#ichi rambles

[ichi-tan]

Sooooo, do you think this is the first time Gwen has experienced kindness? She's able to remember everyone from the park, able to pull up any needed information at any given moment in time.

Do you think she picked out her knights all those moons ago? What if she is "saving herself" by making sure she ended up specifically with Frankie and Andi?

Frankie is a bleeding heart of a character, and I think Gwen knows that.

[lychee-drinks]

I am unwell for this man.

[ichi-tan]

I keep seeing people talk about Gangle's plastic mask that shows up in the new trailer, and I really wanted to talk about it.

CW: Mentions of drug use.

Alright, so, what did I nean when I said "Self Medicate?"

Self medication is what some people might resort to in order to treat their mental and physical health symptoms that distresses them.

The Spudsy's episode in particular gives us multiple examples of multiple people haveing different altered states of mind for different reasons.

Ragatha's is the most obvious, the stupid sauce making her appear drunk.

Gangle's, on the other hand, is a little more subtle. She obviously acts different, but it's not like she's not herself either. It's easy to brush it off as Gangle simply taking the manager role too seriously, the mask giving her an added boost in confidence with the knowledge it won't break.

But what if I said the masks did a little more than that?

With her normal mask, we know that Gangle a little more "stable" emotionally, yet still felt as if it weren't exactly enough. The fact that this aid often breaks, causing it to not work as intended. Porclain is delicate after all.

Plastic on the ofter hand? Plastic can typically withstand a fall. Plastic won't easily shatter if tossed. Plastic last longer in general.

But plastic isn't healthy. Plastic is something that damages more than it aids.

So why drugs? Well, as someone with my own share of mental health issues, I can understand the appeal of self medicating.

A lot of people use weed to help them eat, sleep, dissociate, etc. People use coain for the euphoric feeling and even weight loss. Alcohol for forgetting. Etc.

Now, what do you think people with difficult mental health issues do when they no longer have access to the proper medication?

What do you think Gangle would do if she could no longer repair her comedy mask?

[ichi-tan]

I started playing In Stars And Time...

Why tf am I just Siffrin? I straight up feel like I got uploaded into a video game. My relation to this fictional character is akin to looking at a photograph of the both of us and trying to figure out the difference.

Anyway, I only just got into Act 2 and learned about the memory system when it comes to loops.

I still have a long way to go.

[ichi-tan]

One-sided Showtime not existing anywhere on ao3 should be a crime. All I want is to read a FunnyBunny fic with one-sided Showtime >:(

[ichi-tan]

I sit outside every night for a few hours, watching the night sky shift as time passes by. So, have this short FunnyBunny moment it made me think of.

Sometimes, he'll sit just outside the tent, gazing upon the stars within the digital night sky.

He can't recall when everything was updated to look so realistic. Some stars brighter than others as they flickered in an impossible distance.

"Don't you ever..." Jax fell on to his back into the grass, reaching his gloved hand up into the night sky as he tried to reach for what he couldn't obtain. "Just..."

All Pomni could do was stand there in silence as she watched the rabbit, his sudden change in demeanor throwing her off.

"They call to me." His voice sounded as distant as the constatations.

"Call how?" Pomni inched her way towards Jax, taking a seat next to him at a respectful distance.

He never did turn to look at her, yellow eyes lost beyond the cosmos. Somewhere no one but him could reach.

"... Nevermind." His hand dopped, the crook of his elbow now hiding his expression from the jester next to him.

With much care, Pomni laid next to him, her own pinwheel eyes now focused on the digital night sky.

"I think I understand in a way." The way she said it was gentle, yet it held a somber tone all the same.

"Tsk."

She ignored him, taking in a deep breath of fresh air that didn't exist.

"It's lonely, isn't it?"

Silence fell upon the two, Jax shifting where he laid. Soon enough, he removed his arm, dropping it to his side as his fingers brushed Pomni's for a brief moment.

A few more moments passed before he decided to respond.

"... Are you lonely?"

The question seemed to hold multiple layers, emotion in the rabbit's tone that the jester couldn't rexognize.

Without thinking much about it, she shorted the distance between their hands, hooking her index finger with Jax' pinkie.

"... No."

[ichi-tan]

Okay, I admit it. I like them an abnormal amount. Addicted some may say. Perhaps even obsessed.

The only time I feel real is when I'm watching them suffer in agonizing ways and seeing them pick up the pieces together again. The emotional contagion, truly, being delicious.

[ichi-tan]

I'm desperate for community. Where are all the 18+ TADC/FunnyBunny discord servers? Smh