#janus angst

[crystalline-sanders]

"Godspeed, it'll all catch up to you."

hello gang how's it going. how's it going roceit truthers.

[5am-the-foxing-hour]

suddenly struck by the thought of Janus being touch adverse because he's really really touch starved.

To the point any touch feels like it's burning, doesn't help he runs colder than the others do. He both loves and despises the warmth they give out.

[sanders-sides-angst-headcanons]

I've come to realize lately that I have a number of food issues, therefore I'm assigning the Sides my food/body image issues

TW for eating disorders and body image issues

Logan and Janus: Getting caught up in tasks and pulling the "I'll eat when I'm done w xyz" shit and then getting caught with a different task instead of eating

Roman and Virgil: Fucked up sleeping schedule leads to late breakfast, which leads to late lunch, which leads to not being hungry at dinner and skipping dinner

Virgil, again: "Everything looks delicious and idk what to eat" one day and "this is all gross and idk what to eat" the next day

Patton: The guilt that comes with eating too much sugar due to a family history of diabetes and being scared of that due to my needle phobia. Checking labels on everything for sugar content and feeling like you're doomed if you have more than the daily recommended amount ever

Remus: Feeling comfortable in your skin and being okay in your body UNTIL you get weighed at the annual physical because it just feels bad once there's a number attached

I do the same shit as Virgil/Roman and logan/janus I thought that was normal 😭

I’m not typing all 50828 tags for the sides

[abigails-interests]

Imagine if Virgil and Janus don't actually hate each other and they just act like they do.

Like they had some big falling out, probably when Virgil left but it was just some big misunderstanding that could've been avoided if they just talked.

And they both are angry for a while until that anger dies down and they realise that they actually miss each other.

But they've gone so long hating each other, and they can't just go back to the way it was before, so they both keep up the act, showing dislike to the other while secretly wishing they were still friends.

They both want to reach out and drop that mask but they can't because they're both in too deep and neither want to say sorry because they're convinced that the other still hates them.

So they stay enemies, in a way so tragic, because they could reconcile if they just talked, just like this never could have happened if they just talked back then.

And maybe they never are friends again. Or maybe one of them does end up reaching out because they can't take it anymore.

Or maybe one day in the future, when the entire group gets along better, one day one of them mentions in passing how they spent more time missing the other than hating them, and they realise they've been foolish, dodging each other for years over a belief that wasn't true. And then they laugh, and everything is ok in the end, because they're back together as friends.

[devendrawsart]

Did a little comic with Remus and Janus because there’s not enough angst of either of them. Especially not Remus (Dude has so much unexplored potential and complexity)

Below are the full body versions of my designs, if anybody wants explanations and concept art let me know and I’ll make another post.

Here they are! I’m stupidly happy with how their designs turned out.

[dukeyeatsdeodorant]

Janus has abandonment issues. Thats it. Thats the post

[tals-tower]

Head Cannon: Every so often Roman will set up like "a fair day" in the imagination which is just an excuse to win prizes and play games with his friends because none of them can go to any actual fairs or events like that

Aww that’s adorable! My interpretation below!

Janus and Remus probably aren’t allowed for the longest time- so Janus will sometimes steal someone else’s invitation and go instead.

Virgil always gets spider themed plushies if he wins a carnaval game which causes some issues with Patton, who will flinch away from them (esp because Roman blessed the toys with the ability to come to life in the imagination) but he deals for his kiddos

Remus stole this idea, he has much more bloody carnivals on his side of the imagination (he’s tried to convince Janus and Orange to help him kidnap a light side to join multiple times)

Virgil HATED Remus’ carnivals and avoid Romans, assuming they’d be similar for the longest time. He was pleasantly surprised.

Logan is actually the best at the carnival games (because they’re not rigged). He usually gives the things he wins to the other sides (usually Virgil because he knows they help with his anxiety), but he has a few stuffed animals he snuggles for himself. He feels bad for keeping them but they make him feel safer (some of them are fiddle toys that Roman put in there for Virgil, but Logan really likes them)

Patton’s favorite toys are the stuffed puppies, but sometimes he’ll get a stuffed frog, and then wince and look at Roman.

Roman has made a bunch of duplicates of himself to run the circus tent part. He loves doing death-defying acts that would never work (the other sides don’t really show up to it. Janus does if he’s snuck in, and Patton tries to go to encourage his kiddo, but Logan doesn’t see the point in it and it gives Virgil really bad anxiety)

[will-die-for-janus]

Not exactly related to the episode but I’ve been thinking about this and I need to share it with someone.

What if Janus was scared of the Orange side? Like what if he was doing his best to hide O from Thomas not because of personal motives but because Janus fears O’s power and is trying to protect Thomas? If that’s the case, what kind of powerhouse would O be to be worthy of even Janus fearing him? Logan is the last roadblock between O and Thomas. Once he breaks down (and he’s clearly very close to it), then O comes into his full power.

This is barely a theory this is just an excuse to see angsty Janus. I like watching calm and collected characters have a breakdown. I wanna read this fic so bad

Ok I love theories it’s like my favourite thing (still emotionally devastated over matpat I can’t handle change lmao)

Entertaining this idea, Janus is the representation of Thomas’ self-preservation, he had been allowed to lie to T about HIS OWN existence. The only other dark side we know is Remus and in his introduction he mentioned Janus allowing him present himself to T as he was accepting the darker sides to himself. Yet we have seen only the vaguest of hints about this Orange side, event after J has been accepted by Thomas and Patton. This means the orange side would either disrupts the tentative peace they’ve built so far OR Janus has reasons (self-preserving) for not allowing the introduction of O.

Another thing we have to keep in mind is Logan, most people have determined Logan is either the orange side, linked with the orange side, or is acting as some sort of barrier between O and Thomas. I am leaning more towards Logan might develop into the Orange side, mostly because the rainbow doesn’t have 2 blue colours 🌈. Yet Lo taking one for the team and maybe having the orange side try to come out or influence him but not allowing it to happen just to protect everyone else, this includes not showing/feeling any emotions (especially the ones that come more naturally to him like anger), it’s very heroic and something I wouldn’t mind.

Angsty any side is definitely my shit (only if there is a happy ending cuz i’m a damn baby) This fic concept is definitely something i’m intrigued by, if I end up using it as a writing exercise on my fic account i’ll give you all the credit!!