#i am empty

[ruanbaijie]

finally finished reading eotdawn and now what do i do with my life

this whole trilogy had so many beautiful quotes but it was this one, this one, that unmade me

[mydarkawaits]

emptiness is full of me

[kneipe]

dresden 2025

[kikujomi]

Uhm so anyways when is Alecto coming out..

[that-poetic-usher]

I think the best way to die is through suicide. I am not encouraging suicide at all ofc. I will never do that. But my point still stands. This is because when we r born in this world we don't know anything. Who am I what am I why am I where am I but we just spawn here on earth. A life which we didn't choose. We have to follow certain rules and regulations. Do this and that. Suffer. Suffer a lot. If u don't do that u can't have that. To achieve that u also need to do this. Blah blah blah. But in all this even if we are able to do some things by our choice we are still one way or another trapped in the system. The matrix. Of what is life for everyone of us. Why should I Suffer for something I didn't choose to born into?? Religion? Now that's another shit. Let it be theories like "repenting for adam's sins" or "repenting for our own sins which we committed in a past life" whatever it maybe it's still bullshit. Why should I repent for someone else's mistake or for a life I don't even remember?? Anyway fuck religion. But now without religion then there is no actual cause for why we exist and suffer?? Science nerds would say we exist because of evolution dumbass and start nerding out from big bang theory bhla bhla But that answers how we exist. Not why. Why. Why do I need to live a life which I didn't choose???

And this is why I think suicide is the best way to die. Because for once in your life u can forget everything. Everyone. And just choose yourself and for the first time u can be free to make a choice which won't threaten your life. A life u didn't choose. That's all.

I know I will die by suicide tbh. Maybe Not today nor tomorrow maybe not even in many days. Nor in years but when I do go it will be suicide because I will not let another person another something choose atleast how I die. Atleast that thing I can choose.

[dizzy-boy]

Just finished Big Bang Theory I didn’t realize I was on the last episode and then it all just ended there is a pit of grief inside me and it is swallowing everything

[kawaiivomiting]

i dont know what to do with myself when i get bored of punishing myself i sort of just want someone to hug me from behind while we lay in bed

[chaotic-orphan]

Reading Update:

Guys… i just finished From Blood and Ash [TW?? a romantasy, slightly spicy book?? Very little spice but I cared more about the FUCKING RELATIONSHIP OMG *bites fist* LIKE ACTUALLY FULL ON SHIPPED THE MC AND LOVE INTEREST!!!!]

OH AND TALK ABOUT LADY WHUMP?!?! DID SOMEBODY SAY LADY WHUMP?!?!! YOU HEARD ME, IT IS ALL LADY WHUMP— I actually nearly died when I saw all the whump scenes involving the MC, sooooo good🤤🤤🤤

and I am dead inside because NONE OF MY BOOKSTORES STOCK THE SECOND FUCKING BOOK AND I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO THROW A FIT

I am empty… i am restless, I don’t remember a time when I felt happy… I finished it this morning😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😔😔😔 anyways…

Put it into goodreads, ALL I SAW WAS NEGATIVE REVIEWS??!?!! I’m sorry, why don’t neg reviewers just be happy and enjoy life??? Maybe?? Some advice maybe??

Like i appreciate neg reviewers, but like… I loved that fucking book, god damn, I haven’t enjoyed a fantasy in sooooo long!!! Maybe because I don’t read fantasy and haven’t seen the tropes a billion times I liked it more??? Who knows🤷‍♀️