#john engels

[llovelymoonn]

musings on rot

charles bukowski pulp \\ yves olade belovéd (via @raeiyyn) \\ john engels weather-fear: new and selected poems: "damp rot" \\ kay ryan tenderness and rot \\ eileen myles school of fish: "rotting symbols"

kofi

[gottahavesoul]

Chet Baker - Almost Blue (Chet Baker in Tokyo, 1987)

Chet Baker - Trumpet, Vocals Harold Danko - Piano Hein Van Der Geyn - Bass John Engels - Drums

[cutiewithawakenedheart]

"I've decided

the gardner's duty

is to wildness."

----John Engels

[cutiewithawakenedheart]

"Blinded to the usual ways of things,

I thought the

trees were singing."

----John Engels

[bluesandbarebones]

The ultimate life of the poem lies here, in its organization of life according to the necessities of our conscious being. The life of the poem arises from our various and perpetual struggles to maintain form against the apparent formlessness of the natural plenitudes, which we so easily allow to confound, even render inoperative, that which is whole, harmonious and intelligible—to assume, absorb, subsume.

John Engels

[besly1]

i know im not the person im supposed to be right now

and i hate it

rambles + character info beneath the cut

john engles man that you are... sigh

meet John Engles/Engels! (the spelling changes with the wind do NOT question it) he is a friend's oc and i would tag them if they gave me their tumblr handle, but unfortunately they dont wanna. tragedy.

he is a big blond himbo with a violent, masochistic, adrenaline-chasing streak, and i fucking love him. exactly the type of guy i wouldve made but someone else made him first and im obsessed. 6'6" gay freak with ADHD and religious homophobic parents my beloved

will i post dedicated artwork of his boyfriend/best friend/guy he used to bully but john was literally too stupid to realize and now they're in a homosexually tension filled Situation™️? idk. one day. when i get around to it. donny is my son but also i hate him and i have yet to do a Big Important Art with him that isn't just him making out sloppy style w john

[besly1]

sun, moon

'i've only had john and donny for one session, but if anything happened to them, i would kill everyone in this room and then myself'

HOOBOY. i'm not gonna lie, i have been obsessed with this pair for a while ('a while' being three days) they have everything i love in a ship: they're character parallels, they have a complicated history, and there's just a whole bunch of weird, complex feelings knotted into their relationship. they're wretched things, and i adore them.

the blondie on the left is john engles, and belongs to another player in my group

the sad sop on the right is gordon 'donny' schitz, and he is my son

also, first time posting ocs to tumblr! i might post more, i might not, but i just wanted to share these two because i hate them (affectionate)

[skrimshaw]

Damp Rot, John Engels