#humandevelopment

[thesaudiavatar]

Time to Rage

Doing the right thing or at least shaming myself for doing the wrong thing. That was the role taken and necessarily so to try to upkeep the structure of what I needed to be in order to validate my life here as a human.

I have tried. I have really tried. But I cannot keep down the voice that has never let me be perfect, the annoying inconvenience that burst and flames at spotanous times and it says the same thing

I DID NOT GO THROUGH THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF EVOLUTION TO BE LIKED

I DID NOT COME HERE TO BE A SEDATED VERSION OF MY SPIRIT

Now I am in chaos. Nothing means much. It is outrage to know to realize…..that everything that is happening does not need to be the case. The outrage to know that the suffering in this world is a result of unspoken truths and unmet pain within each and every person.

The outrage that I have come to understand information but cannot transfer it onto people, into people

I have overidden the program. It is now system error and I can rage. I can rage for myself and for every sexualised part of my body that was not any man’s to possess in image in mind or in body

I rage for the ancestors of female repression and for the witches in my lineage who have been tames and shackled by threat of mortality

Over and over again

Until they became limp and in hatred of their own power

Me

I am their daughter

And I am allowed to rage

And I am allowed to wild

And I am allowed to strip

Me

I am their daughter

And I am free

And I am free

And I am free

The ultimate avoidance is mass and chronic and deeply engrained in the abyss of the psyche

Avoidance of our mortality

Delusion of death

We cannot die

But you must kill the identity who is separate and striving

To know you cannot die

You can only be immortal

If you are the soul incarnate

Full expressive

And to be the soul is the largest inconvenience this human has ever met

And the only channel to freedom

It is time to colour the world in rage

Beautiful gorgeous connected rage

Rage for injustice

Rage for lies

Rage for suppression

Rage for abandonment of ourselves and each other

This has been a traumatic birth.

This human specimen has been a traumatic birth

And the trauma is the only way to call in love

It is the gap of love

It is a hole in the middle of our earth body

And the whole must empty out

In order for water to flow into it and allow life to grow

But that liminal period before water and after the purge

It has no mercy

It is absolute death

And only in accepting that and still surviving

We can finally realise that death

Is absolutely necessary

And absolutely freeing

[pokingholes-cptsdwarrior]

Follow @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior Photo and Caption ⏬ Reposted from @latibulecounseling In a house where there is no support, protection, or comfort, children have to rely upon the limited resources of their bodies to manage overwhelming circumstances and difficult feelings. ⁣ ⁣ Infants have the fewest resources because their body and nervous system are still very immature and yet even a baby can disassociate. ⁣ ⁣ Toddlers and preschoolers have a few more options. They can use food to soothe themselves or increase adrenaline production through hyperactivity or risky behaviors. ⁣ ⁣ As children reach early puberty, more options become available. They can restrict food, binge, and purge, develop obsessive-compulsive patterns of behavior, act out sexually, pinch/scratch themselves, and even contemplate suicide. ⁣ ⁣ In adolescence, running away is now an option. Teenagers also have greater access to cigarettes and drugs or they can act out sexually. ⁣ ⁣ Other coping mechanisms can be developed such as getting lost in books or fantasy, parentification behavior, or overachieving.⁣ ⁣ Few trauma survivors realize their behaviors represent an attempt to regulate their nervous system and the unbearable physical sensations and emotions. ⁣ ⁣ When you are a trauma survivor who has learned to manage overwhelming feelings using addictive, eating disorder, or unsafe behaviors, it takes more than reading a book ⁣to address both the trauma and the ways you are coping with it. ⁣ ⁣ Many feel so much shame for “not knowing how to deal with their problems.” What if you are here today because you have learned to survive? ⁣ ⁣ Self-compassion is needed in this work. Dr. Gabor Mate often says, Recovery is to recover, what are you trying to get back? You are recovering your authentic self. ⁣ ⁣ #trauma #addition #humandevelopment #copingskills #emotions #latibulecounseling #counselorsofinstagram #counselorsfollowcounselors #eatingdisorderrecovery #traumarecovery #traumahealing #traumainformed #traumatherapy #traumasurvivor #traumaawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/CQFeBQTDWfC/?utm_medium=tumblr

[nataliahadit]

Generator and Projector - an ideal manipulative relationship❓🧐

The relationship between Generators (including Manifesting Generators) and Projectors, who living their Not-Self (get rid of illusions - there are most of them) are initially deep and very difficult🔥💣

➡️The fact is that energetically Projector and Generator are uniquely designed for each other by their nature. It is the perfect combination of Yin and Yang☯️

Auric configurations of 🔴Generator (open, enveloping, embracing) and 🔻Projector (directed, penetrating) - are yoni and lingam, an ideal relationship in the Universe, which are created to generate evolutionary movement❤

There are a lot of such pairs, since these types find each other most easily🧲 And of course, if such a partners live life from the Not-Self, then their relationship will be an ideal example of the strongest manipulation😖

Why❓

➡️Let’s start by entering into a relationship. None of them most likely do it correctly❗️

🔻For Projector a personal invitation is the only way to correctly enter into a relationship. He must be recognized, he must be wanted and called. And 🔴Generator should do it in this combination.

