"Really?! You look like one of those really cool foreigners!" Aiko was jumping in excitement. She had always wanted to meet the western people because she read great things from the newspaper articles.
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If anyone was to look at the security camera then all they would see was a book slowly pulled out from one of the shelves in the archive and then opened.
By now this spirit form was like second nature to him and he really had no issue picking up what he wanted to pick up or fade through the objects he wished to fade through.
16. Match 1939
“We have taken Czechoslovakia! This is a grand step for Germany! So now is the time to stay focused and keep going! Yet, I’m the only one who seem to understand this. Why are these people celebrating by drinking alcohol!? You can celebrate like that when we’ve taken all of Europe, not now! We still have a long way to go.”
“There is nothing to celebrate you stupid child... you are about as delusional as the rest if you believe you are really going to take over Europe,” he mumbled to himself.
30. April 1939
“Apparently the Jews living next to my parents were forced to move. They now have to live in specific areas. So it seems like we’ve got Jewish areas in this city from now on. I’m not surprised it has come to this.”
19. May 1939
“So I had my first driving lesson today with my brother. It went surprisingly well, so I guess if I keep this up I’ll be able to get my own car once I’ve become a member of the SS.”
It was truly draining to read these diaries as they were now completely consumed by the war. Even the entries that didn’t fully focus on the state of the country it was always in the background and something in the text would mention it.
19. June 1939
“So I’m at my uncle’s farm, like each year, and Dean came with me this year. It’s nice to get away from the city, and this farm is probably one of my favorite places on earth. My uncle is very proud of how far I’ve come. He’s more like a father to me than my real father has ever been. Nacht is just as happy to see me as ever.”
7. July 1939
“I can’t get much work done with Dean trying to distract me here. He seem to think of this as a vacation, and had he been anyone else then I would have been mad at him, but I can’t bring myself to get upset when he’s smiling at me like that. Such a lovable fool. He’s only a few years older than me but he’s also being handpicked by the SS. Either way, I can’t write much more right now, Dean keeps distracting me.”
He found his mind drifting. It was as though he could see that smile, feel a pair of arms wrap around him, wanting to pull him into an embrace and pull him away from the book. But he was pulled back to reality when he was about to drop the book. What on earth was that?
21. August 1939
“Last day at the farm, we’re heading back to Berlin tomorrow. And Dean asked again for us to have sex, and I just couldn’t think of an excuse to I told him how unsure I was of the whole subject, and how I’m actually rather scared of doing it. I also told him that I didn’t want to disappoint him, so that’s why I kept making excuses not to do it. He took it way better than I though he would. All he did was kiss and hug me and told me that it was fine, that we would wait until I was comfortable with the though of having sex with him. I wish I had told him sooner how I felt, I feel like an idiot now. So tonight, like so many nights before, we just slept in the same bed together, since our uncle doesn’t care, we are free to act more the way we want while we’re here.”
3. September 1939
“Ha! United Kingdom, France, Australia and New Zealand has declared war on Germany since we invaded Poland. Oh, they won’t be able to beat us. If they truly wanted to take us down then they would have done so earlier. They fear us, and so they should!”
“That moronic confidence is going to be the death of you,” he growled under his breath.
28. October 1939
“So much is happening these days, yet at times one could think that a war hadn’t. starting. Either way, the Hitler Youths were discussing the Euthanasia Program that started a while ago. I personally support it as this society would benefit from not having to support the weak. Just look back at how my family suffered from having to take care of my now dead sister. Had seen just died immediately instead of spending years sick everything back home would have been better!”
He was temped to throw the book across the room, but instead he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. This kid... this.... kid.
9. November 1939
“Some fool tried to assassinate Hitler yesterday. He failed of course, as you would have expected. It won’t be that easy to take down the leader of Germany! We’re close to invincible right now, but we can’t let that go to our head, it’ll cause us to make unnecessary mistakes.”
“You did let that go to your head a couple months ago, and I have a feeling that will happen again.”
1. December 1939
“So I’m 18 now, and I’ll be joining the SS in a couple of days. Finally! Dean and I are both very excited about this, and my brother is going to escort me to where I am to meet to become a part of the SS. I might even get the chance to meet Hitler! Of course, the rest of my family didn’t say anything, both my father and Karl is in the army, but I can’t say where they are simply because they never bothered to inform me.”
