#ith.sam

[ithacaroyals]

saw someone make a petrova line bracelet and i wanted to as well ++ some moar items & characters

some of the beads glow in the dark!! <3

[ithacaroyals]

Going through our simply plural & plural kit and privating / archiving *So* many of us, because we have become so distant??? that we don't fully know / believe they truly exist as alters???

We're sort of fake claiming ourselves. We absolutely believe we're a system, don't get us wrong. But when it comes to the ones that haven't been active in recent times, we just can't remember enough about them to truly understand the depths of them, to know how they worked within the system and whatnot.

It makes us think that they didn't truly exist, perhaps not to the level we thoughta. Perhaps, instead of fully developed alters, it could have been one fragment taking many faces. During this process, we have started a new journal and have even refused to add in any of these questionable members until they front again. *Even then*, we have more rules that we may ramble about another time.

I'm curious to know if anybody else has similar experiences? whether it's from a lack of memory, or simply just because.

[ithacaroyals]

happy birthday to me, sam winchester

i lived, bitch

[ithacaroyals]

god i miss age regressing

i have a little side blog that i reblog stuff onto when i remember it exists but i feel I haven't properly regressed in so long

it feels kind of empty, like im missing something. like the regression isnt actually real im just forcing it

i dont know if its because of whos fronting / who is regressing but it just feels different.

not even Telemachus has been able to really regress lately and thats basically his main role.

i totally feel it would be easier if it wasn't a caregiver trying to front along side and rather just the little/regresser. but no, we're alone and have to take care of ourselves unfortunately. wish it was easier to find specifically caregivers rather than just hoping the people you talk to understand it in the first place.

[ithacaroyals]

ive been on such a creative high recently due to project hail mary. I've started learning how to make kumihimo bracelets and I've started to make more jewelry in general. I feel I've been drawing a lot of them (need to post more if it).

I feel like I'm almost manic but it's okay. I don't feel bad. (of course you don't bitch, it's mania, what are you saying LMAO). I'm still taking care of myself for the most part, besides the weird sleep schedule.

[ithacaroyals]

happy to be sober for a bit. Definitely needed a tolerance break

i was taking up to 200 mg and it wasnt getting me high.

Hoping to stay sober until my birthday (June 25th)

[ithacaroyals]

i do really hate being a system sometimes because why do we have so many fragments that are just waiting for faces. why do we have to have more pieces just because of some fucking stress + depression. boo hoo us. what's the big woop, why make fragments appear bc of it

i cant like anything normally bc of it i feel. i cant just indulge in a media without splitting from it. i hate it

[ithacaroyals]

I don’t think im the “anon” you think I am :)

ok?,,, and??