#idk fih

[mimisasaleel]

More than friends, less than lovers <3

Chapter 1

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She thinks I have all day.

Rin let out an irritated huff. He had waited for you for a whole hour at the gates, yet you never showed up.

So that's how he found himself cursing you out under his breath

He was unfamiliar enough with this country, his parents had recently moved here so that they, along with your parents, could fulfill their 'dream' of living next to each-other.

They had forced you and Rin to get along, although your supposed 'bonding sessions' often remained painfully silent the entire time. You were so quiet and awkward, it almost physically hurt him just to be in your presence, you always made things so weird by not saying anything at all, even avoiding eye contact. Although he didn't hate it too much.

After all, he wasn't too vocal himself. But it pisses him off how obnoxious you are with your friends. And the fact that he has to depend on you for translating stuff for him.

It annoyed him to no end

THUD!

He nearly fell down from the sheer force of whoever crashed into him. Just as he was turning around to kill whoever it was he heard your voice, shakier than he'd ever heard it.

"Ah Rin, love! T-there you are! Ahaha..I-I have been looking for you!" His first instinct was to push you away and yell at you for how stupid you were. But he stopped himself.

You were unusually loud, as if you were trying to make someone hear you.

And your eyes begged for him to play along. You looked extremely disheveled, and you were barely managing to catch your breath.

He placed a hand on your shoulder and pulled you closer, you were trembling.

"Sorry for being late. I had stuff to do" He announced loud enough so that anyone around them could clearly hear it before leaning down to whisper

"Oi, what the fuck is all this about?"

"R-Rin, that man- he-he tried to- t"

His eyes widen. oh.

He ushers you, telling you that you don't have to explain and that it's alright.

"Kid, that girl is my child. She is running because she is trying to be difficult" The man explained in broken English and a thick accent.

"The fuck are you talking about?! This is my girlfriend, I've met her parents countless times! What the hell do you want?"

The man seemed to be intimidated by Rin's glare, looking around for a quick second before taking the chance to run away.

Rin only now realized that his shirt was wet. You're sobbing, a lot

"Hey.." He starts, his voice soft, trying his best to comfort you "You're okay now, you're safe, yo-"

He was cut off by a tight hug from you

"Rin.. I wanna go home.." You manage to choke out. He takes hold of your wrist.

"Alright." Is all he can muster …….. The two of you are greeted by Rin's mother, Mara-san. Who now looks extremely concerned as she calls out your name.

"What happened? Why are you crying, Rin did you do something? Hurry up and come inside"

She ushers the two of you in, extremely panicked.

Rin can only helplessly overhear as you're somehow the one getting yelled at

"But I'm wearing my school uniform! How is that vulgar-"

"DON'T YOU RAISE YOUR VOICE AT YOUR FATHER YOU DISGUSTING SLUT!

DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND? YOU'VE SOILED OUR FAMILY NAME! I SHOULD'VE KILLED YOU THAT DAY-"

"L/n-san! Calm down! She's just a child it wasn't even her fault!"

Rin's mother tried to reason. You and your father were both trembling, except one was because of fear, and the other, rage.

And then he heard it. The extremely loud sound of something crashing against the wall. Even Sae looked somewhat wide-eyed. No way. No fucking way-

He rushed out the door and barged open yours. Oh. oh.

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"Rin? Why are you here? And- did he yell at you? Did he do something to yo-"

"Shut up! Worry about yourself! You're in terrible shape!"

"…" You look down at your hands resting of your lap You found yourself in a hospital bed. The doctors said that it was a miracle your injuries weren't too severe. You stay silent. Regretting everything you've ever done.

Rin quiets down "I'm sorry…may I ask what happened exactly?

WORTHLESS FILTH

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

It hurts.

The shower is red from the blood.

Scrub, Scrub, Scrub

Scrub the filth of that asshole's hand away

Scrub, Scrub, Scrub

Scrub away until none of that disgusting skin remains

Scrub, Scrub, Scrub

It's been 3 months, your parents barely speak to you You hear a muffled voice, likely Mrs. Itoshi's. She's been with you through this the entire time.

