#iwantthem

[klance-daydreams]

labubu kl

[pollinova]

What do we want?

Twinks!

When do we want them?

As soon as they're available for a date!

[kristyjay]

That feeling when you walk into your room and see all your books..

[jimmyjamesn]

Look at these adorable cream puffs 😍😍gotta love my job. #bakerslife #baker #yyc #localyyc #sweet #sweets #creampuff #cute #pretty #foodie #foodblogger #adorable #pictureoftheday #dessert #desserts #iwantthem #sugar #foodporn #dessertporn #ihashtagtoomuch

[gurley50-blog]

Just give him what he wants...

Then go get what you want too.....

[plump-penguins]

So I know exactly what I want for my birthday.

[earnestscribblr]

The lights at @thevortexatl are to die for (LOL). #iwantthem (at The Vortex Midtown) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1kNZQrJX89/?igshid=160gni8lqyext

[keepgoing36]

Silly Superstitions

8/11/19

So, there's this superstition that if you place a necklace in the middle of someone's palm it will tell you how many kids you will have and what their sex will be. If the necklace swings in a circle it's a girl and back and forth is a boy. If it doesn't move, then no more.

We've played that game since we were little and always joked about it. I've only ever half believed it because it works with my parents and their kids.

Anyway, I've always had it the same, one girl, one boy, one girl, and one boy. Four kids total. I've always imagined what it would be like, to name them, to cheer them on in sports, or theater, to love them and accept anything they chose in life.

Last time I did it was about a year ago and things changed. It started going crazy and making funky shapes until it stopped. I didn't think anything of it, because there's always been that excuse that "your hand isn't clean" and that's why it gets it wrong. A few days after that, we tried again and everyone got the same as before except for me. It didn't move. At all.

No kids for me...

We tried it again today and I remembered last time, so I "cleaned my hand" and hoped something would come up. Nothing. I'm not having anything...

I know it's just a silly game, but what if it's right? My entire life I've dreamt more about raising kids and watching them grow, than getting married. Everyone jokes that I'll just do IVF so I can do it on my own. What if I don't get that opportunity? Everyone looked at me when that happened, and I laughed it off saying I would just be the crazy aunt who would spoil all of my nieces and nephews, but... inside... I want my own.

I want all of it. I want giggles in the too early morning, making a mess that I know I'll have to clean up later, struggling to put them to bed, all of those things I want, because I know that I'll look back and smile when I remember their giggles, or the imaginary scenarios we experienced, or their calm faces after falling asleep.

What if I don't get to make those memories?

It just... breaks my heart thinking about it.