#imgoingtodoit

[rubberduckyandchocolatemilk]

#itstime #notanewyearsresolution #sameme #motivated #imgoingtodoit #newhabits #healthyhabits #nopainnogain #icandothis #itsnevertoolate https://www.instagram.com/p/B6lugD4AnEQ/?igshid=au470xr8xcgd

[furiousrascalhorseherring]

Focused on my goals #healthiswealth #focusedonmygoals #imgoingtodoit #igotthis (at Full Body Fitness) https://www.instagram.com/p/B316NOXp_JT/?igshid=rb5hqquh0pz

[customusix-blog]

#imgoingtodoit #justdoit #mj #michaeljackson #quotes (at CustoMusix)

[lose-it-and-get-fit-blog]

This was me in May! I am still the same but this time I am going to change. I will have weekly body updates every Monday and will post what I eat when.

[kill-go]

Imma lose 100lbs in 2016 from eating healthy and working out.

[gleira]

Today's intentions

I'm going to learn how to make patterns so I can make my own clothes. I can't afford the clothes I like so I'm going to make a way. Now to get over my fear of sewing machines....

[alisons-daddy]

Thinking About Doing It

I’m sick and tired of feeling so fucking empty. I’m tired of sitting here, waiting for it to be okay. That’s the funny thing about this situation: it’s never going to be okay.

I try so fucking hard every single day to make myself and others happy, but it always turns out with me disappointing them and making them unhappy. Would me dying be such a loss?

I realize that I have people here who care for me deeply, but what’s the point if all I do is continue to fuck up and disappoint them? Soon enough they’re going to become tired of me, just like the rest of them. All the things that I’ve heard people say in the hallways are true. I am a fuck up. I am worthless. I am a piece of shit. I am fat. And nothing that any of you say to me will make me think differently.

Maybe that’s why people start to hate me; I’m too fucking stubborn and persistent.

All I care for is myself, don’t you dare tell me different. My fucking girlfriend tried to commit suicide because of a stupid fucking mistake I made. She isn’t happy, I know she isn’t, but I’m too selfish to let her go.

I’m too fucking needy. I want everyone’s attention. My girlfriend knows of it too. Maybe that’s why she gets so annoyed and angry. I can’t go two fucking seconds without her attention.

Ha, maybe I really am an attention whore, though that wouldn’t surprise me much.

I can’t fucking stand myself. I’m too far deep into this darkness for anyone to fucking help me.

My girlfriend feels constant guilt and regret every time I have a breakdown. She feels constant disappointment every time she sees me.

She tries so fucking hard for me, and I never realized until now because of how blind and selfish I am.

I’m a fucking disgrace.

I can’t go on anymore.

I just want to die.

[anonymoussecretsforever-blog]

Coming soon...

Wow it has been a long time since I have been on here and posted anything. I want to get this blog back up and running because so much has happened since I last really posted on here. I now have my computer back after two years of not having it. So I finally have the means to actually make this blog a thing again. I missed it and I missed all the wonderful people who followed it and may even continue to follow it. And if you still do follow it then I am impressed and honored that you stuck around. So I swear to you all that I will get this blog back up and running. It already received a face lift. Now it just needs to be updated on my life. Let me know what you think of its new look. Love you guys.