"You can't just abandon your child at a time like this! Have you no emotions? "

She's too sweet to you. You think

You quickly wrap the bandage you keep hidden around your limbs and abdomen and rinse away the remaining blood in the shower, put on some clothes, and limp your way to the living room. Only to be stopped by Rin calling out your name.

"Oh.. you're here too..what do you want?"

He notices that you have somehow gotten even quieter. Apparently that braindead shit had touched your thigh, waist, and arms roughly and forcefully.

You babbled the rest in your native language, hence, he couldn't understand it too well. You look…blank. lifeless.

"Don't go there. You might get hurt"

You merely hum, turning your entire body towards him He starts again "Sit with me for a bit." He didn't exactly give you a choice. ….. The two of you sat there for around an hour when all of a sudden he felt a weight against his shoulder.

He looked down at you. You looked so at peace that he didn't move an inch after noticing.

EUGH HAVING TO READ TS AND GO THROUGH THIS LINE BY LINE IS EXCRUTIATING EW EW EW

trust me gng it gets better T^T

[mimisasaleel]

More than friends less than lovers <3

Chapter 2: Tsundere ahh

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Some of Rin and Reader's shenanigans This is basically supposed to show the dynamics of their friendship.

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It's winter now. You've resumed school. Although you still get stared at all the time.

You try to think about what you were gonna do after school today, yet your mind remained cloudy.

You and Rin had somehow gotten closer after the whole ordeal. One time, you overheardsome girls calling you slurs just because you stole all of Rin's attention. He heard it too.

And glared at them so hard they teared up.

You formed a pleasant friendship with Rin. Often giving him tiny doodles of himself that somehow captured his essence perfectly.

And in return. He helped you with all the work you missed while your were at the hospital.

Although he was failing the native language classes

"Um..Itoshi-kun I-I really like you! Will you please be my boyfriend?!"

You watched blankly as the girl held a pretty pink envelope towards Rin.

She's quite easy on the eyes, and sweet as well. It wouldn't surprise you if Rin gave her a chance.

"No"

His words were harsh. You saw the girl's fragile heart shatter in front of your eyes.

You looked away.

Maybe it'll help her embarrassment if even one person wasn't looking.

Soon after she left, you found your legs moving, knowing exactly where they were leading you.

"Well aren't you popular, Mr. Handsome?" You say, sliding into the seat next to his

"Tch, cut it out"

"You should be more grateful that you even get confessions at all yanno. Some people are unfortunate enough to get none."

"I don't like her, and why should I care?"

You stretch, sprawling across the desk

"You're boring as hell. No wonder Isagi-kun is the only one trying to befriend you. He befriends everything."

"Shut up, and what's that supposed to mean, that lukewarm shit is not befriending me."

So he's pursuing you? When are you guys going official?"

"HAH?"

"It explains why you reject every girl as well! You're definitely dating?"

Rin has to physically stop himself from hitting you

"It's okay to be gay Rin, we still love you"

He finally turns to look at you

"Why don't you go hang out with your loud and obnoxious friends?"

"I got ditched by them"

"No wonder."

"Well atleast I have friends."

"I don't need lukewarm friends. I'm gonna become the world's greatest striker."

"Whatever helps you sleep at night I guess, Rinnie."

"I told you to stop calling me that!"

He lunges at you. Not really though. He just pretends to, before patting your head

"Pfft- you would've chased me down for that. Did dating Isagi-kun soften you up or something?"

"I TOLD YOU WE'RE NOT DATING-"

You stood up, running out of the classroom with a tiny smile on your face.

This guy sure is fun to annoy

"You really think your lazy ass can outrun an athlete?"

You slowly turn around, with Rin standing behind you, holding the back of your collar.

"Doesn't hurt to try."

He scoffed. Letting go of you and crossing his arms, looking off to the side.

"Would you look at that! A tsundere in the wild. What're ya gonna do now? Sing that tsundere song?"

"What the fuck is wrong with you? And what on earth is the tsundere song?"

