More than friends, less than lovers <3
Chapter 4: Do I like him?
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The teacher's voice doesn't seem to make any sense to you right now.
Your uniform really seems to love rubbing against those damn cuts of yours. This really is a hassle to deal with.
You scribble down the words on the board mindlessly, you can study this topic at home anyways.
Your gaze drifts towards Rin. You remember seeing his brother a few times. That guy looks hella scary, yet he doesn't even have that constipated look that Rin does.
You wonder what kind of guy he is.
You've come to the conclusion that he and Rin don't have the best relationship, considering how he looked at you the one time you asked about him. You remember Mara-san calling him Sae, maybe.
Just as you were thinking of what you're gonna do after getting home today you hear your seatmate, Miyu's voice.
She was this cheery girl, really sweet. She always tried to make conversation with you, although she did have her own group of friends. She never really looked at you the way your former 'friends' did.
"L/n, you've been staring at Itoshi-kun for quite a while, do you maybe have a thing for him? I wouldn't blame you for it though, he really is hot."
"I definitely don't, trust me, and you think that guy is hot? How?"
"You don't? Look at him girl! He's just my type!"
She looks at Rin dreamily and something in you feels odd, yet it's probably because she likes him when you're here, right? Yeah.
You take a good look at Rin, now that you think of it, "I guess he is.."
"See?! I knew you liked him!"
"Wha- I don't!"
"L/n and Miyu. Mind sharing with the class what is so important that you feel the need to talk about it during a lesson?"
The colour drains from your face.
"Ah, I was just asking her a question, sensei" Miyu chirps, she looked unfazed by the fact that everyone was staring at the two of you.
"And it took you that long?"
"Yes, it's completely my fault though, so please don't punish L/n!"
You look at her like she saved your life. She kind of did if you squint really hard.
"Fine, sit down and be quiet."
The two of you thank the teacher and sit down.
"Thank you for that, Miyu."
"Oh my gosh, that's the first time you've said my name without an honorific!"
The girl legit looked like she was on the verge of tearing up.
"Really?"
She nods vigorously.
"Anyways, I still think you like Itoshi-kun."
"I told you I don't-"
The bell rang, yet for once, you didn't feel the need to rush out.
Miyu stood up "Well, I'll see you later L/n! Have fun with your boyfriend! Byee!!" She says with a teasing smile, walking away.
"WHA- MIYU-SAN-"
You feel a hand on your head.
"What's got you so flustered?"
"Flustered?"
Oh for the love of god
"Your ears are as red as a tomato."
He takes his hand off your head.
"Shut up, and what's up with you approaching me for once? Isn't it usually the other way around?"
"..tch, I knew you'd say that."
"Could it be that you're perhaps, falling for my charm?"
"Your resemblance to Aryu is scary, don't get influenced by lukewarm people like him. And as for your dumb question, no."
"Gee, you sure know how to break a girl's heart, Rinrin."
"When will you stop giving me stupid names."
"Neverrr" You say in a sing-song voice
"Let's just go already, the vending machine empties out fast."
"Yeah yeah, bossy"
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You fall into step beside him, you feel a very strong urge to try something.
"What's with your mischievous looking face?"
"Huh? Nothing!"
Now's your chance.
"Hey Rin, can you lean down for a sec?"
"Why?"
"I wanna tell you something."
He looks very reluctant yet he does, lean down to your level.
Smack!
You hit the back of his head, immediately running away towards the crowd of students.
You were so fucked.
No idea why you went with your impulses, but it was fun, for a millisecond before you started wondering how he's gonna kill you.
You have no idea where Rin is, and you don't think you'd want to know anyway.
What is he even gonna do to you though?
You stop after a few minutes, panting.
"L/n!!!"
"Miyu-san?"
"Itoshi-kun is looking for you so I decided to help him out. He's right over there." She says, pointing towards a very, very pissed off Rin.
"Thank you, Mayu-san."
"It's Miyu, Itoshi-kun!"
You helplessly watch Miyu walk away as Rin approaches you.
"Why did you do that?"
"Impulsive thought"
"I see."
"...am I going to die?"
"You tell me."
"..." This guy was annoyingly tall, which made him even more intimidating.
"So?"
"Spare me I guess?"
"That's not happening, how about you fetch me my ball during my solo soccer practice?"
"Huh? Better than what I thought."
"Did you seriously think I'll kill you for that measly attempt at hitting me? It didn't even hurt."
"I'm kinda glad actually. I don't know what you would've done if I ended up hitting you hard enough to hurt."
"Wouldn't you just love to know?"
Rin swings at you but stops last second, smirking.
"I hope you know that wasn't funny."
"Real rich coming from you."
He grabs your wrist and drags you to the nearest vending machine
"What do you want?"
"Money."
"You're getting an onigiri."
"Aw man."
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You were sitting in the empty seat beside Rin's, since no one really had the guts to sit next to his intimidating ass.
