Now that I've moved out, and live my own life, I have the luxury of visiting my family and staying at home during school breaks. When the school year is in full-swing, I don't have time for self-care (which, ironically, is the thing that they emphasize the most in my grad program), but when I come home, I almost expect royal treatment automatically. I, am, afterall, my parents' darling child who's away studying, and making the whole family proud. Right? Right...? Wrong. I think the distance has really been helping the relationship I have with my parents, which evidently, has been extremely rocky from the beginning. Being home for too long just brings back all those terrible memories of me trying to deal with the nonsense that is Indian parenting, while trying to adjust to life in America. It's just so toxic and gross. Having very typical immigrant parents is something I'm sure a lot of other Indian - Americans like myself empathize with, but that does not mean we have to put up with the crap that they perpetuate. From laughing too loud in their presence, to expressing my opinions on topics that I feel strongly about, are only the mere tidbits of the endless list of things that irk my parents. There is no doubt that our parents worked incredibly hard to give us the life that we now have the privilege to enjoy, but that does not mean that we are not entitled to sanity and a voice. Shit, I feel like I've regressed 20 years every time my mom yells at me to be respectful to my family members who feel like they can spew utter garbage and still feel like they deserve respect. I feel like crap when my mom yells at me to stop talking on the phone with my best friend whom I have known for 10 years. It's like I'm being treated like a child all over again. My point is, moving away was the best and worst thing I ever did. Do I miss home? Hell yeah I do. Am I glad I don't permanently live here anymore? More so than anything else. This post is for people who have ever felt psychologically trapped and forced to feel guilty for every little thing you do or say, because no matter how hard-working, and deeply rooted in our culture our parents are, nobody deserves to receive messages that they are not good enough. That is the worst thing a child can hear coming out of their parents' mouths. In short, Indian parents, y'all are some gritty folks, but please for fucks sake, stop expecting your grown-up sons and daughters to live the same restrictive lifestyle that you might have lived.