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[honestlydarkprincess]

Inspiration Saturday!

tagged by @wildlife4life, @hippolotamus, @disasterbuckdiaz, @wikiangela mwah!!

i've been caught up with my new wip so i kind of forgot about the wrong number au but alas, here :3

i'll put the snippet under the cut so it doesn't get too long :3

Hey, thought you might like to know that my son got an A on the project you helped with. Thanks.

Eddie sent the message and immediately shoved his phone into the cup holder, not wanting to look at it because he knew that if he did then he would feel the urge to obsessively wait for the dot dot dot signalling that Buck was typing.

It wasn’t until they were back at the house and inside that Eddie let himself look at his phone.

That’s fantastic! I’m so happy for him.

There was a pause and then Eddie saw the speech bubble again, Buck as typing again.

I’m also happy to hear from you, I didn’t think I would.

Eddie’s breath caught. He was surprised but glad that apparently hearing from him wasn’t a bad thing for Buck. In fact, it was something Buck was happy about. Eddie felt giddy.

I wasn’t sure that you wanted to hear from me.

He wasn’t sure what it was about Buck that made it so easy to be honest with him but Eddie liked it.

Of course I wanted to hear from you. I really wanted to ask how your son’s project went but I wasn’t sure if you wanted me to bother you again.

Eddie sighed.

One day you’ll realize that you’re not bothering me, Buck. I like talking to you.

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[honestlydarkprincess]

to be okay

6x12 coda || word count: 646 || read on ao3

Every morning is the same. Buck wakes up, and doesn’t fully breathe until his phone is in his hand and the message thread with Bobby is open.

morning bobby

Buck can’t breathe, his chest feels tight and his hands shake ever so slightly.

Good morning, Buck

And Buck can breathe again. Bobby is okay. He’s alive and well, probably enjoying a cup of coffee with Athena like Buck knows they do every morning that they can. The knot in his chest unfurls and Buck can move, can start to get ready for the day.

He gets a few steps towards the bathroom, intending to shower, when he doubles back and grabs his phone. Opening his text thread with Eddie, Buck types out a message and presses send.

hey

While Buck waits for a response from Eddie, he opens the next thread in his phone.

morning buddy! i hope you have a great day at school is sent to Christopher and Buck isn’t surprised that Chris is the one who responds immediately.

thanks, buck! can you help me with my science assignment tonight?

of course, bud

Buck is grinning, looking forward to tonight. Normally he, Eddie, and Christopher have dinner on Fridays and watch a movie but since Buck is still on medical leave right now, they’ve been able to have them more frequently. Tonight Buck had promised Chris homemade pizza and he mentally went through his shopping list while he waited for Eddie to respond.

He wasn’t too concerned, Eddie wasn’t known to be quick with replies on text, if you really needed to get a hold of him it was always best to call. But as the minutes ticked by and still no response, Buck began to get worried.

Shit, what if something happened? No, if something was wrong then Chris would have told him— but what if Chris didn’t know? What if something had happened to Eddie while he was sleeping or he slipped in the shower or—

Buck felt himself starting to panic, starting to spiral, and suddenly he was pressing Call on Eddie’s contact and shoving the phone against his ear, heart pounding in his throat.

“‘ello?” Eddie slurred, his voice heavy with sleep.

Buck let out a broken sound, an almost hysterical wave of relief crashing over him and making it so he couldn’t talk.

“Buck?” Eddie asked, now sounding alert. “What’s wrong? What happened?” Buck could hear the rustling of Eddie’s blankets, imagined they were being thrown off as Eddie rushed out of bed.

“I’m fine, I’m fine, sorry, I just— you weren’t answering and I panicked and I couldn’t breathe,” Buck rambled, sitting down on his bed and trying to calm his heart, calm his breathing.

“Hey, hey, I’m right here,” Eddie reassured him softly. “I’m okay. I’m at home with Christopher and both of us are okay. We’re okay.”

