#im procrastinating right now

[liexwrittesfreely]

Me and I

(Long post)

I just want to find reason

Other than

Self hate and self preservation.

I want to live out of love

Not stemmed from escaping myself.

I want to not need to forget myself.

To look straight to the mirror

and not pretend.

I want to know

Who I want to be.

Not just hide behind

Pretending I can’t be anything.

I don’t want to be anyone else

But me.

Me and myself

Aren’t a mirrored image.

I was a boy and a girl

But I shut one up

And now I’m not sure.

Me and I sit to speak

But there’s nothing to be said by them,

So quiet.

They don’t answer

And I won’t conform with myself.

I can’t accept.

“I love you,

I love you”

To myself

When I’m not sure who that

‘you’

is.

When I can’t stand to love.

Conceal all the wrongs from me.

I wish it was all as easy

As pointing off cows

In a road trip.

But… I cannot see.

Hay mistaken for cows

And they blur out into the sky.

The escalator goes right

While I run left.

I cannot escape my destiny.

Where is the hand of god?

Am I being played by an amateur at chess?

Save me,

Save me from myself without taking my life,

Oh Lord.

I procrastinate,

I cry,

Because I feel like I have no power.

No use,

A burden to myself.

I have two left hands and a hoarse voice.

My voice cannot be heard by me,

As I’m too afraid of how to speak to figure it out,

Of what I will think,

And how it isn’t right enough.

There’s so much evidence to back

This claim

All up.

[sandwhich-lady]

Alright story idea yall. I saw this video on Instagram that was like what if a runaway princess, a pirate, and someone else, I can't remember who, let's say a thief, all became friends. Like obviously that would make for an insanely cool story and all, but my brain couldn't help but autofill: the runaway princess, a pirate, a thief, and...the local idiot. Imagine the possibilities, all of these skilled people coming together to defend the idiot they've adopted and actually grown quite fond of. And they just go on adventures and stuff. Is this a thing? I want to write this. Should I write this? I'm gonna write this

[spinelabelle]

me trying to hold off thinking about spinel so I can actually get my work done for once:

[ghostnerddan]

Everytime I start to try and do my homework my mind goes “Nope! Screw you we are unable to focus no matter how much you want to focus!”

[labyrinthwoes]

I wish I had an adhd babysitter that would slap my phone out of my hands and yell at me for taking naps all the time and drag me out of bed and make me actually do work

[labyrinthwoes]

You know what I hate? Being so anxious about something that you put it off but while you're procrastinating you're not even enjoying it because you're so anxious about the thing and then when a whole day has passed you're like shit I did nothing but I'm exhausted?? And then the next day you're anxious AND exhausted and now you're worried because you're starting it late and a responsible person wouldnt do this because a responsible person would manage their time and just do what they're supposed to and now you have to work extra hard because you have so little time left but you STILL CAN'T MAKE YOURSELF DO IT

[sandwhich-lady]

Happy birthday to this tumblr account, once again proving that I have no concept of time because I thought I started this in February and also that february was six months ago

still procrastinating dont worry

[mmuschi]

adhd can you please f u c k off

I really want to pass this semester.