ive been processing some of my compulsive feelings about penetrative sex (particularly, the kind that clashes with my bottom dysphoria) because I have a partner who actively enjoys that and I Don't. I Do Not. it's weird trying to parse out my emotions from wanting to please them and not wanting to do that, because I desperately want to make them feel good but I know in my chest that doing so in that way would destroy me.
that being said, reading text posts about having someone completely ignore your "front" to fuck you from behind like a "real man".....hmmmmm. Hmmmmmmm. the 10% of me that is not stone is going hmmmmmmmmmmmm. hmmmmmmaybe. in like. 5 months. maybe.












