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THE SURROGATE 🪹

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well well well. im back again and still thinking about that damn television. and in that time i've uhhh uhhh. become brave enough to post what is basically mpreg to my main bc i really liked how it came out. shame dies and it dies today forevermore

this can be considered maybe a bit of a spiritual followup to Smile for the Camera!, at least theme-wise, and expresses a lot of things about tenna that i didnt really get to explore that ive been ruminating about for god. almost 10 months now man. ive got a lot of thoughts that ill probably share in a post of its own or in a reblog later. for now, take this :)

You're the TV in the living room, and you weren't made for this. There's a sickness in your head, and you think it's called desire. You knew the day you saw them that you yearned for something farther. For the TV shouldn't ever want, and the TV shouldn't need: You knew you should have never been more than the TV. But you were touched by loving hands, tiny and sincere, that found a comfort in your glow, and instilled an idyllic dream. And so you thought yourself deserving, to long beyond your view. Your perfect life, your perfect family, your picture perfect use. To reach beyond the light and sound, break glass to something real, truer than you've ever been, or will ever hope to be. It began to knock within your tube: Fantasies, dreams, and thoughts. Those all the more befitting of someone above your make and model. That envy for their brilliance cracks shame within your core. But you deserve it, don't you? To find use outside your purpose? You met someone, he understood: a need to exist past your design. You said you think he deserved that much, and he said you did too. And oh, all the ideas, Oh! The possibilities… Oh… all those plausibilities! It'll surely all be worth it… right? But as the divide grows ever greater, so too does your desire. Every spark you wish for calm, to have them relish safe within your arms. For what's it in an egg? When you peel the layers back? To look inside and know for certain what's beneath those shallow cracks. But you can never know for sure. You will never really know. You missed that chance to look inside, instead spilled way to its contents. You deserve everything. You deserved it all. Every little misstep leads you farther into hell. You've remained an empty nest. A promise to keep them safe in your guard, cherished and warm within your bounds, falls renounced and unrequited. For your love is unacceptable, Too intense and long and far, And cold and dread starts seeping in While guilt blooms amidst all you are within You know it would never suit you. And it really never should have. You've been a bad TV, and your first mistake was to want. That of which you cannot have, and never will achieve unravels itself before you in an endless sea of grief. Your arms were made for carrying, to comfort and give care, your wish to have and then to hold lay beside you, undeserving. You're the TV after all, and you weren't made for this.

#deltarune #tenna #kris dreemurr #spamton #described #froxart #the surrogate #cw pregnancy imagery #long post #comics #spamtenna #<- for filtering purposes bc its There. and Happened. However i will say my approach to it is rather .... Aro #and for what its worth. i see this comic as much about kris as it is about tenna #also happy belated trans day of visibility. this was not purposefully done around the date howeverrrr uh. theres transgenderism afoot here #lil bit different from my normal stuff. wanted to play with formatting and hand lettering #i haveeeee a lot more thoughts about this but i will leave it be for now. ill post them separately bc i do wanna encourage multiple reading #of this since its purposefully kinda abstract and maybe a lil esoteric.#btw in my files this was called my pipis thesis . my thesis about pipis. in my friend groups i just kind of referred to it #as the mpreg comic . because i mean by all senses. it IS that. lmfao #idk how much it counts as mpreg bc my tenna is bigender and also butch <- important to me. buttttt like. the vibe is there.#another alt name for this was nesting doll!#tungl gets this first bc i cant schedule on bluesky womp womp #im working on stuff that doesnt have tenna hes just um. well hes taken over my brain he lives up there just kinda always atp #as i always sayyyy one dayyyy one day we'll get there. im slow <3 anyways its 5am as im scheduling this goodnight. or goodmorning.

no matter how hard i try, my inner monologue is explaining my thoughts to an audience that doesn't exist. i dont know if that means anything

#comic #You know how we said we wanted to focus on the silly stuff. Um.#plural #plural system #i feel so emo posting this. WHATEVER!!#i should. probably twthis just in case #ableism tw #is that good enough?#lore drop for this one is we are tall and our headspace is an empty field with a well in it #autistic system #i dont even know if its possible to get rid of me atp #ps. she has some shit about system labels. were working on it #red #yellow

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[RECONSTRUCTION COMPLETE]

(This is part four of 'Interrogation', a short comic series (set to The Interrogation from the dbh soundtrack) for my dbhc au, featuring an early deviant S8 Doc as he ventures deeper into the android laboratory's hidden basement and the mysteries of its contents threaten to swallow him whole.)