You looked at him for a few seconds before scribbling in your sketchbook.
You were suddenly reminded of what Miyu had said earlier.
Does it really seem as if you like Rin? Maybe Miyu was just bluffing and she didn't really mean it. But you can't help but remember how you agreed with her when she called him hot.
Is he hot? He sure is attractive, but acknowledging someone's attractiveness doesn't make you attracted to them. So you're good. Why are you even thinking about this so much? It's ridiculou
"You're drawing me again?"
You jumped at the sudden sound, and you felt weirdly embarrassed, even though you've drawn him countless times before.
"Yeah, for practice."
"You could've asked me to turn you know?"
This guy is gonna be the death of you.
"Why would I do that?"
"To get a better look at my face I guess?"
"I didn't want to bother you, you look surprisingly less constipated when you have food infront of you."
"Stop saying I look constipated all the time."
"Nope."
He scoffs but doesn't argue further.
"Rinnie."
"Yes? And don't call me that."
"How do you feel about Miyu?"
"The girl that sits next to you right?"
"Yeah, her."
"Why do you ask?"
"Just answer the question."
"She's too loud, it irritates me."
"That's rude."
"That's my opinion."
You look away, getting lost in your thoughts again.
Miyu would be really sad to hear that. Why did you even ask him that? Why are you like this today? Is it because of Miyu's teasing? It probably is. It's really annoying.
You should think about something else, but everything else just upsets you. Your parents stay at work even longer these days, said it's so they don't have to see your face.
You feel the strong urge to burst out into tears.
You stand up
"Hey Rin, I'll be right back in a bit"
"Okay."
You hum, making your way out of the classroom.
You enter the girls' washroom and find and go inside an empty stall. You finally let your tears fall. Staying as quiet at possible.
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You go back to your classroom in just under 5 minutes, you've learnt to stop crying quickly.
"What took you so long?"
"Nothing. I was just roaming around."
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"Oi be faster!"
"I'm trying!"
You grab the ball, stopping it from rolling away any longer, tossing it back at Rin, although it still lands quite far from him.
"You suck ass."
"No need to rub it in."
Rin kicks the ball one last time before walking towards his bag.
"Are you done?"
"Yeah. Let's go home."
"I can't, I'm studying with Isagi-kun today, remember? I'm gonna go to that nearby café now."
"Right. Just make sure to come to my place afterwards, mom wants you to stay over tonight."
"Really? Okay then."
He pats your head and you feel that same odd feeling in your chest.
"What's your obsession with always patting my head?"
"You look stupid when I do so, it's funny."
"You're the worst."
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You find yourself infront of Rin's home after Isagi so kindly offered to walk you back home.
The door opens and you see none other than Rin's brother, Sae.
"You're Y/n right? Rin's in his room."
"Ah, th-thank you."
Did you have to stutter like that? How embarrassing. .
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"Rin-chan~"
"What do you want?"
"Your boyfriend talks a lot about you."
"I told you he's not my boyfriend. And what did he say?"
"Nothing, I just wanted to see your reaction."
"You're annoying"
"Bleh" you stick out your tongue at him.
Rin's gaze drifts to your legs unintentionally, you were laying on his bed and looking at the ceiling.
You were wearing a skirt with knee high socks, hence, it wasn't too hard to notice the cuts all over your skin.
"Hey, how'd you get all those cuts?"
"Why are you even looking there? Perver-"
"Did you cut yourself?"
"No?"
"Those cuts look too unrealistic to not be done intentionally. Wait, is someone bullying you? Or did your parents do this-"
"It was me okay!? And lower your damn voice!"
"Why would you do that?"
"..."
What are you even supposed to say to that? Because it's fun?
You feel something cold run down your cheek.
Are you crying? Oh please no.
"Can I hug you?" You blurt out before you can stop yourself.
You feel Rin's gaze on you as you look down to hide your tears.
Something warm wraps around you and you can't help but lean into it.
Rin hugging you.
"You don't have to answer right now."
He sounded awkward, and you felt terrible for making him comfort you.
"You don't have to, Rin."
"I want to."
Does this dude hear himself??
"..."
You hug him back, tight, burying your face into his shoulder.
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You end up telling him about your unhealthy coping mechanism.
"I see."
"Yeah.."
"Are you hungry? I'm pretty sure mom's gonna call us to eat any second now."
You nod
"Also, Rin."
"Yeah?"
You look away, pushing yourself up.
"Thank you for that, but forget this ever happened, 'kay?"
"Alright."
"Y/n! Rin! Come outside, dinner's ready!"
The two of you share a moment of eye-contact before going out of Rin's room for dinner.
EWEWEWEWEWWEWEWWWWW I HATE WRITING ANGST SO MUCH ANYONE WHO CAN HAS MY ADMIRATION
I hate knowing how ahh the next chapter's gonna be
or the one in chapter 7 & 8
anyways no spoilersssss
MIYU HAS FINALLY BEEN INTRODUCED YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAY
