#infp mind

[nohadrawsworld]

ENFP: if you even think about pressuring yourself about it I will kill you ◉‿◉!

INFP:

[thelonerdreamer]

The thing about dreaming is that you can always be disappointed, and I will be. An anxious mind which constantly thinks about failure, trying to look through reality. For a dreamer, nothing ever comes easy. Being a dreamer is about idealizing things, people, places, scenarios, goals, and even ideals itself, but at the end of the day, fear will always arrive. In this world, I meet thousands of different people, and to find someone who truly comprehends what’s inside my fearful heart, is an accomplishment and a real achievement. For me, just one reality is simply not enough; there has to be something more, something more meaningful and fanciful. My mind travels around unusual cities and camps, my heart is never filled completely; it's not empty, but it may never be full, at least not entirely. You may tell me I'm a pessimist, but I guarantee I'm not one of them. Fear is not the same as pessimism. Yeah, I will always be the kind of dreamer who wants to run the world in a singular way, to save people, and spread some kind of magic. Reality breaks my heart, but what would reality be? Isn't it just a word people use to design something they are too scared to reach, or just they simply don't want others to find? There's a fine line between wanting something but not daring to dream ahead, to someone trying to find a single sign of courage inside their heart. I'm the fearful one, but deep inside my heart I know I'm already courageous. It takes a great deal of courage to live in a world like this, where the odds are always trying to put me down, such as insecurity. You may call me a pessimist, but I guarantee I'm not one of them. I'm just a fragile dreamer who's trying to dare to be brave.

Inside an INFP’s mind and heart.

[into-deepdark]

If I think back to my pass, I lose count of how many times did I tried to convince myself that I should get over the things that no longer serve my growth. But, I realize, I can't really separate myself from my pass. No matter how far the time's distance of your pass and present, they're always connected. Like, you can't really forget the insult you get 10 years ago. Every now and then, there's always trigger that give you a glimpse of flashback and for a moment you are sad again. The point is, we will always connected to our pass. But, now, it is easier for us to handle it. We could now control our emotion. Rather than suffocating ourselve with our dark history, we learn to accept it because without the pass, we are not the person we have become now. I hope you love yourself more and prioritize on how you write your present a beautiful story that will furnish your future as how you imagine it in your head.

- a.e.d

[life-as-infp]

Silence

Do you ever have one of those days were you think back on everything and have to really concentrate to remember if you verbally said anything? And then you have to say something to yourself to make sure this whole time you weren’t just hallucinating that you have a voice, that other people actually exist outside of your own mindscape and have their own independent lives and thought processes... Sometimes you remember that you did use your weird vibrating flesh strings, but you just haven’t said anything important you or anyone else is going to remember a few hours later. It is a weird place to be.

[infpconfessionsoflife]

INFPs: Processing or Emotional Delay?

INFPs are known to be fluffy and very cinnamon roll types. But what many don’t know is that we can be analytical as all get out. Some tread that very fine line that can almost make us come across a T rather than an F type. We are contradictions of course but to say we are guided solely on emotions, is not true, not for many. 

A couple asks prior was questioning that and honestly, I can’t say as it didn’t make me think and totally relate. I do analyze everything. Sometimes is seeps into my emotions and decisions which I know is not a good thing because it can cause me to seem kind of cool towards a subject, or make me take my heart out of a matter. BUT this happens mostly due to stress or just shock of a situatiuon that has been presented to me. Many of times it may make me look like I just don’t care. My biggest thing that gets me is that I will sit there, feel emotions about something, basically want to cry yet know what the logical answer is and say that, then after a few hours or even a few days go by, think about it and have all of the emotions that I really felt come out and hit me HARD. Especially if the issue put on the spot and I am not one to really cry in front of people so I have no choice but to act like the stable one, no matter how much it hurt me. It takes me that long sometimes and I guess it is more of a defense mechanism than anything. I have always been this way. Sure it makes for a good business mind, but man, does it cause issues and can actually get you pretty stuck. Plus you think to yourself “where was that comeback then?”  Just a personal observation. INFPs feel like they have to be strong and hold such high morals and values, that sometimes it can be a great thing but other times it can work against us. So the question remains, Processing, Emotional Delay or a little bit of both?

Can Anyone Relate?  

[thelonerdreamer]

I must not hold a hand; I must not compromise my heart to shallowness. All I know is that I feel alone. Just in my imagination I create double personalities, twisted faces. Love won't find me, because it doesn't look for perfectionism. But I'm a perfectionist. All those things I took, I let them go. There's no such thing as fairies or tales, I must face the bitterness of life. What if I don't want to? Take my hand and say there's a shining light ahead of this dark street. Tell me I will find it, someday. I have all my heart to give, but it seems like it is supposed to love alone. Am I the lonely one? All I know is that I loved what I created with just a bit of sweet delusion.

Do you know what I mean?

— Inside an INFP's mind and heart.

[thelonerdreamer]

The smell of rain, the warmth of the sun, the feeling of the grass under my feet. I wonder about lots of things, I think about lots of thoughts, I wonder lots of wonderings. Is there something such as fate? I wish I could have someone to share the depth of my love and the riddle of my mind. Maybe the only person that can ever understand me is myself. Or maybe there's some person out there, just thinking about the silly things just the same way as I do. How can someone expect to live and feel so many things, but can't help being scared at the same time? The truth is I'm terrified of everything. Scared yet passionate, loner yet a lover. I'm thousands of things, I just wish I could know them. Maybe I'm something wonderful, or maybe I’m simply someone else's nightmare. How can I want to fall in love when I'm so out of reality? The truth is that I know nothing at all, but at the same time I feel like my head is full of words, meanings and magic universes. I love being so intense, but sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in my fantasy.

— Inside an INFP's mind and heart.

[into-deepdark]

little things we deserve

"I had spend my whole life not forcing people into something they seem to have no interest about. If I talk about something I am passionate about but people don't seem to care, I'll shut my mouth. If I feel like people don't interested in becoming my friend, I'll leave. If I try to help people with anything but they don't seem to appreciate, I'll feel proud anyway because I help with all my heart. If I show my art and people laugh at it, I'll just laugh along. Therefore, I too deserve not to be force into something that I don't like. Why do we tend to be interested in something when it is too late?"