#intp studying

[intjpuff]

Oddly specific INTX things #1

Instead of studying or getting ahead on schoolwork you make a map for a novel you are writing

[salieri-studying]

Studyblr Intro

Well I want to get into the studyblr community but honestly I’m terrible at intros. Bear with me, I’m trying.

Also, I’m a sarcastic little shit and a fatalist so allow me to apologize beforehand for my crappy attitude.

Hello!

The name I’m going by is Umra, nice to meet you.

I’m 18 and in my last year of IB (I am in so much pain honestly help pls put me out of my misery).

I’m taking the following subjects: 

Mathematics SL

English Language & Literature HL

Spanish Language & Literature HL

Biology HL

Chemistry SL

Economics SL

English is my third language, so I’m really sorry if my use of grammar makes your eyes bleed. I also speak Spanish and Romanian.

I play the piano and the flute but right now almost all my hobbies are on hiatus (these include reading, writing, drawing, and playing videogames mainly).

I should warn you that my sense of aesthetic is garbage and my notes are a joke, but hey, I’m here to learn.

I’m an INTP-A according to the MBTI test. These are my results:

100% Introverted

85% Intuitive

88% Thinking 

96% Prospecting (which means I am literally unable to get anything done)

65% Assertive (basically I’m pretty chill most of the time)

Not a good combination in order to be a good student, but that’s the reason I’m making a studyblr: to learn how to study.

I need to get into a healthy routine and get my work done properly, so I thought that if I shared it on the Internet I would pressure myself more and could actually succeed.

I have no idea about college or what I want to study in the future. My options go from videogame design to psychiatry to forensic anthropology (my favourite).

However my parents are pressuring me a lot with my grades because they expect me to go to Cambridge (spoiler alert: there’s no way in hell I’m getting accepted there), but well, at least I can try.

I hope to provide this blog with something else than pain, anger and disappointment, that’s kinda my goal.

Some of my favourite studyblrs are:

@tbhstudying @studyquill @janetstudies @thepinkstudyblr @studysum @wendystudies @carlostudyblr

Isn’t it funny how the word ‘studying’ has ‘dying’ in it?

[intpatypical]

I studied languages consistently during the last two months, and I’m afraid being on the seaside without internet for a week will ruin my habits. I prepared pen-and-paper study materials in advance, but who knows if Scoundrel Ne is going to fail me.

[intpatypical]

I have to be successful because every two days I read stuff about how ignorant Southern Italian graduates are and how useless and incompetent people who took a degree late are. I had very good results overall and even partly made up for the late degree with some hard work and some hard winging it, but I often feel like people (esp. people in politics) think I’m an abominable waste of resources.

[intpatypical]

I’ve managed anxiety for such a long time that it doesn’t follow a normal pattern  anymore. My SJ overzealous colleague told me “I don’t know how you do that. I don’t understand you”, because her reaction to an overly random, difficult bar exam is overpreparing and actually experiencing a lot of anxiety.

My reaction was giving up on the idea of meticulous preparation (I didn’t have the time and sacrificing sleep was never an option), repressing anxiety because it tends to block me and keeping a state of Zen flow, all-action-no-speculation, during the exam itself. I passed the written portion of the exam, which 70% of participants didn’t, and appeared totally nonchalant while waiting for the results (which baffles SJ colleague).

For better or worse, the normal pattern where you notice trouble ahead, you get scared and you act does no longer work in my life, or if it does it’s absolutely nonlinear. I have to relate on other tools, otherwise nothing gets done, and since anxiety is a very painful state for me to be in, I tend to prioritize not suffering over perfection. I believe my approach has some merit, but it’s overall an ingrained and partially automatic survival strategy.

It’s not all bad, but sometimes I wish my inner workings were more straightforward.

[intpatypical]

Reminder to myself: no, it’s not that other people can perfectly memorize 1600 + pages in 1,5 months while they work in law firms and socialize and you can’t because you’re retarded.

It is that other people half-ass things in order to finish them on time. You can do it too. 

Half-ass your way to victory instead of leaving unfinished masterpieces. Or unfinished stuff in general.