🔻Projector, in turn, accepting the invitation from Own Authority, must recognize and appreciate the creative gifts of the 🔴Generator, contribute to his flourishing.

❗️The purpose of the Projector is to facilitate in every possible way movements of the Generator to his well-being❗️

BUT!😤 When it’s only the Not-Self meeting, this will never happen! 🥳

➡️Point is that Generator will endlessly envelop the Projector with own aura, and Projector will infinitely penetrate into the very core of Generator and read it out🌪

He will know exactly what Generator is designed for🧚‍♀️ And here we have a SURPRISE - the Projector will only direct all the energy of the Generator to meet his own needs, towards own success and prosperity💥 Direct all to his own prosperity, to his own development, BUT there is nothing to develop there! There is no SACRAL power, there is no MOVEMENT🙃

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In comments we can discuss how these work in your situation🙂❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CRCCRusCFoD/?utm_medium=tumblr

[chasingpagesquotes]

No one is born evil. As Winnicott put it, 'A baby cannot hate the mother, without the mother first hating the baby.' As babies, we are innocent sponges, blank slates, with only the most basic needs present: to eat, shit, love, and be loved. But something goes wrong, depending on the circumstances into which we are born, and the house in which we grow up.

Alex Michaelides, The Silent Patient 

[alexandrian-archives]

This is a day late but I promise I will start posting regularly :)

For my Human Development class, we had to choose an injury/maladie (I can’t seem to find the right word in English, sorry about that) that affects the brain and the overall development of a human being. Examples were depression, anxiety, and a few others and I decided to choose PTSD! I know that PTSD is very common in soldiers and the like but I also wanted to raise awareness kind of, I guess, that PTSD exists in people that aren’t soldiers. These civilians (I am trying to refrain myself from saying “normal people” because soldiers are still human beings) suffer from PTSD because they have seen domestic violence/abuse, have been raped, suffered from other types of abuse and a lot more scenarios that are often dismissed as “they are exaggerating”. I do not have PTSD because I am lucky to be raised in a caring environment where I have the support I need but I know that is not the case for many, especially those that are stuck at home and feeling unsafe during these turbulent times when school/going out/friends were their only escape. If you ever need someone to talk to/want someone to listen, I am always open to talk :)

Please remember to take care of each other and of yourselves! Everyone needs support during these times.

Be Kind!

Love,

Esme

[drawittoknowitmedical]

Embryology Glossary: Sex Chromosome DSDs

Typical genotype-phenotype relationships: 46 XX, female-typical phenotype * Primordial germ cells in the gonadal ridge induce ovarian differentiation, in approximately week 8. * Genes from the Wnt family and others transform the paramesonephric

Learn about the development of people with different sex chromosome combinations - click through the cards!

[alexandrian-archives]

Human development! I love this class because It often involves our own research and then we just have to answer the work in like paragraph format and I LOVE research and learning new things! Our 'lesson' is the personality of a human lol and whether it comes from nature so genetically or nurture, so culture, surroundings, our families and friends, etc. I think it is both and I don't think that it's um the answer my teacher wants but that is the answer she is going to get lol. I hope you guys are well! Love, Esme

[alexandrian-archives]

More Human Development! I know I haven't posted in AGES but I just needed a bit of a break to focus on my studies. I always worry I am bugging you guys with the same content because I have three classes and that is it! But I promise next year, that is in September, I will have 5 classes again (I am starting at York University! So excited!) and I will post more interesting photos haha. That being said, I probably won't be very active during the summer but I might post like stuff I am reading or just like idk my adventures when (hopefully) stuff like bookshops and cafés open up and when I can go and visit Toronto again haha. I am a huge fan of K-Pop (Yes I am one of those kpop fan studygrams/blrs lol) and right now I am listening to AGUST D's new mixtape "D-2" as well as Day6's new album "Book of us: Demon". I really love both albums! On the mixtape, my favourite song is probably Strange which features RM and on the Day6 album, it's probably "Afraid" and "Day and Night". Oh and I also forgot, I am listening to Baekhyun's new album "Delight" and I really love it! He is one of my favourite solo artists that come from groups! Hope you guys have a good day, Love, Esme