#its getting bad

[scentedpocky]

friends sent this vid in the gc and we thought of vox sooooo

he became my fav character SO FAST in s2 i love him so bad

[zephyrodd]

I hate meltdowns. I have having to recover from meltdowns alone the next day because my partner has to work. I hate having a meltdown because I am overstimulated by the amount of stuff I have to do, in the middle of all the stuff, and still having to do everything left. I hate scaring my partner while scream crying and slamming my head into the wall.

I have my hearing for disability today. It can still take weeks to months to get a decision, and i have already been doing the decision-appeal dance for a couple years. Im exhausted and feel dehumanized by this process.

I just want it to be over. I want everything to be over, i just want to sleep forever. Until the weight feels lighter, until my body stops aching, until my mind stops tearing itself apart, until the fires are put out, until the responsibilities are reassigned, until my value is no longer measured in productivity, Until being kind to myself no longer feels like a chore.

Other people have been fighting this fight a lot longer than me, they put in so much more work and effort. I dont deserve to feel this exhausted, this broken down.

I constantly feel like i need to do better. I dont know how im going to get through this, part of me is considering ignoring the call, skipping the hearing, accepting that I cant do enough to even get disability for myself, giving up. It feels like the world is telling me I dont deserve to be here, and honestly, im starting to agree.

Im probably just being dramatic. I know people have it so much worse than me. I should be grateful for what I do have.

But I cant be... and that reinforces all the bad thoughts im having.

I just have to make it through today, make it through today and then make it to thursday. Thursday is therapy day. (I also have all the crisis lines and can contact my therapist. Im like, not an immediate risk to myself [I dont think] but I am not okay.)

Im just... im not okay.

[candicoated]

See you dont get it John is Original Skittles and Lemon Starburst, Paul is Wildberry Skittles and Cherry Starburst, George is Sour Skittles and Orange Starburst and Ringo is Tropical Skittles and Strawberry Starburst. This is an important distinction. To make and I purely based this on vibes but I'm correct.

[mikeandwillsweddingofficiant]

[huayong]

sticker that says “please ask me about my unhealthy obsession and attachment to abo desire”

[i-may-not-have-wings]

guys, i can’t stop thinking about byler. i literally redownloaded twitter so i can have another outlet to consume byler

[pusheenpink1]

i like being alone until it's past 10 pm

[silenth1lls4]

i think pinterest knows who are my favorite characters right now