#i am so totally completely normal about him..so normal..

[milesick]

i just finished watching kubzscouts play dispatch after waiting so long for the full game..i need those robert robertson fics STAT!

[liddolwitch]

Thoughts on Dame Gaya Seremai and Occtis (from your resident living dead girl):

I know I've mentioned this already but I'm truly losing my mind over Dame Gaya Seremai saying that she would do anything to avoid returning to the dark and Occtis saying that it's inevitable but he will always bring her back. Because a couple things. The critters I've heard talking about it seem to see it as sweet if a bit unhealthy. Seremai doesn't have a scared affect but you don't say that kind of shit if you're not desperate. Occtis wasn't intending it as a lie or a weak promise at all. But it's one he cannot keep because infinity extends beyond his abilities and he cannot guarantee his own safety. 2) it's not enough. It's not fucking enough. That's not a comfort. Maybe in the context of this one character in the show in that one moment it is because she's hoping her actions will be able to make a difference and they seem to be addressing grief over termination of life rather than the experience of dying.

But holy fuck, I wish there were critters I knew I could talk to about the fact that there is no protection from the feeling of dying again and again and again. Obviously I haven't died. Some people have and have come back. But the experience of dying, of reaching a state where your body needs emergency intervention or organs will begin to fail, that loss of warmth from your body and the inability to get warm again, like life is seeping into the air around you and you can't hold onto it. There's a fear nothing else could hold, that cannot be spoken, and an aloneness at the core of it that eats away at who you are. She said she would do anything to avoid it. He said he would bring her back. She will still die again and again and again and not only can he not protect her from that, he didn't even think to try and comfort or shield her from that part of it.

He can't keep her on this side permanently. She was so scared and he made a promise that things would be okay but not now, and not forever, and no protection for as long as you can anticipate. For a short while that might as well be a million eternities. And I don't think as a roleplayer or as a character in the narrative, he intended for it to be dishonest or a doomed precedent. I think he just didn't necessarily, in the narrative, at least, consider what it means to be fucking terrified of that space between life and death and being forced to remain there until safety can be granted again temporarily. As nothing more than a gift.

[iron-niffler]

currently debating the pros and cons of sending an extremely late response to an email i should have responded to over a month ago

[hide-your-bugs-away]

Price-Burdon lore featured on the back of Animalisms that I somehow haven't seen over the past five and a half years but now that I know about it I am weeping the happiest tears (and need to update my essay...)

...Alan lives rent-free in Eric's head...

[aesadraws]

Crying in the club because of FFX's ending

[bylertruther]

do you ever think about the fact that throughout the entirety of stranger things we’ve always seen mike practically shout his love for will from the rooftops by throwing his everything into believing, protecting, and helping will no matter the stakes, and how a majority of byler moments are initiated by him, and how will has always loved him back quietly despite being the one canonically confirmed to be in love, and how will is almost always on the viewer’s right in iconic byler moments but in season four we find him on the left in what used to be mike’s spot because their “roles” have switched AND when we’re taken out of the viewer’s pov and put in jonathan’s pov we see jonathan Come To A Realization here because while mike has always made it clear how special will is to him and how different their relationship is, will has always managed to keep the true depth of his feelings a little closer to his chest and it’s only when he publicly takes up that support role that mike has played for him previously that the audience is purposely made to realize, too, how romantic it truly is, because coming from mike everyone might have thought it was his usual overzealous theatrics but when the same tenderness and earnest love comes from will they realize oh. this is... this is actually something more. this is how they are this is mike and will like nothing has changed and no time has passed but it’s now that we realize just what it is, and now that will is starting to slowly but surely come out from this curtain he’s hid behind his whole life and voice that yes he loves mike of course he does he’s always loved him and loves him in precisely the way that mike expresses he needs to be loved there is simply NO conceivable way that they can come out of this hellish slow burn miscommunication trope not in full acknowledgement and eager acceptance of this love they have for each other and have always had and always will !!!!!!!!

[destiel-wings]

THE GREEN COWBOY HAT

THE BLUE RAINBOW HAT

THE WAY DEAN'S HAT SAYS "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY"

AND CAS' SAYS "HAPPY BIRTHDAY""

[toukasspouse]

you may not guess that i am really normal about kishou arima. i'm super normal about him. very extremely normal. [all my notes about him drop out of a notebook] SHIT SORRY MY BAD DONT EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT HAHA [grabs notes and runs]