summary: in which renjun has the phattest crush but he’s too shy to say anything despite being their tutor so his friend convinces him to write anonymous love letters to get his feelings out
alternatively: renjun’s a cutie and you hate arithmancy
a/n: i wrote this two years ago so its not great and its bullet point again, also the pronouns in this are they/them i think?? this is the softest i’ve ever written renjun im sorry he’s not a bad bitch in this
“GUESS WHAT,” you yelled as you walked into the hufflepuff common room knowing your friends would be there, “I FUCKING FAILED!”
cheers broke out
applause was given
you bowed
“thank you, thank you.”
“i told you not to take arithmancy,” your best friend jaemin’s voice spoke from one of the worn down couches, “why would you choose to do math when you’re a wizard?”
“i wanted a challenge jaemin.”
“bet you regret that type of thinking now idiot.”
“you’re a hufflepuff, you’re supposed to be nice,” you whined walking over to him and plopping by his side on the couch
“i’m just teasing hun,” he said, placing a hand on your shoulder in comfort “how bad did you do?”
“on the last assignment i got a dreadful.”
jaemin went to laugh but it caught in his throat when he saw how upset you looked
“i think she just gave me pity points for writing my name neatly”
“you were always good at that,” jaemin nodded thoughtfully and you elbowed his side with a glare
“if only there was a calligraphy class here for you” jaemin continued on completely ignoring your attack
“don’t act like i’m not beating you in every other class”
“well then don’t act like i was the one stupid enough to ‘predict the future with numbers’ what kind of shit? isn’t that was the crystal balls are for”
“you’re really bad at comforting me” you giggled at his stupid words
“then why are you laughing”
“i’m not”
you were
“i guess i’ll just have to tickle you to cheer you up then,” he said with a shrug, “i mean since there’s no other way”
“don’t you dare”
“don’t you fucking dare jaemin”
but it was too late
jaemin hands went straight to your sides
you toppled backwards in laughter squirming to get out of his tickling hold
“st- stop” you chocked out through tears and giggles
“only if you’re feeling better” he said “if i see a single trace of a frown when i stop you best be prepared”
“i’m better” you tried to say but it came out in a sputter with loud laughs in between
jaemin pulled away slowly and you caught your breath before sitting up
“never do that again”
“but yn”
“never”
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“you’re smart right?” jaemin asked hand on his hip looking down at the kid sitting in front of him
“i mean i guess?” the kid awkwardly answered not completely understanding what was going on
“good then i need you to tutor my friend”
“umm what?” the boy raised his eyebrow and looked at jaemin completely lost
“my friend needs help in arithmancy, like serious, serious help, and you claim to be smart, so it only makes sense that you would tutor them” jaemin explained his nonsensical logic and the boy just agreed in shock too confused to know what else to do
“okay good, so when are you free-“ jaemin thought for a second “what’s your name again?”
“renjun”
“okay so when are you free renjun?”
renjun began to ramble “i um i don’t have many plans most of the time so i guess-“
“perfect” jaemin clapped his hands together not letting renjun finish “meet them in the library tomorrow at 7”
“i-okay” jaemin took that as the end of the conversation giving a soft smile before turning to go find you
“wait what’s their name?” renjun called his words coming out all at different volumes “who am i tutoring”
“yn” jaemin turned a little to face renjun “do you know them?”
fuck
this could not be happening
renjun was going to die
his face was already burning thinking about it
noticing renjun’s expression jaemin just laughed
“i’ll take that as a yes”
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“GUESS WHO’S THE BESTEST FRIEND EVER”
you gasped “is hyuck here?”
“what? no? you asshole it’s me”
“oof don’t flatter yourself that much” you mumbled waving him off
“i guess you don’t need the tutor i got you then”
“OH MY GOD JAEMIN REALLY?! YOU'RE THE BESTEST FRIEND EVER”
you jumped up and hugged him squeezing both of his arms into his sides
“i knew you’d come around” he said in a cocky demeanor “how could you not? i mean look at this face”
“and you ruined it” you spoke breathily and sat back down where you were before
“who’s my tutor anyways?”