"Y'know? The one that goes:"

You clear your throat

"I'm not a dere. Tsun-Tsundere! I have a jello heart I'm no-"

"You can sing your jello heart out later, (l/n). And Itoshi as well. I expected better from you atleast."

Uh. Holy shit.

The two of you quickly give your homeroom teacher, Kaira-sensei, a bow before speed-walking to your class.

"It's your fault for singing that stupid song!" Rin whisper-yelled.

"Shut up!" You hissed, ears burning red

"Hurry up the two of you!"

life is nawt daijobu, so to make it better, go read this on AO3 by Mimisasaleel. I have 9 chapters on there and trust me it really gets better gng.

[mimisasaleel]

More than friends, less than lovers <3

Chapter 4: Do I like him?

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The teacher's voice doesn't seem to make any sense to you right now.

Your uniform really seems to love rubbing against those damn cuts of yours. This really is a hassle to deal with.

You scribble down the words on the board mindlessly, you can study this topic at home anyways.

Your gaze drifts towards Rin. You remember seeing his brother a few times. That guy looks hella scary, yet he doesn't even have that constipated look that Rin does.

You wonder what kind of guy he is.

You've come to the conclusion that he and Rin don't have the best relationship, considering how he looked at you the one time you asked about him. You remember Mara-san calling him Sae, maybe.

Just as you were thinking of what you're gonna do after getting home today you hear your seatmate, Miyu's voice.

She was this cheery girl, really sweet. She always tried to make conversation with you, although she did have her own group of friends. She never really looked at you the way your former 'friends' did.

"L/n, you've been staring at Itoshi-kun for quite a while, do you maybe have a thing for him? I wouldn't blame you for it though, he really is hot."

"I definitely don't, trust me, and you think that guy is hot? How?"

"You don't? Look at him girl! He's just my type!"

She looks at Rin dreamily and something in you feels odd, yet it's probably because she likes him when you're here, right? Yeah.

You take a good look at Rin, now that you think of it, "I guess he is.."

"See?! I knew you liked him!"

"Wha- I don't!"

"L/n and Miyu. Mind sharing with the class what is so important that you feel the need to talk about it during a lesson?"

The colour drains from your face.

"Ah, I was just asking her a question, sensei" Miyu chirps, she looked unfazed by the fact that everyone was staring at the two of you.

"And it took you that long?"

"Yes, it's completely my fault though, so please don't punish L/n!"

You look at her like she saved your life. She kind of did if you squint really hard.

"Fine, sit down and be quiet."

The two of you thank the teacher and sit down.

"Thank you for that, Miyu."

"Oh my gosh, that's the first time you've said my name without an honorific!"

The girl legit looked like she was on the verge of tearing up.

"Really?"

She nods vigorously.

"Anyways, I still think you like Itoshi-kun."

"I told you I don't-"

The bell rang, yet for once, you didn't feel the need to rush out.

Miyu stood up "Well, I'll see you later L/n! Have fun with your boyfriend! Byee!!" She says with a teasing smile, walking away.

"WHA- MIYU-SAN-"

You feel a hand on your head.

"What's got you so flustered?"

"Flustered?"

Oh for the love of god

"Your ears are as red as a tomato."

He takes his hand off your head.

"Shut up, and what's up with you approaching me for once? Isn't it usually the other way around?"

"..tch, I knew you'd say that."

"Could it be that you're perhaps, falling for my charm?"

"Your resemblance to Aryu is scary, don't get influenced by lukewarm people like him. And as for your dumb question, no."

"Gee, you sure know how to break a girl's heart, Rinrin."

"When will you stop giving me stupid names."

"Neverrr" You say in a sing-song voice

"Let's just go already, the vending machine empties out fast."

"Yeah yeah, bossy"

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You fall into step beside him, you feel a very strong urge to try something.

"What's with your mischievous looking face?"

"Huh? Nothing!"

Now's your chance.

"Hey Rin, can you lean down for a sec?"

"Why?"

"I wanna tell you something."

He looks very reluctant yet he does, lean down to your level.

