i have a story about a dodie concert
Disclaimer: I would never have truly believed that this happened if the people I was hanging out with hadn't grabbed my shoulders, told me, and freaked out on my behalf. And even now, I am not fully convinced but it's a nice memory, so...
Back in 2018, I saw dodie perform in Seattle. I went alone and met with some people that I had been talking to on Twitter for like a week before. We were lucky enough to get barricade. It was a packed venue.
dodie's set went "6/10" straight into "Secret for the Mad".
For very personal reasons, "6/10" is a song that I cannot listen to without crying. Part of it is definitely this moment. The other part is a variety of shit that I don't wanna disclose on the internet.
So, "6/10" plays, I started sobbing. A lot. And I despised crying in front of people. With a passion. So, there's a lot happening.
"6/10" ends, I am still crying, and "Secret for the Mad" starts.
I kinda just fell silent, still crying. During the first chorus (i think, it's blurry, a lot was happening), I thought for the splitest of seconds that dodie was looking at me. I thought it was just the emotions and tried to wipe my eyes (hopeless effort, by the way).
It wasn't until the song ended that one of the people that I was with grabbed my arms and shook me and shouted about her looking at me. I didn't believe it but they promised that they had it on video (which I have saved on my phone somewhere. There's no way in hell that I got rid of it, but because it was someone else, I don't think it proves much).
Anyway, that memory has stuck with me for five years. I've seen dodie once since. I still cry listening to that song. And I don't think that I'll ever get the chance to thank dodie for that (if it happened). She probably does not remember it or think about it, but I hope she has some idea of how much that moment made me feel heard, seen, and understood during a time in my life when I really didn't feel like I was.
Yeah. That's my little story. I just wanted to share it because it's kinda cute.
Thank you for reading, if you did. Love you!
