#iron-immolate

[poisonidous]

What are you doing to her? Let her go.

She’s drunk, and I’m helping her to stay hoisted up. If I let her go she wwill fall, simple as that.

And doing that wwhile examining a teleporting devvice isn’t comfortable, I assure you.

[falsecutesy]

iron-immolate replied to your post “We’ll see about that.”

I can't tell you what's going on for the privacy of those involved but please try not to take this to heart. I know it's hard and you have every right to be anguished but there's a lot going on. The only track record she knows works on how to cope with this is to withdraw herself. Trauma can soften or harden a person and I'm trying to work out what the underline issue is to make her become this distant.

[PVT]

Karion, I’m just.

Out of the blue, one day, mere moments before coming over to see me, she distances me for a ‘’betrayal’’ that I don’t know of and that never happened thanks to my undying loyalty, and Pardus too, when she is the one that asked me to protect her when she couldn’t. Other than this, she’s endlessly taunting us with private informations that shouldn’t be made public, she prods and pokes and threatens and then states that we’re dead to her, and we’re here huddling close to eachother because we have NO FUCKING IDEA of what’s going on with her, what happened or what we did to make her this furious and vengeful at us from a day to another, or if we didn’t do anything and if it’s just happening because of some other thing that we can’t control!

Pardus is in pieces. I lost my best friend and I’m being accused of betrayal when I never, not once, cracked open my mouth about anything regarding her, not once, and I still haven’t, yet I’m still made object of mockery, and after this I’m not even sure if I’ll be able to see her in the same light as I did before.

How are we not supposed to not take this at heart??? We’re not toys to freely throw around whenever something happens that fucks EVERYTHING up, we’re not pawns to be proven loyalty to. I don’t know what’s going on, we don’t KNOW what’s going on in any way and we’re scared and tired. I’m trying to be understanding of it all but it’s so confusing, it’s like a nightmare.

i wish that things would fucking solve quickly and i wish that i wasn’t missing her as much as i did and i wish that i wasn’t so goddamn empty.

[bedknobs-and-barstools]

Welco+me

@iron-immolate

Hello+ there, and welco+me to+ my little co+rner. I go+ by Po+rrim.

Who+ might yo+u be?

[smphyraena-blog]

iron-immolate replied to your post: when u vauge about me means u have 2 buy my shit

Blocked.

u should buy my collaborations with puffs plus w/ lotion 

r they soft enough for your sensitive ass? 

[violetbard]

Penny for your thoughts on Mindfang?

big finale for this stuff, yeah?

boohoo, shes a big bitch, eight eyes douche, blah blah.

thats vwhat youre expecting, right?

honestly vwhat do i say at this point. mindfang another case of someone vwho pokes the bear, vwith a knife, and then shoots it dowvn vwith angry frustration as to vwhy it lashed out to begin vwith. she got angry that i finally decided to stop taking shit and i responded back to her instead of taking her beef; vwith honestly far more passivwe responses vwersus the shit she givwes. 

most of it isnt evwen to hurt? if any at all; vwhen ivwe approached i havwent made fun of her past, her quad relationships, none. just joshing around or asking questions. or responding bitterly if she happens to say something first in the slurry of insults.

look through my tag for her. her tag for me; her mentions of my name. my mentions of her. im not a fucking bluff. 

im called the bother and yet shes came onto my posts randomly making fun of me. if i come to her for a small chat, she laughs. shes the one vwho commented on her blog about my decisions that dont relate to her. or continues to comment on my vweight or my concept of livwing or about my fake quads vwhen i smile tight and attempt to respond in a vway that keeps the peace.

someone once said i havwe good self esteem.

i really dont and im fucking dying from all the shit thats happened recently, evwen outside of her. but shes recently been a thorny factor.

yet people decided to only chip in vwhen it finally goes too far; chip in and act like i cant say anything or be upset at things people havwe harassed me for in the past to the point of hurting hard.

as if other people are also aloud to havwe emotional disrupts?

i havwe a fucking support dog nowv to help vwith that shit, for petes sake. get the hint.

nevwermind the most recent block; prior to that she unfollowved me for doing fuck all; i remember doing nothing but chipping in a casual joke due to some stuff on her other blog and then she started asking vwhy im the vway i am.

ivwe been called fat for posting selfies. ivwe been called a vwhore for sleeping vwith others. ivwe been told that i shouldnt exist and that i should go die for catching up on dash.

same old vwerse, different bloody singer.

if she vwants to change, for other people, then thats fine. i NEVWER said that vwas an issue, nor that people should stop being proud, as much as her pitch vwants to put vwords into my mouth. i get shes a bad schmuck too; that shit nevwer truly dies out as much as anyone tries to admit it. ill take full on fault and say that sometimes i still do dumb shit despite calming dowvn ovwer the svweeps.

i get it.

but people dont havwe the right to tell me howv to feel as much as they givwe her the ability to continue to talk aloud about evwery thing she hates on blog. people dont havwe the right to tell me howv to feel in privwate. they dont havwe the right to call me a bad person for getting angry ovwer harassment that i only havwe myself to defend against.

this is literally a recap of last year, but serket addition. 

maybe if i did do something id apologize, if it vwas something i actually did. but the ovwerwhelming bullshit that is nowv, especially vwith dash dragging and lack of trying to fix shit, doesnt help, so im done. if she doesnt vwanna help herself vwith this, and no one else vwants to help, then ill help myself; maybe in turn her, for her sake i guess. she doesnt vwanna vwait up on people after all.

im at a point nowv vwhere my energys shot through and then depleted, and i cant care to push out so much anger, evwen if its fucking natural. i dont vwant to.

i knowv she has me blocked, and evwen if she didnt or doesnt she vwont read the lot of this, but you nevwer knowv vwhats to change. also i just answvered this for because i vwas asked to, and this is stuff clogging my chest.

so, to make evweryone happy, im just going to pet my dog and smile so things go back to feeling peachy keen and there are absolutely no issues present.

that vway she and the dash dont havwe to feel uncomfortable.

[allcatsaregreyt]

@iron-immolate

d0 y0u like t0 tell st0ries?

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[relatoliva-blog]

@iron-immolate @the-queen-of-all-trolls

s33ms ive already gotten some attention around here! hello, im a huntress with a little too much time on her paws as of late. to whom do i owe the pleasure?