Smack!

You hit the back of his head, immediately running away towards the crowd of students.

You were so fucked.

No idea why you went with your impulses, but it was fun, for a millisecond before you started wondering how he's gonna kill you.

You have no idea where Rin is, and you don't think you'd want to know anyway.

What is he even gonna do to you though?

You stop after a few minutes, panting.

"L/n!!!"

"Miyu-san?"

"Itoshi-kun is looking for you so I decided to help him out. He's right over there." She says, pointing towards a very, very pissed off Rin.

"Thank you, Mayu-san."

"It's Miyu, Itoshi-kun!"

You helplessly watch Miyu walk away as Rin approaches you.

"Why did you do that?"

"Impulsive thought"

"I see."

"...am I going to die?"

"You tell me."

"..." This guy was annoyingly tall, which made him even more intimidating.

"So?"

"Spare me I guess?"

"That's not happening, how about you fetch me my ball during my solo soccer practice?"

"Huh? Better than what I thought."

"Did you seriously think I'll kill you for that measly attempt at hitting me? It didn't even hurt."

"I'm kinda glad actually. I don't know what you would've done if I ended up hitting you hard enough to hurt."

"Wouldn't you just love to know?"

Rin swings at you but stops last second, smirking.

"I hope you know that wasn't funny."

"Real rich coming from you."

He grabs your wrist and drags you to the nearest vending machine

"What do you want?"

"Money."

"You're getting an onigiri."

"Aw man."

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You were sitting in the empty seat beside Rin's, since no one really had the guts to sit next to his intimidating ass.

You looked at him for a few seconds before scribbling in your sketchbook.

You were suddenly reminded of what Miyu had said earlier.

Does it really seem as if you like Rin? Maybe Miyu was just bluffing and she didn't really mean it. But you can't help but remember how you agreed with her when she called him hot.

Is he hot? He sure is attractive, but acknowledging someone's attractiveness doesn't make you attracted to them. So you're good. Why are you even thinking about this so much? It's ridiculou

"You're drawing me again?"

You jumped at the sudden sound, and you felt weirdly embarrassed, even though you've drawn him countless times before.

"Yeah, for practice."

"You could've asked me to turn you know?"

This guy is gonna be the death of you.

"Why would I do that?"

"To get a better look at my face I guess?"

"I didn't want to bother you, you look surprisingly less constipated when you have food infront of you."

"Stop saying I look constipated all the time."

"Nope."

He scoffs but doesn't argue further.

"Rinnie."

"Yes? And don't call me that."

"How do you feel about Miyu?"

"The girl that sits next to you right?"

"Yeah, her."

"Why do you ask?"

"Just answer the question."

"She's too loud, it irritates me."

"That's rude."

"That's my opinion."

You look away, getting lost in your thoughts again.

Miyu would be really sad to hear that. Why did you even ask him that? Why are you like this today? Is it because of Miyu's teasing? It probably is. It's really annoying.

You should think about something else, but everything else just upsets you. Your parents stay at work even longer these days, said it's so they don't have to see your face.

You feel the strong urge to burst out into tears.

You stand up

"Hey Rin, I'll be right back in a bit"

"Okay."

You hum, making your way out of the classroom.

You enter the girls' washroom and find and go inside an empty stall. You finally let your tears fall. Staying as quiet at possible.

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You go back to your classroom in just under 5 minutes, you've learnt to stop crying quickly.

"What took you so long?"

"Nothing. I was just roaming around."

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"Oi be faster!"

"I'm trying!"

You grab the ball, stopping it from rolling away any longer, tossing it back at Rin, although it still lands quite far from him.

"You suck ass."

"No need to rub it in."

Rin kicks the ball one last time before walking towards his bag.

"Are you done?"

"Yeah. Let's go home."

"I can't, I'm studying with Isagi-kun today, remember? I'm gonna go to that nearby café now."

"Right. Just make sure to come to my place afterwards, mom wants you to stay over tonight."

"Really? Okay then."

He pats your head and you feel that same odd feeling in your chest.

"What's your obsession with always patting my head?"