“Y-yeah?” Buck gasped out, his body finally starting to relax the more he listened to Eddie’s soothing voice.

“Yeah,” Eddie confirmed. “I promise.”

“Okay, that’s good, that’s— that’s real good,” Buck mumbled, closing his eyes.

They were quiet for a minute, just listening to each other breathe on the line, Buck’s heartbeat finally slowing down.

“Come over,” Eddie said. “We’ll take Christopher out for breakfast and get those stupidly expensive coffee latte frappuchinos you like.”

Buck laughed. “That is not even close to what they’re called.”

Buck could somehow hear Eddie’s smile. “Yeah, but I made you laugh, didn’t I?”

“Yeah,” Buck sighed, affection clear in his voice. “I’ll be right over.”

“We’ll be here,” Eddie replied and Buck got the feeling he was talking about more than just right now.

Just before Buck got into the shower, his phone beeped again and when he checked it, there was another message from Bobby.

All good?

And Buck didn’t even have to think about it. All good! he sent back.

[honestlydarkprincess]

number 8 "i'm really disappointed in you"

fight the light

established buck x eddie || rated: g || wc: 586 || read on ao3

“Alexa, turn off the lights.”

“Buck, I’m still reading,” Eddie protested. “Alexa, turn on the lights.”

Buck groaned, rolling over to face Eddie. “Baby, it is well past midnight and we both have to get up early. We’re old, Eds— the days of staying up late and waking up early are over. Alexa, turn off the lights.”

The lights flickered off again and Eddie huffed. He put his book on the nightstand and moves around until he’s lying on his side, getting comfortable. He keeps his back to Buck, a childish pout on his lips.

“Babe, come on,” Buck groaned, reaching for Eddie and pulling him flush against his front, wrapping an arm around his stomach. “Don’t be mad.”

“The book was getting good! I only wanted to read one more chapter.” Despite his pouting, Eddie still snuggled back against Buck, unable to pass up nighttime cuddles.

“I’m sorry, baby,” Buck pressed a kiss to Eddie’s shoulder, pulling him closer. “I’ll make it up to you tomorrow.”

“You better,” Eddie grumbled. “You’re driving us to work.”

“I always drive us to work.”

“Okay, well then you’re getting me Starbucks on the way to work.”

“Deal.”

A few nights later Eddie was sitting in bed, reading, when Buck walked in from brushing his teeth and groaned.

“Eddie, it’s so late. Why do you like to read when we should be sleeping?” Buck whined, flopping down on the bed beside Eddie.

“I’m at a really good part, Buck! Just give me ten minutes.”

Buck huffed. “Alexa, turn off the lights.”

Confusion spread across Buck’s face when nothing happened. He tried again, “Alexa, turn off the lights.” Still, nothing happened. “Babe,” Buck turned towards Eddie. “Did you unplug our Alexa?”

“No,” Eddie replied serenely, flipping to the next page. “I changed the language to Spanish.”

Buck’s mouth dropped open. “Are you kidding me?”

“Nope,” Eddie said, popping the p. “Let me read for ten minutes and I’ll turn them off.”

Buck shook his head. “I’m really disappointed in you.”

Eddie smirked. “You should be impressed with me, sweetheart.” He flipped to the next page. “You’re just jealous that I outsmarted you.”

“Outsmarted me my ass,” Buck grumbled, grabbing his phone. “I’ll just use google translate.”

“You are so annoying,” Eddie groaned fondly, swiping Buck’s phone out of his hands and shoving it into his nightstand. “Ten minutes, baby. Just give me ten minutes.”

“Ugh, fine,” Buck threw up his hands. “But I want my phone back and I want a kiss.”

“Deal,” Eddie took Buck’s phone out of the nightstand and passed it to him. Then he cupped Buck’s jaw and pressed a lingering kiss to his lips. When he pulled away, Buck was still pouting so Eddie gave him another quick peck. “Ten minutes.”

Buck sighed, plugged in his phone, making sure that his alarm was set and then curled up next to Eddie, burying his face in his chest. Eddie wrapped around him so he could hold Buck against him while he read.