“renjun”
your whole body went stiff
“guess you know him then” jaemin shrugged
“fuck you jaemin”
“hey where’s your hufflepuff manners you should be thanking me”
you probably should have
but you weren’t
because out of all the people in the school for jaemin to pick from
he chose fucking huang renjun
the ravenclaw cutie from astronomy who always lent you his ink when you ran out
the genius who always mastered the spells in minutes no matter how complex
now you were going to look stupid in front of him
you really didn’t want to look stupid in front of him
anyone else would be fine
just not him
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it was 7 and jaemin had instructed you to wait outside the library for renjun
it was really really awkward
anxiety filled your stomach and mind
7:01
he was late that was fine, only one minute, it’s whatever
7:04
he probably just got lost of the funky moving staircases
yeah
that’s it
7:08
you shifted on you feet
uncomfortable
people were watching you get stood up
for a tutoring session
god your life couldn’t be anymore of a mess
7:15
panic set in
you closed your eyes taking a deep breath before preparing yourself to leave
and probably go smack jaemin upside the head for doing this to you
that was until you were hit by the library door
you let out a loud groan
done with everything
but when you looked at who had hit you
renjun was standing there
holding his books to his chest looking discouraged
“hey?” you said a little confused that he hadn’t noticed he hit you with a fucking door
“oh” his eyes grew wide when he saw you “yn you were here the whole time?”
your hand when straight to your face
you were really fucking stupid
making a fool of yourself already
didn't even check inside the library
“were you inside?” you asked quietly knowing the answer anyways
“yeah i thought you weren’t coming”
“i’m so sorry, jaemin gives really bad instructions”
“yeah?”
“yeah.”
there was silence
this was awkward
“so umm” renjun started “should we go study?”
“that does seem like the best idea”
“okay”
you followed him into the library in awkward, awkward silence
you sat at the same table you assumed he was at before because it was littered with arithmancy books
“so what do you think you have most trouble with” he asked looking down at a book and flipping through the pages so he could have something to do
“um- all of it”
yay humiliation
he laughed
and you died
“why are you laughing? i’m serious”
he face instantly fell he cleared his throat looking at you shyly
“that can’t be true” he spoke soft trying not to offend you assuming he was already on thin ice
“oh it is hun”
“then i guess we have a lot of work to do”
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“ugh i hate arithmancy it’s literally the worst”
“it’s my favorite subject”
you coughed
“i mean i love arithmancy it’s the best yay” you said weakly adding small jazz hands at the end
“you don’t have to lie” he laughed writing as he spoke “the numbers just remind me of home”
you hummed quietly
“so you’re muggle born?” you ask glaring down at the complicated numbers in front of you
“yeah” renjun sighed “you don’t have a problem with that right?”
you were slightly offended
okay very offended
you looked at him in angry disbelief your mouth open in the shape of an o “do i look like a pretentious twat to you?”
“well...”
“don’t answer that”
he laughed
he had a nice laugh
“how far did you make it into the equation” he curiously leaned over the table to look at your work
“i have the first three numbers” you groaned spotting his already half full page
“and 2 of them are wrong” he brought his quill over and circled the numbers
you laid your head in your hands
this sucked
you felt dumb
you didn’t want to be here
“hey no yn don’t give up okay” he said softly, lightly trying to move your arms away from your face
you just let out a frustrated hum
“i’m never going to get this”
“not with that attitude you won’t”
you moved your hands away from your face to glare at him but he only smiled
he did that purposely didn’t he
fucking ravenclaws
he began to scoot his chair from the opposite side of the table to right beside you, grabbing the quill off of the paper
“here let me help we’ll figure this out together okay?”
you looked at him as he began to write with wide eyes
“okay.”
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“did you understand today’s assignment?” renjun asked you
you gave him a look raising an eyebrow knowing he already knew the answer
“okay no need for that sass” he huffed “you could’ve just said no”
“you don’t deserve a no for a stupid question like that”
you began taking your books and parchment out of your bag
“i’m ready to begin this torture”
“hey i’m not that bad”
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“okay but chenle is totally into jisung did you see the way he was all over him at lunch and whenever jisung walks into the room chenle’s feet turn straight towards him and he ignores everyone else that love psych 101” you said to renjun half way through your 6th study session which had more or less deteriorated into a gossip session
“oh okay ms.sherlock holmes” renjun had an impressed smile
“who the fuck is sherlock holmes?”
renjun waved his hand at you
“ugh wizards”
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the more you got to know renjun the more references that you didn’t understand at all came
it was to say the least frustrating
but his eyes always lit up when he spoke about muggle books or movies so you just let it slide
“tell me more about this spider-man guy” you said one day your head resting on your hand and you gazed at him expectantly
“okay so he was like this super smart teenager but he got bit by a radioactive spider which changed-“ renjun stopped mid sentence glaring at you slightly “you’re trying to distract me aren’t you?”