"You look stupid when I do so, it's funny."

"You're the worst."

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You find yourself infront of Rin's home after Isagi so kindly offered to walk you back home.

The door opens and you see none other than Rin's brother, Sae.

"You're Y/n right? Rin's in his room."

"Ah, th-thank you."

Did you have to stutter like that? How embarrassing. .

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"Rin-chan~"

"What do you want?"

"Your boyfriend talks a lot about you."

"I told you he's not my boyfriend. And what did he say?"

"Nothing, I just wanted to see your reaction."

"You're annoying"

"Bleh" you stick out your tongue at him.

Rin's gaze drifts to your legs unintentionally, you were laying on his bed and looking at the ceiling.

You were wearing a skirt with knee high socks, hence, it wasn't too hard to notice the cuts all over your skin.

"Hey, how'd you get all those cuts?"

"Why are you even looking there? Perver-"

"Did you cut yourself?"

"No?"

"Those cuts look too unrealistic to not be done intentionally. Wait, is someone bullying you? Or did your parents do this-"

"It was me okay!? And lower your damn voice!"

"Why would you do that?"

"..."

What are you even supposed to say to that? Because it's fun?

You feel something cold run down your cheek.

Are you crying? Oh please no.

"Can I hug you?" You blurt out before you can stop yourself.

You feel Rin's gaze on you as you look down to hide your tears.

Something warm wraps around you and you can't help but lean into it.

Rin hugging you.

"You don't have to answer right now."

He sounded awkward, and you felt terrible for making him comfort you.

"You don't have to, Rin."

"I want to."

Does this dude hear himself??

"..."

You hug him back, tight, burying your face into his shoulder.

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You end up telling him about your unhealthy coping mechanism.

"I see."

"Yeah.."

"Are you hungry? I'm pretty sure mom's gonna call us to eat any second now."

You nod

"Also, Rin."

"Yeah?"

You look away, pushing yourself up.

"Thank you for that, but forget this ever happened, 'kay?"

"Alright."

"Y/n! Rin! Come outside, dinner's ready!"

The two of you share a moment of eye-contact before going out of Rin's room for dinner.

EWEWEWEWEWWEWEWWWWW I HATE WRITING ANGST SO MUCH ANYONE WHO CAN HAS MY ADMIRATION

I hate knowing how ahh the next chapter's gonna be

or the one in chapter 7 & 8

anyways no spoilersssss

MIYU HAS FINALLY BEEN INTRODUCED YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAY

[mimisasaleel]

More than friends, less than lovers <3

Chapter 5: Sighsae

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can you tell that I hate writing angst?

btw saiki.k is so peak imma use it as inspiration idk how but i will

Tw: suicide attempt

---------------------------------------------- You don't like being alone, yet you can't stand being in someone's presence. No one is born with a purpose in this world, people don't like to hear that though. Of course they don't, a sweet lie is almost always more welcome than the harsh truth.

Your existence in this world matters as much as a grain of sand in a desert.

Atleast, that's what you think, laying in your bed, your breathing labored

You insisted on going home despite Mrs. Itoshi's countless attempts to convince you otherwise.

You felt horrible for being vulnerable infront of someone else. You don't know how you're going to face Rin again.

It feels pathetic, truly pathetic, as you wonder if your death would even make a change.

You're not someone great, you're probably the most replaceable person in the life of anyone who knows you.

You feel like a wilted flower, something once so beautiful, slowly rotting away until nothing remains.

You've tried to commit suicide before, yet you chickened out everytime.

Everything was just so utterly painful. You want to do something horrible, horrible enough to make everyone you know hate you, and then, peacefully die, knowing that no one's going to miss you. You look down at yourself, and walk up to the mirror in your room. God, the sight made you want to puke.

You really did look half dead. What happened to you?

You look away before you make yourself feel worse. People aren't born equal, nothing is fair in this world.

You wonder how life would've been if you were never like this. If you were raised better, if you were prettier.

You put on some decent clothes and head out. You know exactly where you're going.

The terrace.

