#bottom dysphoria

[sapphic-design-is-my-passion]

"A girl without a penis is like an angel without wings and baby, I'm following in Lucifer's footsteps"

[queerlittlegremlin]

I’m like ash ketchum with all the types of dysphoria im experiencing right now. Gotta catch em all am i right?

[mygendersideblog]

I'm currently experiencing digestive distress, nausea, and abdominal pain FUCK

I hate bleeding

[lettuceplus1]

i genuinely hate complaining, but then i go and do it just all the fucking time now. my bottom dysphoria keeps getting more and more unbearable. im genuinely starting to get worried about how unstable and poorly degraded my mental health has become as a result. i spend every moment of my days just thinking about bottom surgery. wishing i could just walk right in and sign up to get it in a week or two. i feel like i need to rip my body apart. i feel like i need to scream until there is nothing left in me to push out. but what good does it do, yknow? how much time have i spent preaching to the choir? what am i expecting to get from this? can i really expect to see a solution to all this when it only ever feels like it's getting further and further away?

i've complained and ranted and wept endlessly to my friends, my partner, my self, even (embarrassingly) my internet followers about how disgusted i feel with my body. i've written pages upon pages of words both digital and physical describing in horrific detail how much i need this thing off of me. i've made art that i felt like stretched deep into the agony i feel just existing with this thing on my body. but it hasn't even been close to enough to express how i really feel. no amount of words i can use now or have used over the past several months can do it justice. i need so badly to reach deep in my stomach and beg anyone out there who can help to understand it. but that's the problem- there are few who can actually help compared to the many of us out here who need it. i need to do so much more than find a new way to scream every single time this happens. im tired of screaming. i just want to be.

i could have just been made a little differently. i could have just been given the body that belonged to me. or maybe not. i could have just been okay with what i have. i could have just been fine with who i thought i was before. i could have just kept my family, kept my body, kept my religious beliefs, kept my heart. i didnt have to change. i didnt have to be like this. so what the hell happened?

[asistanttothewallflower]

Ok so without sharing my whole ass medical history:

Bottom dysphoria might have just saved my life???

Bitch I didn’t know you could do that

[kathreez-nutz]

Guess what I learned today that will haunt me for a long time!!!!

Turns out, I have bottom dysphoria (and not just in the subby sense lmao) and I don’t know how to feel. Ive had a lingering thought for a while now but it’s overwhelming, it feels so alien and wrong on my body now, it’s like one last reminder of the tragedy of my first puberty. I think I could honestly blend in as a cis woman without anyone noticing with my body and voice with multiple trans or gender non conforming people I’ve known over the span of years didn’t realise I was trans. I want rid of the final thing. It is disgusting and wrong and unnatural.

I got a fufu clip last week and I finally got it on properly today by accepting id have to wear the harness. Wow. I felt so much more complete and comfortable in my skin, it felt amazing, I was flat but not hurting like my flat other “device” it just sat on there and didn’t care about movement or anything like that.

I noticed something about moving my legs inwards and actually having nothing there, I’ve learned to block out the feeling of the sack I guess but when it’s gone it was night and day and my body felt, normal I guess? For the first time I can ever recall, it just felt normal.

This is an expensive observation, and that is upsetting that to have a baseline existence it costs tens of thousands

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[the-kill-all-tmes-lady]

i think being a bottom and not really enjoying anal is the worse combination for a preop tranny