you raised your hands in the air defensively “what no-“
“oh my god you are! i’m so easy to trick how dare you,” he rambled “we’re getting back to work”
this was met by a groan
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“this is a bad idea jeno”
“you say that every time”
“that’s because all of your ideas suck”
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owls flew through the dining hall dropping down in front of students around you, delivering mail
your owl was one of the last
he had always been quite slow
jaemin was riffling through a package of salt water taffy his grandparents had sent him when your owl finally arrived
he was carrying the usual newspaper and weekly letter from your parents
you thanked your owl petting his head softly
he nuzzled into your palm before flying off again
when you moved the newspaper out of the way of your food you were surprised to see another letter under it
the envelope was completely blank except for your name
you lifted it up glancing at it curiously
“who is that from?” jaemin said chewing a pink taffy in his mouth
“i-um i don’t know?”
“do you have a secret boyfriend that you aren’t telling me about?”
jaemin was an idiot
you rolled your eyes at him and began opening the envelope cautiously hoping it wasn’t a prank
there was a single folded parchment inside
when you saw what it said your cheeks heated up and a small smile grew on your face
“wait, oh my god! you do have a secret boyfriend!” he exclaimed loudly getting annoyed glares from the people around you
he reached out trying to grab the paper out of your hands and read it but you pulled it out of arms reach, folding it and sticking your tongue out at him
you opened the letter under the table glancing to read it over once again
“i’m too shy to say this in person but i think you’re really cute. i hope you’re eating and sleeping well.” there was a tiny heart drawn beside that “have a great day!!”
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“did you start your number chart?”
“i spent all night working on it” you told him rubbing your eyes
he gave you a disapproving look
“yn if you don’t sleep then you can’t concentrate and if you can’t concentrate then you can’t listen and if you can’t listen then you fail”
“well wasn’t that an enlightening roller coaster of words”
he huffed
you leaned over resting on him as you gave him an awkward side hug “you know i’m joking”
he nodded
wow your heart was beating way too fast right now
“i just wanted to work on it so i could impress-“ you. i wanted to impress you “the professor”
“i know yn but just take care of yourself okay” he was blushing now which you thought was cute
very very cute
you pulled away from him with a large smile taking your work out of your bag to show to him
“wait this actually really good” he said in happy surprise “yn you’re getting better”
“well yeah i have a good tutor”
he nudged you slightly
“shut up” renjun lightheartedly laughed
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this time jaemin was ready
he was going to read one of the letters from your secret boyfriend
there was no stopping him
well you stopped him the last 4 times
but this time
there was no stopping him
when your owl flew towards you he quickly grabbed your mail before you could and began to open the letter tossing your newspaper at you
“HEY” you yelled ready to jump the table to stop jaemin but it was too late
“i want to make a fragile human connection in the vast and unfeeling infinity of chaotic universe with you,” jaemin read the letter out loud proceeding to scrunch his face up when he finished
“what the fuck was that? is that what you and your secret boyfriend talk about? science shit?” he tossed the letter to you which you grabbed quickly and smiled at the tiny stars they had drawn along the page
“i think it’s cute” you spoke softly, adoration in your tone
“i can’t believe my best friend is a nerd”
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“I DID IT” you said loudly as soon as you saw renjun in the library only to be shushed by at least 10 students at once
“you did! i’m so proud of you” his voice was a lot quieter probably trying to not get everyone to hate him
you sat down in the chair beside him which he already had pulled out and placed your essay down in front of him
“i mean it’s only an acceptable but it’s good for me y’know” you rambled on shyly his eyes shone bright at your accomplishments
“it’s great yn” he encouraged “we should um”
he looked away from you awkwardly
“hmm?”
“we should uh go to hogsmeade this weekend to celebrate?” renjun couldn’t look you in the eyes and he felt as if he was going to combust “i mean only if you want to if you don’t that’s fine too no pressure”
“you’re rambling” you giggled
“sorry i-“
“i’d love to go to hogsmeade with you”
his shoulders relaxed and he finally looked at you smiling with his eyes
your heart was blessed that day
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“i can’t believe you have a date”
“shut up it’s not date”
“it totally is”
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it was quite cold the day you and renjun had planned to go to hogsmeade
okay really cold
and there was renjun standing outside leaning against a wall with his ravenclaw scarf pulled up just past the tip of his nose, hands in his coat pocket, shivering
you were late
and running through the halls
you yelled sorry’s as you pushed past slow moving students hoping you hadn’t kept renjun waiting long
you saw him standing in the cold somehow the small boy was looking even tinier than usual
“renjun” you yelled out waving a hand in the air so he could see you even though you were the only one around
his head lifted up from his scarf and you noticed his smile as he stopped leaning and walked towards you
“you haven’t been waiting long have you?”
