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To summarize...
another influx of newbies over the last couple of weeks ends (hopefully) with:
Neegan (yes I spelled that the way he does)
King Richard
and
Rhys
All should have tags and what little we have for their bios up now. We’ll be adding more to Rhys in a bit, but the other two are more difficult about opening up right now.
Well.......
We prayed this morning, Hecate was looking out for us, but she can only do so much. Especially because there's no way for get to really reach into financial matters. But dentist visits that end with "it'll cost $1,000 to get the rest of your work done" really really really really really don't help us right now.
An hour later. Sad music is still playing. Not a soul.
At work
Me: *sees a student, perks up*
Student: *walks right past into a different help center*
Me: *slumps in chair*
"All Outta Love" plays in the background
So Chad is having Patrick wear our collar today
Less than an hour in, the first time our mother sees it, we again get the question "Why do you wear collars?" The fact is, we like it, it feels nice. It's all grounding for some of us when we're hurting. Right now, it's a reminder of Pat's training. Why does it always turn into a weird thing for people...?
What are you gonna do when the power's out and you want chicken?
Over heard from the living room
status update: sep 30, 2016
eobard is a slut for spicy food
harry got mad at our mom while driving
hunter made harry apologize
ardee is crying because he saw a picture of sad!dean
digger and corvo are doing our shot tonight because none of the rest of us are even vaguely prepared
For present and future members of our system:
There will be that feeling. That one. When you are reminded, after a while, that we've hurt people we care about, and that it's harder than ever for them to trust others because of our inability to step up. And then that moment of awakening for you that at least some of the suffering in our life is well-deserved, we just didn't put two and two together to recognize what it was for at the time. And then comes the fear that you're contributing, doing the same things to them, and so many other unfair and hurtful things, and that we're toxic because... we are. And we don't know how to stop. You are making it worse. And I have no wisdom to offer you. There isn't a cure that we can think of. But I can tell you that no amount of sleep, video games, therapy sessions, research, alcohol, or time, have taught any of us to how heal that yet, for either us or the people we've hurt. The only thing we can do so far is accept that responsibility, and not let people try to make us feel better about it, because we know we shouldn't feel better. If other people carry the weight of our words and actions, so should we. Just learn to be more aware, and don't ask for help when you feel like this. Because it's a necessary pain. We can never forget what we do to people. We want to do well and we want to help, but we leave hurt everywhere we go and dismissing that only makes it worse. Be better than me. -Ardee, the host
