Prompt: Shepard manages to destoy the reapers with the Crucible, but her whereabouts are unknown. A day after the end of the war, you get an automatically delivered farewell note from her.
[AUTOMATIC EMAIL] [TO: [email protected]] [FROM: [email protected]] [SUBJECT: If you get this]
Garrus, I'm sitting here writing this to you while you're asleep next to me. Every time you twitch or mumble in your sleep, I stop for a second to make sure you don't find me writing this. You know I would never keep anything from you--ever. But this is an email I never thought I'd have to write. Well, I didn't ever want to write it. I think you know where this is going. I figured out how to get this to send automatically from my omni-tool in the event that I…flatlined. I don't know how else to say it. So, yeah, if you're getting this… I'm sorry. I've just got a few things to say.
When we met I thought you were just another hard-ass like every other turian I had met throughout my career. But you were dedicated, committed to doing the right thing and following the rules, even if you didn't always agree with them. It was that turian sense of duty you've mentioned to me many times.
Anyways, I'll admit now that I developed a crush on you right then. It was something about the way you shook my hand. It was a firm handshake, as it should have been, but for a moment I found myself wondering if you were gentle, too. I didn't tell anyone, of course. I didn't want to make things awkward between us or the rest of the squad. So, I put you in the back of my mind and moved on. I even tried to have a serious relationship with Kaidan at one point, but I can honestly say that I never felt for him the way I feel for you.
And then I died for the first time. You know how they say your whole life flashes before your eyes in your final moments? Well, it's true. I saw everyone. Ash, Kaidan, Liara…and you. The last thing I remember was your face. I don't think I've ever told you that before.
I obviously didn't know I was going to be resurrected. When the Illusive Man told me I needed to assemble a squad, I asked about your whereabouts. You had disappeared completely, and I was going to accept that and had accepted that until you shot me in the shoulder on Omega. I couldn't see you from where I was standing, but I thought, "Someone wasn't trying to kill me just now. Why shoot at me at all?" Finding you there started out as a dream, and for a moment I thought I was still dead. I've never been one to believe in fate or destiny, but something brought us together again.
The next thing I knew, you were lying in a pool of blood, lifeless, and I didn't know what to do. Mordin muttered something about you not making it, but I ignored him. If being spaced didn't put me down permanently, a rocket to the face wouldn't take you out. You were a fighter. You always had been, and you always will be.
I never expected you to have any feelings for me. That first time I flirted with you in the main battery I was just testing the waters. You stammered, completely thrown off-guard. So, I kept flirting, kept pushing, kept trying to see how far you would actually want to go. When you came up to my cabin the night before we hit the Omega-4 Relay I had no expectations, but also no idea what the hell to do, either. I'm glad we eventually figured it out.
I got an email from you while I was incarcerated. Well, I got it eventually. I was relieved to know that you hadn't forgotten about me or our time together. Having the opportunity to team up with you again was all I could have asked for. And when we finally got a chance to talk privately, you said you wondered if I still had feelings for you. How couldn't I? And yeah, the scars do drive me wild. You were different, and only in good ways. You were a different man than any man I had ever met. Like I said, the last thing I saw before I took my last breath was your face.
And…I guess that's where we're at now. I've been trying to get the courage to tell you something, but I don't know if I can. So, I'm telling you now.
I love you.
I've loved you for years. And now that I'm gone and likely won't be brought back to life a second time, I want you to know that my last thoughts were of you, again. I just know they were. I didn't just pursue this mission for the greater good of the galaxy…I did it for you. Dying wasn't part of the original plan. As I sit here next to you as you sleep, I can tell you that I realized tonight that dying might be the only way to save everyone; to save you.
If there's something beyond this realm, I'll see you there. Just--not any time soon, okay?
I love you, Garrus. I always will. I should have told you in person. I don't know, maybe I'll still get the chance. Even if I don't, I think you already knew. I think you've always known. You've always been there for me, believed in me when no one else did, trusted me when no one else trusted me, and never hesitated to join me for anything and everything.
It was a hell of a ride and I'm glad you were in the passenger seat.
Love, Shepard
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