That was the last entry in this book... it was a short and small book, but the next one was far thicker, and from here on they appeared to be in much better shape. He placed the book away and rose to his feet. Time for him to get out of here before he actually attracted someone’s attention.
It had been some time since he had found the time to continue reading these diaries, but now he had finally found time to do so, and with the discovery of his spirit form he knew exactly how to get hold of the other diaries. He didn’t have to ask for permission, he could simply sneak in at night and read whenever he wanted to.
He opened the book up to where he had last ended the reading session.
21. May 1938
“I was in the city with Dean this evening, and I saw Gertrud trying to sell herself. Even after all these years she’s still doing this. I reminded her of the dangers she is placing herself in, and how she might ruin mine and Ferdinan’s reputation. I know that had it been Ferdinan who found her then he would have made sure this was the last time, but I suppose I have a soft spot for her. I just hope her actions doesn’t harm the rest of us.“
Oh she was doing so much more than simply selling herself. By now she had probably started to kill SS officers, or try to help people out of the country as she saw the danger growing.
14. June 1938
“I’m at my uncle’s farm right now. It’s rather sad over here as his youngest son died only a couple of weeks ago, right before I came here. I’m doing my best to make things better since I know my uncle almost seems me as one of his own children, and he did tell me that having me here did make things a bit better, but I know that I will never replace one of his dead son, and I’m not going to try either.”
One of the many upcoming family tragedies. Was there anyone left alive in this family tree? Or had everyone died?
29. June 1938
“It’s fascinating just how strict everything is for Jews these days. They can barely work, or get education, and now they need identification cards that they have to show to the police if asked.
On another note, mother look so sad these days, I don’t understand why. I tried to ask Erna about it, though she’s busy planing her wedding, a wedding I was not informed of until now since I saw that she was writing invitations. All she said was that I had changes. They can’t handle the changes around them.”
16. September 1938
“Dean asked about sex again, and I declined, saying that this was not the right time, that I had too much on my mind. I know he’s disappointed, and that hurts, but I’m too scared to go along with it and I find this to be a subject that’s really hard to talk about for some reason… Anyway, I wasn’t lying! With everything happening around us it’s hard to start thinking about petty things like physical pleasures.”
Disappointed yes, but somehow Ulquiorra just knew that Dean understood, and was willing to wait, however long it took.
16. October 1938
“We have taken Sudetenland! And the army is mobilizing now. My father and Karl is joining, because they have to. Karl is sad because that means he has to leave his wife.”
He gripped the book a bit tighter for half a second before calming down. There was a feeling of dread that had slowly started to creep up on him. War was something that should evoke negative feelings, but this felt more like he was being placed in the war instead of simply reading about i.
9. November 1938
“Just got back from the raid I spoke about a while ago. It was interesting. Jewish shops and businesses were attacked, and Jews were arrested, I think even a few got killed. I don’t know. A lot of young people, and many from Hitler Youths were there. I swear, some of them weren’t doing it because they hated Jews but because they just wanted to break something. I honestly was just there to observe… I still don’t get this hatred for Jews, and I don’t think I ever will.”
He closed his eyes for a moment and sighed. That was all he could do at this point.
1. December 1938
“I’m now 17. One more year and I’ll be allowed to join the SS! I was even visited by some of their members and they gave me gifts. Mother looked so worried the whole time. So when they were gone I asked her what her problem was, she’s been acting so weird! And she told me that she didn’t like that I was joining the SS and she didn’t like how I had changed. Well, that happened, I’m not a child anymore.”
18. January 1939
“I’ve officially moved out of my parent’s home and is now living with Dean and some of his friends. It feels like I’ve finally been given freedom. So now I can focus on my politics and work, and not have to bother with those idiots that are a part of my family. And since I don’t get that much money yet for what I’m doing, I’m being financially supported by Ferdinan.”
He wondered how hard it must have been to hide from his friends that he was in a relationship with Dean.
8. February 1939
“It’s strange to live on my own like this, but it’s a lot nicer, and I now live so much closer to the city! It’s great! One of the them even has a car! I have no idea how they could have afford that! I wonder if I’ll be able to get a car sometime in the future. Ferdinan does have a car too, and he says that he’s going to teach me how to drive it. I’m so excited!”
