#i makes stuff

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IT IS FINISHEEDDDDD!!!

Fronds. Fronds, please understand that this book saved my life in 2022, and I am SO PROUD that the cover turned out EXACTLY how I wanted. It took me two tries (always check that your ink is permanent 🙃) but I love it so much.

If you have not read THE WATCHMAKER OF FILIGREE STREET by Natasha Pulley, and you like soft, historical love stories with hints of magic and clockwork octopi, I highly recommend.

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A lacy blouse I've made from a thrifted dress.

I've already worn it a few times since finishing it and it's super comfy and the sleeves are just adorable, be it on their own or peeking under my coat sleeves. my only issue is that since I'm quite tall the blouse is quite cropped on me so I've found it's best worn over dresses or under tank tops or sweater vests.

the lace was damaged in a few spots since this is a second hand item but I've mended it and so far it's holding up quite well. I'm also quite happy with how little fabric waste remained after I made the sleeves from the skirt. maybe I'll make a matching choker from the leftovers later.

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things you still need to do even though your friend is alone in a hospital, dying: 

eat.  they are no longer the shape of themself  they have always been lanky but now they are thin shrunken shriveled starved skin (thin and papery like an old person they will never get to be) and bones (you should never get to see) there is not enough of them left  but they are still, always themself, enough. 

sleep.  they are no longer the shape of themself they have always been tired but now they are empty flagging fatigued finished  run (they sat up on their own for the last time today) ragged (you are watching them fade away) there is not enough of them left but they are still, always themself, enough.  breathe.  they are no longer the shape of themself they have always been quiet, but now they are gone speechless soundless silent  between one breath (don't think about how few of those we get) and the next (and the next and the next and the next and the--) there is not enough of them left but they are still, always themself, enough.  live.  they are no longer the shape of themself they have always been brave, but they are not scared fearful frightened afraid  I am  but I am also alive and I remember them and miss them and love them and keep them here in my heart and maybe that's enough. 

-ncw; for paul

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Just in time for Halloween, I've added a copy of GIDEON to my Etsy shop and you can click here to buy it!!!

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Did I show you guys DIE?

This miiiiight be my favorite rebind I've done so far.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Hello, I do not know how to write children, but I had fun anyway, please appreciate my tiny de Riva absolutely terrorizing Viago and making baby Lucanis fall in love with her immediately. We'll get back to smut next fic, I'm sure, but for now, have childhood shenanigans.

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A new Satisfying Object has joined my bookshelves! THE RAVEN TOWER was one of my favorite books of the year in 2019, and if you have not read it, I cannot recommend it enough. Fantasy Hamlet from the point of view of a god who is also a rock. Read it, you will not regret it!!! Anyway, I had a ton of fun including design elements from the endpages of the hardcover into my new fancy binding. Might be my favorite re-bind I have done so far.