It feels so scary. What if you survive. What if you have to face the injuries along with the shame?

You feel a light breeze against your face as you climb the wall. You take one last look at everything before closing your eyes and jumping.

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You're not falling. Someone caught you. Fuck.

"Oi what the hell are you doing?!"

The voice sounded somewhat familiar. Right. Sae. Rin's brother.

"Let go, there's no point."

"No."

He pulled you up by your left arm. God, it hurt like hell. You probably broke it.

"Why would you do that?" You found Sae sitting infront of you. He looked mildly concerned, not that you could see him too well in the dark anyways.

"I don't know."

"You're coming to our place."

"No."

"And why is that?"

"I probably broke my arm, I can't really move it and it feels excruciating."

"In that case, you're coming with me to the hospital."

"Okay."

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You sit silently in Sae's car as he drives.

"Hey, you're not gonna tell Rin about this, are you?"

"You want to tell him yourself?"

"No, I don't want him to know at all."

"Fine."

You felt so utterly pathetic, you hope he never finds out. The shame will kill you.

"We're here."

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"The doctor said I needed to keep the cast for around 7 to 8 weeks."

"I see."

"I wanna go home now."

"You're staying at our place though."

"No."

"Yes, you can't be trusted."

"I don't need you to baby me, just drop me off."

After a lot of arguing, Sae let you stay at your own place.

God this felt like a humiliation ritual.

You finally had the guts to actually attempt, and this guy just had to interrupt! What even is there for you to live? No one's going to miss you. No one's going to mourn you. Why can't you just end your suffering?

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Morning arrives, you decide to skip school today, since, well, you quite literally have a freshly broken arm.

You wonder how Rin's gonna react, or Miyu, or Mara-san.

Ehh, not that it really matters. Nothing matters. At all.

It feels so weird to stay alone with your feelings.

You walk towards the the kitchen, somehow opening your bottle and taking a big sip.

Is this really how you've become? Wow, that sure hurts your ego a lot.

"Y/n?"

"Ah, Mara-san, how'd you get in?"

"Y/N? WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR ARM MY DEAR?!"

"Ah, it's nothing really, I just fell down the stairs, nothing to worry about." You look into her eyes with a sweet smile. Lying to her felt awful, she was basically more of a mother than your actual mom.

"Please be more careful, my dear."

"I will."

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People who tell you to be hopeful really piss you off. Hoping for something does nothing but hurt you, shatter your expectations, or maybe everything works out. Lots of people hope, yet most of them don't always get what they hoped for. Hope isn't a bad thing, it's just that you don't like it. There are no expectations to ruin if you never had any.

Why are you thinking so much today? You close your eyes, a feeling of calmness washing over you.

The lack of sleep eventually caught up to you as you drifted off to sleep.

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The cold, red liquid that surrounded you was bone-chilling. You found yourself unable to move, sinking deeper and deeper. You could make out a muffled noise, sounding like voices.

"L/n! What happened to you?!"

Jolting awake, you sat up, breathing heavily.

"L/n, what happened to your arm? I was so worried that you weren't at school today, you never skip school."

"Miyu-san? What are you doing here?"

"I asked Itoshi-kun to let me walk with him to your place, now tell me, what happened to your arm?"

"I uh, fell down the stairs. Where's Rin?"

She moved to the side to reveal Rin, standing silently, observing.

You could only stare at him. This was mortifying.

"Y/n." He muttered, approaching.

"Yeah?" You almost flinched when he reached for your right hand, holding it in his, his hand was colder than yours.

"You're an absolute idiot." You couldn't bring yourself to focus on his words.

His thumb ran over the back of your hand, tracing mindless circles. Why is your heart beating so fast.

Focus.

Focus.

"I didn't really catch that, what did you just say?"

"Nothing, forget it, who took you to the hospital?"

"I did."

"And the money?"

"I used my salary from my part-time job."

"I see."

"Oi you lovebirds, I'm here too y'know?"

"Miyu!" The tips of your ears resembled tomatoes with how red they were

"Eheh! Just kidding!" She ran up to your side, pushing Rin aside and wrapping her arms around your neck.

