winging it. Seriously, it’s all just one leap of faith after the other. Some people have just learned to tumble out of it gracefully.

Starting my own brand has really taken a toll on my life. I am constantly thinking about it and it is wonderful but at the same time I have only realized now that my life is as jumbled up as me trying to figure out this business. Now it’s not a bad thing. But I do feel inside of me that my growth as a person has stunted with the growth of this brand. I need to bring clarity and honesty back to my soul. I think the last time I actually felt this was a couple years ago. I can just see it as that I have all the pieces here right now, I just need to rearrange and put things in a clearer perspective for me to understand what is going on currently. Then from there be honest with myself in how I feel and respond to everything that is going on.

[thursdaysatthecafe]

Here is the truth. I'm afraid you will judge me. Yes, you. I'm afraid you'll judge my posts, my pictures, my words. I'm afraid you'll judge my life and my decisions. I'm afraid you'll judge me for who I am or who I want to be. Lately, I've realized that most of my actions are dictated by what I think other people might think of me. I'm scared, so scared. I've always been a people pleaser and I always want everyone to like me. I'm always afraid of sharing my heart or stepping out because what if someone thinks I'm odd or weird or stupid? What if someone puts a mental post-it-note on me in their mind and it reads "Crazy girl", "just trying to be cool", or something worse. Truth is, though, I can't please everyone and I can't let the worry of other people's thoughts about me dictate what I do and what I say. Yes, I'm a messy, emotional, almost 20 year-old coffee addict who has this dream of being a writer and traveling the world someday. I might be going to a small college and I might still be living at home with my mom, but that's ok. It works for me. I'm alive and happy and I have realized how freeing it is when I live my life free from the worry of what others think of me. So here I am, the messiest mess you'll ever get (because my name is literally mess if you didn't know that). This is the real, honest me. Take it or leave it.

[nickim93]

Shitttttt

Watching ken's vlog and seeing Jack wearing his Work Bitch hat ooooweeeee :$ I feel like a young girl again Hahahaha! In high school I had a thing for hot guys in flat billed hats :$ sigh I probably still do! Hahaha! It's like insta sexy to me :$ sigh. My heart cannot go on. It kills me hahaha as if Jacksepticeye couldn't get any more attractive.....I'm proven wrong all the time :$.

[nickim93]

Luckily @therealjacksepticeye loves his job :) it's work and play all in one and he's farrrrr from ever being dull. I though work and no play, I happen to be dull as fuck.

[nickim93]

[nickim93]

To be honest.

If @therealjacksepticeye started tatting up, I wouldn't be able to handle it. I already have trouble breathing when I see him :$ lol.