#ifilwh

[turtle-bee-rayne]

“Then I’ll spread your ashes in the sea and walk into the waves”

[ill-leave-the-porch-light-on]

Anyone else casually read a book and then it just changes your entire life and emotionally ruins you. i found a playlist for I Fell In Love With Hope (author: Lancali) today and the description was a quote from the book and I had to stop and pull myself together because just thinking about that book makes me cry and

[artemiswylan]

top 10 characters!!

HIHI azi <3 totally not answering this a week late !!

1) Jay Braddy, literally my child, would die for him

2) Stiles Stilinski from teen wolf is everything to me

3 and 4) Neil Josten and Andrew Minyard from aftg... kdfjisndjd my loves

5) Alec Lightwood from tmi, he's so babygirl

6 and 7) merlin and arthur from bbc merlin, their relationship is so dear to me but specifically as a duo not as individuals (sorry guys)

Beyond this I honestly don't know, there aren't many other characters who stand out to me enough? I feel like every single character from I Fell In Love With Hope could find a place on the list, specifically Sony, and Sam and Hikari's relationship. also my ocs Ahmes and from aooh, but again they don't really feel right haha

Not a character but also special mention to charlie slimesicle because I adore that nerd

[sirendeepity]

Almost 6 hours later I'm actually starting ifilwh and let me just-

TW: literally anything you can think of

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"This story contains domestic abuse, eating disorders, intense physical bullying, self-harm, suicide, rape, depression, anxiety, and gory descriptions of disease."

Umh? Another one thank you?

[dancingcapybaras]

i’m only on chapter 17 but i love this book sm.

spoilers under the cut

i love the way Lancali uses personification throughout the book. Not only does it add some awesome imagery, but also because it TIES SO WELL WHEN YOU REALIZE WHO SAM IS AS A CHARACTER!

Sam, who holds no gender or name, comes to people in the form others need them to be. watching in the background as people suffered, people being hit with that feeling that they met before. Sam is a personification of hope.

time, death, and disease are things intangible, but are personified by the characters who defy these notions, taking back a life that was stolen from them.

and i absolutely love how the original Sam, boy Sam, also played around with this personification. in one of the chapters, we see him greeting every inanimate object as if it was alive, greeting the wall, greeting a door, playing pretend. it’s only when he gives narrator Sam a name that brings them to life

so far, this book has been really cool! i love the character interactions, the author’s writing is absolutely beautiful, you can tell there is genuine emotion behind every page and that just makes me more sad

every time i end a chapter my mind is like “oh yeah, that’s a good place to end off.” only to remember THERES STILL MORE😭

this book has me in a chokehold to the point i’m scared to see how it goes, because apparently the characters DIE? (is this what i get for spoiling myself by watching the author’s tiktok’s?)

anyways, thank you for coming to my messy book rant

[dragonfruit-7]

Hahaha

I relate to Sam.

“I’m not shy-I don’t think. I’m just bad at existing.”

I love that line.

[prlogue]

i fell in love with hope, lancali (2023)

genre | romance, fiction, contemporary, queer

content hospitals, chronic illness, death, suicide, mental illness, angst, tragedy, disordered eating, abuse, bullying, homophobia

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disclaimer, this is not a book review, more just an entry about how i felt while reading

i followed the writing of this book closely, excitedly awaiting every update lancali posted to their social media. it was released shortly after i got my first job and with my first paycheck i bought it.

this was a time in my life where i was making changes to my life faster than i ever thought i could, and i was maturing each day — when the book had arrived, i made the decision to read it aloud to my partner every day after my tiredsome work days. this greatly engaged the two of us in the love portrayed in this book, romantically and platonically as we related to the characters, connected our beloved friends to them, and our own lives and struggles.

i felt i could connect to characters like neo & hikari the most, as someone who struggles with similar things to them, as well as when reading, my physical body was failing to function and my mental health wasn't doing me any favors.

this book hit home with a lot of things, and i came out of it taking a lot of good lessons and reminders; my partner shared that same sentiment.

i enjoyed the prose lancali writes with, and with this book as her official debut, i think it's a strong showcase of her passion. by the end of the book we were cheering for the main cast, hoping things would turn out against the odds, and i felt myself scanning over the book many times after completion, staring at the words that resonated with me.

i look forwards to blue's shadow & death's children, and any other stories lancali decides to write!

[thaliasthunder]

i need the pdf/epub of I Fell In Love With Hope someone help me