"I hope your arm heals soon."

"Thanks, Miyu-chan."

"Oh you make me blush."

She then proceeded to spin around and cup both of her hands around her cheeks.

The ends of your lips twitched up. You didn't notice the boy sitting beside you staring, too lost in Miyu's dramatic act.

Her phone rings, snapping you or of your trance.

"L/n-chan, I must leave now, I'm so sorry, I'll definitely stay longer tomorrow, but I have to go today, so, bye bye!" She gave you a wink along with that knowing look off hers.

"It's alright, byeee!"

"Bye Itoshi-kun!"

"Hm."

"Rin I swear if you don't respond to her properly-"

"Bye, Miyu-san.."

Oh did Miyu look delighted.

You plop back onto your bed with a sigh.

"You should go home too, Rin."

"I want to stay longer."

"Do as you please then."

Shutting your eyes, you reminisce on what you once were. A cheery girl, ready to talk to anyone for hours on end if given the chance.

Why?

Why are you still here?

"How did you even fall from the stairs? Where were you going?"

"I was heading out for some fresh air." You crack open your eyes.

"You should've been more careful, stupid."

You let out a low chuckle, your gaze drifting off to your ceiling.

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She's acting really weird lately. Rin thought.

He didn't know what exactly it was about you that made him feel that way, he'd thought about it the entire time he was at yours, yet, after being unable to come to a conclusion, he gave up.

"Ah, Rin. You're home, did you visit Y/n? She broke her arm."

"I did, I know, she's dumb for not paying enough attention." He could feel a certain pink haired guy's gaze on the back of his head.

"What?" Rin spat

"What?" Sae tilted his head to the side

"Why are you starting at me like that?"

"Like what?"

"You know what."

Mara-san, interjected.

"Ah Rin, Sae, don't fight now, please."

They both turn away from one another, walking off to their respective rooms as Mara-san lets out an exasperated breath.

sorry for not posting I kinda forgot I had another tumblr blog + exams are coming up too (┬┬﹏┬┬)

soft romance songs are so peak 🥹

[mimisasaleel]

More than friends, less than lovers <3

Chapter 3: Rin's secret boyfriend

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Idek what this is gng

TW: SH -----------------------------

Cut, cut, cut.

The pretty blood really does suit your arm, if only there was more space left on your thighs, arms, or any part of your body really.

You sit in your bathroom, smiling at your work. Cutting yourself feels nice.

Although it's a total hassle to deal with the cuts later, but the few moments after cutting feel so nice.

People usually feel upset after it, don't they? Maybe you're just weird.

You stand up and walk to your room, the fresh cuts hidden under your sleeve.

Did you even eat today? Probably not. Rin is at practice for a little longer today.

Maybe he'll visit again today. Or should you go and watch him practice?

You decide to do the latter, putting on your shoes.

You had your favorite clothes on again today. It felt..nice. You felt pretty.

-------------- "Rin."

Seems like you startled him

"What are you doing here?"

"Nothing, just wanted to see you practice."

You flash him with a smile

"Just sit over there, I'll be done in a couple minutes."

"Okay."

You took a seat near Rin's bag.

The weather was really nice today.

Your gaze drifts to the boy infront of you.

He looks, intense.

It makes you wonder what it feels like to be passionate about one thing, to be focused on mastering something.

You could never.

You were the type to have several hobbies. You liked to play instruments, mainly guitar and piano, although you weren't too good at either of them.

You liked drawing, but your drawings were mediocre at best. You played badminton sometimes, though athleticism was too much for someone like you. You liked to do a lot more things, yet, you remained average at best.

You didn't even realize that you had zoned out until a hand touched your shoulder

"You good?"

"Of course"

Rin merely hummed, sipping his water.

"Wanna come over? My mom isn't home tonight so I just made some omlette rice."

You flash a small smile at him. "Sure, thanks, mom"

"Hah? Why do you always have to say some weird shit?"

You chuckle "It's just my charm"

"Charm my ass" He huffs

"Look at Rinnie being a Tsun-Tsun again"

"I TOLD YOU TO STOP CALLING ME THAT"

You let out a stiffled laugh

"There there, Rin-kun." You choke out

"I- you lukewarm little-!"

You find yourself running towards your apartment building, laughing and having the time of your life.

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"You look pretty cute in that apron, like a real fembo-"

"Do not finish that sentence."

"Y-yes" holy cow did the guy look PISSED!

"Sheesh, seems I pissed mom off"

"You're not getting seconds today."

"WAIT NO RIN I'M SORRYY"

"That's what I thought"

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"I'm bored, entertain me."

"I'm not your personal jester, princess, go do something other than lazing around."

"You're so mean to me, Rinrin."

He decided it'll be best to just ignore you.

------------------------- You eventually fell asleep on the couch. With Rin dozing off a few minutes before you.

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"Oi, wake up. Go home and get ready for school."

You groan "Do I have to?"

"Yes. Now go home."

You look up at him, rubbing your sore neck.

"What time is it?"

"It's 5 am"

"Itoshi Rin. School starts at 8."

"Your point?"

"Wha- IT'S WAY TOO EARLY! I'LL GO HOME AT 6:30!"

"Be quiet, and no. Go home now or I'll drag your ass there."

"Fineeeeee. You're such a jerk!" You push yourself up, stretching your arms above your head.

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"Awhh, you were waiting for me? How nice of you."

"I do it everyday you idiot, quit making a big deal out of nothing."

Before you can respond, the two of you hear a third voice.

"Rin! (L/n)!" Ah, it was Isagi

You immediately shot Rin a look with your 'shit eating grin', Rin's words, not yours

"What are you doing here?" Rin says.

"I was walking to school of course. Wanna walk together?"

"YES" "no"

You and Rin look at each other for a good second before you turn to Isagi with a polite smile.

"Of course we do, he's just being difficult like his constipation this mornin-"

You feel a hand slam over your mouth and freeze, looking at the now, very scared Isagi.

"(L/n)(Y/n)."

"Yes sir."

"And you, npc, both of you. Say your last words."

Poor Isagi looks genuinely terrified. "H-hey Rin she was just joking-"

"I love femboys!"

"…"

"…"

"..why are you two looking at me like that? Those are my last words."

"…"

"Let's forget this ever happened alright?"

"Good idea Isagi-kun."

A little while later:

"Yanno, I actually like tomboys too. Ya think that makes me lesbian or bi?"

"…" Rin just stares at you in mild exasperation.

"It probably makes you bi." Chirps Isagi.

"You see, I already knew that. I just wanted to make conversation and declare my love for tomboys."

"You're a total freak"

"I was trying to achieve just that, Rin, thank you."

Isagi looks at you, then at Rin, then back at you, probably regretting his life choices.

"So, (L/n)-san, are you still up for the study session later today?"

"I totally forgot about that, thanks for reminding me, and yeah I'm up, 6 pm right?"

"Yup"

"You guys are having a study session?"

"Yup! Believe it or not, I actually study as well!"

"You look oddly proud for what you're saying."

"I don't care" you smile at him as if someone just complimented your creations.

"Never do that again"

Isagi looks so offended on your behalf you'd think he was the one Rin directed that to

"Rin that is absolutely unacceptable, how can you say something like that?"

"Y'know Isagi-kun, you don't have to defend me against this emotionally constipated pen"

"Pen?"

"Yeah, don't ask me why"

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"Bye-bye Isagi-kun!"

You wave at him.

"Bye-bye (L/n)-san!" He waves back at you.

"Oi, let's go already."

"Ouh, getting jealous that I'm getting close to your boyfriend aren't you?"

"I'm not even gonna bother entertaining you anymore." That only seems to amuse you more somehow

YAYY I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO ADD THESE THINGYS

Now the real problem is how I'm gonna link the chapters to each other.

I wanna write chapter 10 since I already have a plan but my depressed ahh wont let me ugh

anyways ts is so long oml

i love you sm for reading my work :3

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why toes

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