Even with the lights on Buck found himself drifting off to sleep, Eddie’s warmth bleeding into him. Some amount of time later, Buck couldn’t tell you how long it had been, Buck felt more than heard Eddie speak, the sound rumbling under his ear. Seconds later, the lights flicked off and Eddie moved so he was lying down and Buck was sprawled on his chest. He carded his fingers through Buck’s hair and Buck finally felt himself be lulled into a peaceful sleep.

[honestlydarkprincess]

Fuck It Friday!

tagged by my lovelies @heartbeatdiaz, @prince-buck-diaz 💕

i had such a time figuring out a snippet to share but here have some from the self indulgent fic i wrote for day 31 free day !! the boys are being soft (after being fuckin' filthy)

Eddie looked at Buck for a moment, before saying softly, “I was kind of hoping that yeah, we could tell them. I don’t want us to be a secret anymore, Buck.”

Buck relaxed. “Oh thank god. Keeping a secret is so hard— do you know how many times I’ve almost told Maddie? I’m worse than Chimney. Although, he actually did a pretty good job at keeping the Daniel secret, I really have to give it to him— what?” Buck stopped his rambling at the look Eddie was giving him.

“Nothing,” Eddie grinned. “I just really love you, that’s all.”

“Oh,” Buck blushed. “I love you too.”

“Great! Now let’s go tell everyone that we’re together. Do you think when Bobby finds out he’ll sit me down and ask me what my intentions with his son are?” Eddie asked as he walked into the bathroom to start the shower.

Buck let out a laugh. “Bobby isn’t the one you have to worry about, if Athena asks to talk to you, then you should be worried.”

“There’s gotta be someone who will give you the shovel talk on my behalf,” Eddie mused. He smiled when Buck came up behind him, wrapping his arms around him. “I’d say Chris but he’s over the moon that we’re dating and he likes you better anyway— shit, my own son is going to give me the shovel talk about you, I just know it. Stop laughing!”

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[honestlydarkprincess]

Fuck It Friday!

tagged by so many lovelies @giddyupbuck, @devirnis, @buddierights, @jeeyuns, @wikiangela, @spotsandsocks, @forthewolves, @bucks118, @hippolotamus, @disasterbuckdiaz

im still taking a little break from kinktober, the smut beans just haven't returned to me but have a lil more of the drunk pining fic!

Buck rested his cheek on his palm and asked, “Do you think Eddie would ever want to be my boyfriend?”

“Uh, Buck—” Lucy started, looking at something off to the side of him. Buck paid her no mind though.

“I just think we could be good together, y’know?” Buck said, waving off Natalia when she tried to get his attention. “I like him so much and I wish I could kiss him.”

“Buck, he’s—” Lucy tried again but Buck wasn’t looking at her, he was staring into his water glass like it held the answers to all his problems.

“I’m probably never going to tell him that I want him, but I wish I could.” Buck sighed, running his finger through the condensation on his glass. “I’d be such a good boyfriend, I think I could make him happy.”

“Buck.”

This time Buck did listen, turning his head to the side and finally taking note of Eddie.

“Eddie,” Buck breathed, a happy smile on his lips. “You got here so fast.”

“It’s been over twenty minutes, Buck,” Eddie replied, amused. “You ready to go?”

“Yeah!” Buck stumbled out of the booth, seemingly unaware that he had just blabbered on about his crush to his crush. His short term memory sucked when he drank. He turned his attention to Lucy and Natalia. “Are you guys going to be okay?”

“We’ll be fine,” Natalia answered, sharing a knowing look with Lucy.

tagging: @bigfootsmom, @lovebuck, @housewifebuck, @911onabc, @monsterrae1, @loserdiaz, @oliverstaark, @folk-fae, @atomicmonsters, @stagefoureddiediaz, @moonlightbuckleys, @transbuck, @userdisaster, @princessfbi, @lover-of-mine, @cowboydiazes, @cowboy-buddie, and @diazblunt

[honestlydarkprincess]

raw denial

buck x eddie || rated: e || wc: 4.5k

The key turned in the door and then Eddie was unlocking the door and shoving his way into Buck’s apartment. Buck let out a sigh of relief, like he always did when he saw Eddie and knew that he was alive and well, and grabbed the second beer, holding it out to Eddie.

