yejun’s heart liked to swallow things. it swallowed early memories of his mother at the beach in a summer’s sun, the way she sang in the car with the window’s down and wind blowing her hair past her shoulders, and the way her laugh would always make him laugh, no matter what. it swallowed memories of his sister, sharing secrets under the blanket in a language only they could understand, the way she had no problem with yejun trying on her clothes, the way she told him he was beautiful when he did. and it swallowed his best friend, the first person he ever loved; the way he would never know the right things to say but always the right ways to hold him, the way he eventually told him he loved him, the way they dreamed of growing old together.
yejun didn’t get close to many people anymore because getting close meant getting swallowed. all the love there would overwhelm, become the wrong kind of desperate. the sick, twisted kind, that made him remember all the memories he lost in a sudden rush of loneliness. but sometimes, you don’t get to choose who you love, sometimes those who become important just find their way to you like a stray cat.
this is much like how it happened with sihyeon. he didn’t have much of a choice when it came to how much he cared for him, nor did he really seem to mind when he figured it out one day as they were laying on his couch, limbs hanging over each other in a comfortable tangle. and since that day, he was sure that this time things could be different. or so, hwang sihyeon gave him that hope.
“i think this one,” yejun says putting a sparkly purple dress up against sihyeon’s slim figure. he’s more toned than yejun, taller too, though his legs weren’t quite as long as yejun’s. his wide frame might not suit a strapless dress but would look nice in something that hung off his shoulders and cinched the waist. “but if you’re going to wear one of my dresses, you’ll have to wear it. which means, you need to sit still and let me do your makeup.” yejun pats the seat at his vanity and waits for sihyeon to comply.
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