"They will not lose what I have lost"

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"They will not lose what I have lost"
Remember how in 2013 robbie thompson wrote dean saying I love you to cas and jensen ackles was like ? no. he would not fucking say that but then proceeded to make dean be like 10x gayer in the version they did film
And then 9 years later the same robbie thompson and jensen ackles executive produced an episode in the prequel they developed that repeated thee same speech almost line for line but this time with mary and john instead of dean and cas
And then the next episode involved mary and john getting trapped in a room and they were both gonna die and this was the absolute last chance they have to confess their feelings for each other so they smooched, directed by richard speight jr who very coincidentally directed a rather similar scene like a year and a half earlier but with dean and cas
which could mean nothing
i love how it is canon that sam is a clean girl just like his mother and dean is a dirty boy just like his father.
like mother, like daughter
the fact it’s canon that dean and john were stalking sam at stanford….they’re such pathetic, obsessive creeps
and then if you remember john mentioning (in his journal) how much sam reminds him of mary….no wonder sam’s absence made him so angry & hurt (“your brother and me, we needed you!”)
supernatural omegaverse or omeganatural —lmao—, tiktok content that i decided to upload here because i upload everything i do everywhere.
angels and demons are genderless; they adapt to that of their vessel. Betas still have a fragrance, but it is light and subtle, barely perceptible, and more for recognition
i like that the smells of the next generation are a mix or derived from their parents (but it's just a personal taste, and probably not the norm)
dora's voice: there's something suspicious here, can you find it?
No, John. We're not having this conversation again. There's nothing more to talk about.
aka rewatched 5x16 and had incoherent thoughts on johnandmarywinchester vs. mary campbell vs. the dead wife narrative for three hours straight and then decided to make a not-edit about it
This frame…. This fucking frame…. This is it, this is the Supernatural scene ever…. Supernatural thesis statement, incest thesis statement. The way this ties back to everything. The way every single foundational character is present here, if not physically then in essence. The way this scene is what shaped the Winchesters’ lives, the ultimate act of incest that tainted their blood, that doomed them all, Mary to her death, Sam to his birth, ruining the Winchester family, ruining their blood.
The way this scene happened because Dean saved a girl and brought Azazel’s attention to Mary, dooming her and their family. How this is how it’s always been, the Winchesters saving others and dooming themselves. Mary saves John and dooms herself, but she dooms John too, and startsnthe cycle of making deals to save the one you love, not accepting death as the end (S5 ending, despite its tragedy, breaks that cycle; S15 enforces it)
And just… look at this scene. Azazel possessing the body of Mary’s father just like he will (has? This episode’s use of cyclical time mirrors the cycle the Winchesters are stuck in, the cycle that begins here….) possess John. John himself, dead but present, oblivious yet complicit; this scene is about him, about who he will become, because Azazel is Samuel but also Azazel is Samuel is John. Already his relationship with Mary juxtaposes the one with her father, marriage as a power fantasy, marriage as an escape, John as the vehicle which will take her away, that will save her from the fate of having children who grow up in this life (this is the episode he buys the Impala, the Winchesters’ true home).
Samuel is Azazel is John; This is an act of sexual intercourse and conception, the conception of Sam, the ultimate symbol of incest. Azazel came looking for children to make his, the kiss with Mary is the solidification of Sam as his son, the familial taking physical form of Samuel’s body against the sexual intent and language of Azazel, the familial and the sexual in coexistence (the way Mary will name him Samuel after the father who she kissed). But this is also an act of murder, Mary’s murder (their family’s murder). Sam’s (re)birth is Mary’s death. This sexually charged act with incestuous overtones is the direct cause of another; that of Azazel bleeding into Sam’s mouth, feeding him his fluid, tainting Sam’s blood with his own. The way Mary mistakes Azazel for John and JDM plays Azazel in the Pilot.
The fact that this entire scene is in Dean’s eyes. Dean as a witness, Dean as a voyeur.