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I’m really a gem. Having me as a lover is a win. Having me as a friend is a win. Experiencing my love is a win.

losing me is like losing your front teeth you will never smile again :)

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vent. content/trigger warnings: mentions of being nonhuman, slight mentions of god, mentions of love/not being loved, and struggles with self worth.

i want to be seen and loved as me. i'm not some weirdo. i'm not some loser. i'm not an 'outcast'.. i'm simply, not human, not fully at least. yes i may be trapped in a human body, i may still be figuring myself out, but no matter what i am, i am NOT human. i was never meant to be human, at least not entirely, i was meant to be a dog, or a deer, or even a crystal gem for stars sake. (<- only half a reference to gems saying 'oh my stars', i simply uhmmm....only kind of believe in god?? maybe?? and therefore i'm saying for stars sake instead of for god's sake.)

i feel like i'll never be loved for who i am because... most people will never know who i am... and the first step for finding people who would accept me irl, is to accept myself, and thats the hardest part.

see, i've struggled with my self worth for so long, always trying to be better but failing, always finding comfort in the uncomfortable, falling in love with people who see me as a friend or less than that. i'm a loser, but that doesn't have to be a bad thing...right?

so yes, i am weird, mentally ill, and only really (at most ->) half human everywhere but my body, but i still believe i should be able to experience love, and a normal life with joy, but i need to accept that if someone doesn't like the 'weird version' of me, it wasn't ME they liked in the first place.