“Thanks,” Eddie said, tossing his keys onto the counter as he took a sip. He glanced at Buck’s shirt and then promptly choked on the beer in his mouth.

“Are you okay?” Buck asked, panicked. He set his beer down and reached for Eddie but Eddie just waved him off.

“I’m okay, I’m okay,” He rasped, his voice hoarse. “Where did you get that shirt?”

Or, the one where Buck wears a shirt with a specific meaning and Eddie kind of spirals about it.

read on ao3

[honestlydarkprincess]

Sentences Sunday!

tagged by the ever lovely @theotherbuckley, @daffi-990, @wikiangela, @buckaroosheart, @spotsandsocks

last seven sentence sunday of the year! have some more of the backwards cap sequel :3

Eddie smirked as he rose from his knees. He cupped the back of Buck’s neck and hauled him in for a messy kiss, shoving his tongue in Buck’s mouth and letting him taste himself on Eddie’s tongue. Buck whimpered into the kiss, pressing forward and bringing Eddie closer with his hands tangled in the shirt Eddie was wearing. In the back of his mind Buck imagined they must make a picture right now, him almost fully naked pressed against his apartment door while Eddie was still fully clothed. Not to mention the hat. The fucking hat. Buck couldn’t explain it but seeing Eddie not only in a backwards cap but in his cap was doing something to him.

Abruptly Eddie pulled away from the kiss. “C’mon. Get upstairs.”

“Wha—” Buck was off kilter, his brain fuzzy.

“Let’s go, pretty boy,” Eddie helped Buck as he stumbled out of his pants, still pooled at his feet. Finally free, Buck rushed up the stairs, grinning wildly as he heard Eddie following close behind him.

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[honestlydarkprincess]

WIP Wednesday!

tagged by the lovely @giddyupbuck, @ravens-words, @disasterbuckdiaz, @devirnis, @wildlife4life, @alyxmastershipper, @911onabc !!

since you guys seemed interested in the crane fic, here have some more! maybe it'll motivate me to work on it again, i might try and get it done for angst in autumn

Eddie was pulled out of his thoughts as a nurse walked into his room.

“Oh, good! You’re awake!” She said brightly, coming up beside his bed to check on his vitals. “You’ve got some very eager people waiting to hear how you’re doing.”

“Buck,” Eddie rasped out, turning his head with only slight difficulty to the nurse. “Christopher.”

“We’ll notify your captain that you’re awake, I’m sure he’ll get Christopher for you,” the nurse said gently, scribbling something down on his chart.

Eddie was confused. “Cap’s not…Buck’s my ‘mergency contact,” Eddie slurred, trying to force himself to focus on the nurse. The pain in his shoulder was throbbing now as he became more aware of his surroundings.

The nurse gave him a soft, pitying look. Obviously she knew something that Eddie didn’t. “I’ll go call your captain, Mr. Diaz.”

Eddie watched her retreat from his room, making her way to the nurses station. What was he missing? Had something happened? He tried to think back to what the last thing was that he remembered.

He remembered the pain, the blood, the way the cement below him stained red as he laid there in the middle of the street, bleeding out. He remembered reaching out to Buck, making eye contact with him under the firetruck. Eddie kept his eyes on Buck. If this was going to be his last day and he couldn’t see Christopher, he wanted the last thing he saw to be Buck. His eyes had fluttered shut as more shots rang out, he could hear yelling, frantic words being screamed as everyone reacted to the chaos around them. He couldn’t make sense of any of it, all he could think about was the fact that he wished he had given Christopher an extra long hug this morning. He wished that he had told Buck how he felt.

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