“no don’t worry yn i just got here”
that was a lie
you could tell by the red tint on his cheek and the tip of his nose and also the occasional shiver
“liar” you said reaching towards his cheek to place your hands on them to see how cold they were “you’re freezing injunnie”
you couldn’t tell if he was blushing or if he had just gotten colder
“your hands are just warm” he protested moving your hands away from face and back in between the both of you
you both stood there for a second your hands in his until he realized what he was doing
he took a large step back
to your disappointment
“we should-um let’s get going?” he mumbled into his scarf
which by the way was very cute
“lets”
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renjun’s hands were waving around and he explained stories from the muggle world
and it seemed as though other wizards at tables beside yours had been listening as well
“okay so then get this,” renjun said dramatically and loudly “the sent him to england to be executed but he was abducted by pirates and brought back home”
the girl at the table to the right of you gasped
renjun shrunk back in his chair embarrassed realizing others were listening his hands quickly were placed down on the table
“don’t be shy” you encouraged him placing one of your hands on his “you get really excited when you talk and it makes people want to listen”
“oh” he looked down at your hands and then back up at you
“when he got back home there was a funeral for his kind of girlfriend but like not really cause he told her he didn’t love her...”
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“today was nice”
“yeah it was”
“we should do it again some time”
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you opened the envelope the owl had brought you
“i hope these letters brighten your day even a little because you’re beautiful when you smile and when you don’t, you’re beautiful all the time..”
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“i can’t do it i’m going to fail” you whined while trying to make a particularly hard chart, beginning to scribble down the page
renjun quickly snatched your quill out of your hands and placed it down beside him
“you’re getting better yn, you’re not going to fail” his hands moved to your shoulders as he tried to motivate you looking you straight in the eyes
“but this is so hard injunnie,” you reaching for your quill back but he took his hands off your shoulders and moved it farther away
“you’re not getting it back until you say something positive”
“i don’t have anything positive to say, i’m going to fail and my parents are going to disown me and i’ll have to live in a shack”
renjun laughed at how ridiculous you sounded
he pointed to a line of work on your paper “what do you do after that?”
you muttered an answer lacking any confidence
“that’s right yn” he clapped shocking you
“wait really!?”
“yeah really see you’re going to pass” he was hyping you up and it was working
“i’m going to pass!”
“you can do this!”
“i’m going to get an outstanding!”
“yes you are!”
“i’m going to do better than you!”
“you see now you’re going too far”
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mail day is what you looked forward to every week filled with joy at the thought of receiving a letter from the anonymous person
as soon as it arrived you basically ripped it open startling jaemin
leaving a long tear in the letter but it was still easy to see
“your determination is admirable”
your heart swelled when you read the words, carefully folding it and placing it back in the envelope to make sure it didn’t get hurt
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“what the fuck man step up your game”
“i thought it was good?”
“you told her that her determination was admirable what kind of weird ass flirting is that”
“okay okay fine now that you say it out loud...”
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full of anticipation for what today’s letter would say your leg bounced up and down
your owl dropped the letters in front of you and you opened it slowly learning from your mistake last time
“are you pikachu? because you’re shockingly beautiful” is all it said inside
what the fuck is a pikachu?
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“hey renjun”
“yeah?”
“do you know what a pikachu is?”
he chocked on air, coughing into his arm
“what? why- why um do you need to know?”
“i got a letter yesterday and it had the word but i couldn’t figure out what it was so i assumed it was a muggle thing, it is a muggle thing right?”
“yeah, a pikachu is a pokémon”
“wow very helpful thank you”
he laughed embarrassed “i forgot you didn’t know about any of that, pokémon are like tiny cartoon monsters”
oh so they were comparing you to a monster
yay
that made you feel so great
“pikachu is an electric type”
“oh” you mumbled sadly
renjun automatically noticed your mood drop and quickly tried to stumble to fix it “i um- i mean he’s- um- pikachu is one of the cute ones?”
you could tell he was trying to cheer you up so you smiled at him
“thank you renjun”
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you kept the letters by your bed there were about 15 now the recent ones reading
“you must be magical, because I've fallen under your spell.” (obviously you were magic they were magic too)
“are you the moon? because even when it’s dark you still seem to shine” (most letters had been space related which you found really cute)
“you must be in honeydukes, cause wow, you're really sweet” (okay this one was nice)
the most recent one “you’re an 11/0 because your beauty is undefined” would have been nice if it didn’t remind you of how awful numbers were
getting letters everyday really had made your life more interesting
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“i wonder who’s writing these, do you know who’s writing these jaemin?”