He closed the book and got up. From now on, he would have to use his spirit form to sneak into the places that had the other diaries, but with how used to that form he was now it really shouldn’t be a problem. Even if those black creatures were to appear as he now knew how to fight them.
He had finally found the time to visit the other archive to start reading on one of the two diaries they had. In the meantime he had discovered that the next ones were at a museum, and he would struggle to get access to those, but he would find a way. Even if it meant breaking into the museum at night. It was so incredibly strange to be this motivated for anything, to have a drive... it felt so foreign and downright wrong.
He opened the first diary.
30. July 1937
“I got the chance to meet Hitler again, as a representative for the Hither youths. It’s inspiring to hear just how dedicated he is, and this grand vision he has. This is a man I would not even hesitate to follow. It doesn’t matter if I disagree with some of his view or ideas, he still has the strength and the power to lead Germany out of this depression and into greatness, and if a few people has to be sacrificed to get there then I will do whatever I can to help.”
The need of the many comes before the need of the few. It was not the first time this had been used to rationalize inhuman acts, and make them appear necessary, and it would probably not be the last.
5. August 1937
“I don’t think my father is going to bother me anymore. He tried to hit me, but I hit first, knocking him out. When he woke up again he immediately went back to his mindless rage, so I pushed him down the stairs, he broke a leg. And I told him that the moment I because a part of the SS he was the first person I would come for, unless he pulled his act together as he’s a horrible example of the proud German people.”
He closed his eyes and sighed, shaking his head slightly. This boy... this idiot of a boy.
17. September 1937
“I’m at my uncle’s farm right now. Arrived here late yesterday so I was too tired to write about it then. I would have showed up here during the summer but I was so busy with politics that I couldn’t. But I’m here now and my uncle is very glad to see me, and so is Nacht. He’s such a huge horse now, and so well trained. Uncle is saying that it’s because of my patience ant training that he’s such a good animal now, I can’t help but feel proud of this.”
“As if you were present enough to train that horse,” he mumbled to himself.
16. October 1937
“Uncle is saying that they are planing to build a railway not far from the farm, which is great as that would make it so much easier to transport what he’s selling into the city. Although, I have a feeling those railways that are being built at a rapid pace is going to be used for something else too… it seems like the SS and Hitler is planing something big.”
29. November 1937
“I just got back home from my uncle’s place, and my mother is in the hospital, because my dad hit her with a empty bottle. What a pain. once I have enough power I’m going to put him in jail. Also, my grandmother died while I was gone, I even missed the funeral. Oh well, it seems like no one wants to inform me of these things. I spoke with Ferdinan and he has had the same problem. It seems like our father doesn’t like us, and our mother has been acting weird ever since I joined the Hither Youths and Ferdinan became a member of the SS. Ugh, I’ll just stay at Dean’s place for a while instead.”
Ferdinan... Ferdinan... It bothered him that this person was mentioned this much, he didn’t deserve the attention.
1. December 1937
“So I’m 16 now. I’m celebrating my birthday with Dean and his family.”
There was about half a page worth of more text, but it was so water damaged that Ulquiorra couldn’t read what it said...
3. January 1938
“Ferdinan said that once I’ve turned 18 I’ll be allowed to join the SS. Normally they would not take in anyone as young as me, but I act as adult as the members in their 20′s and apparently the SS wants more capable and loyal members who can be trusted.”
4. February 1938
“I was just informed that Hitler is now in full control of the German army. Good. He has removed anyone that is not sympathetic to his cause, not allowing them to take part in any decisions from now on. Good. They don’t know what’s good for Germany anyway.”
“And neither do you...”
13. March 1938
“Austria is now in a union with Germany! This is fantastic news as many of the people in Austria are German and I believe they should become German citizens. Either way, this is a big step for Germany to become the greatest country in Europe! “
26. April 1938
“Now Jews has to register their wealth and property. It seems like they are getting more and more restrictions, but I don’t care too much. Most people seem to not care, or they really dislike Jews. I honestly don’t care about this cause, but it’s part of Hitler’s grand plan so I will not oppose it.”
He closed the diary and placed it away with a sigh. This really was getting worse, but he found that he could not muster the emotional response he felt he should be having. It was like whatever he was feeling was slowly being muted. Or perhaps he as simply getting used to this.
