I'm pretty sure I get it now. I never really knew who you were. I thought I was so in love with the person you were, your soul, your being, but I was in the dark. You never let me know who you really were inside, you hid so many things, thinking you had to be something else for me to love you, and in doing so, I was loving someone that didn't exist. Someone you portrayed. A mask you wore. And you know what, that above everything else that you could have been, is the one part of you I truly never could have loved. Being someone your not, pretending to be something so that someone else will love you, pretending to care more than you do, living a lie, acting, lieing to me. I've spent so much time wondering what happened, how the "person i knew" could just act the way you did, do the things you did, and be the way you are now" but the truth is, this is who you were all along. I never knew you because you never allowed me to know you, you were always too caught up in making sure you were covering your ass or saying all the right things to make sure you kept the mask on. Above all, I am so disappointed in you. I was betrayed by the person I believed to be my best friend, and soul mate. I was so wrong about you.