“why would i know who your secret boyfriend is?”
“because you know everything”
“i know it’s such a burden sometimes”
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“are you even going to tell them it’s you?”
“i think i would probably die”
“there’s worse ways to go”
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with every session your grades were getting higher and the closer to owl’s it became
you sat with renjun in your usual spot in the library for one of your last tutoring sessions
this should have made you happy but it didn’t
you wanted more time with renjun
but the only way you knew how to talk to him was through studying and the occasion celebratory trips whenever your grade rose
“did you get number 7 on page 378?”
you watched his mouth move but you couldn’t process what he was saying too lost in your thoughts
“yn are you even paying attention?”
“most definitely”
“you liar”
you sighed
“i’m just going to miss you that’s it- miss this”
“yeah me too”
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“are you a Snitch? because you're the finest catch here.” today’s letter read with a tiny broom and golden snitch drawn messily in the corner
you smiled
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“you have to tell them man”
“i can’t it’ll be so embarrassing”
“come on, no it won’t they like them”
“you have no proof”
“i see them smile every time they open one”
“well what if they don’t like me”
“like that’s even possible don’t you guys meet up like everyday”
“it’s not everyday and it’s for tutoring”
“is that why i’ve seen you on a date”
“i’ve told you a million times it wasn’t a date”
“but you wanted it to be”
“well yeah”
“then tell them, it will work out and if it doesn’t you can dye my hair pink”
“but you’d look good with pink hair?”
“oh why thank you”
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it was the day before your arithmancy owl
you were panicked
because of renjun’s help you had been receiving straight e’s
you were both immensely proud
you paced back and forth in the hufflepuff common room frantic students panicking around you
you needed a walk
you opened the door to the common room
and there was renjun looking like he was about to knock a piece of paper in his hands
“hi?” you said slightly confused but very happy to see him nonetheless
“oh yn hi i was-“ he seemed very awkward in front of you his hand fidgeting slightly and his leg bouncing you assumed it was just nerves for exams “i was just coming to see you”
“i was going for a walk do you want to join?”
he nodded
“so are you ready for your owl’s?” you asked trying to make conversation as you walked
and also clear up the tense atmosphere that renjun was creating
“i think i’ll do well i’ve been studying a lot recently at dinner and in between classes but i’m still worried y’know”
“yeah i get it, i’m worried because i could actually fail” you laughed
“hey i thought we talked about this” his voice was finally light and joking
it was comfortable again
“i know my goal is still to beat you and mark my words it will happen”
“i’m sure it will” he agreed without even a hint of sarcasm
“finally i get the recognition for the genius i am”
he laughed fiddling with he paper in his fingers
“what’s that you have?” you asked gesturing to the paper and he froze going stiff
“it’s um-“ he stuttered out “its um nothing”
you stopped in front of him clearly not buying it
“okay it’s not nothing” he lifted up the letter as if he was making a decision and then held it out to you looking away
“just don’t hate me okay?”
this confused you
why would you ever hate him?
you cautiously took the paper from his hands giving him a curious look and opened it slowly while he looked at the ground
“are you using the confundas charm or are you just naturally mind blowing?”
no way
this couldn’t be happening
you knew you were dumb but not this dumb
of course he was the one writing the letters
holy shit renjun was writing the letters
“renjun i-“ you started and he looked at you shyly preparing for rejection
“i can’t believe you wasted your final note on that”
wait what?” his eyes widened as he took the paper back looking at it “but jeno helped me write it”
“didn’t you say jeno was an idiot?”
“well yeah, i guess his other idea wouldn’t work either”
you quirked an eyebrow
“what other idea?”
he pulled a second piece of paper out of his pocket and handed it to you
you laughed a little as you opened this one
“will you go out with me?” it read
your smile grew at least 100x it’s size
“i dunno this one seems like a pretty good idea to me”
“really?”
“really.”
“i guess that means i don’t get to try idea three”
you giggled “what’s idea three?”
“this,” he leaned in to kiss you gently
he had meant for it to be just a peck but as soon as he moved away you tugged on his robes pulling him in again
“i think that one was my favorite idea” you said as your forehead rested against his
