If only I could come back
As kids, we were always looking forward to being older. There were many things we wished we could do. We always try to do the things that should be for adults. We often heard to our parents mention, “You can do that when you’re older” or “That’s for adults only”. We were eager to grow up. Maybe a little to eager. We always think that when we grow up, we are able to do the things that we want and we have the mindset that we will be free. Now, that time is now. This is what we have been waiting for. We have grown up. The only wish I could do is to be a little again. Myself for now is full of realizations. I just want to sleep and hoping that tomorrow I can be that child again I used to be before but joking aside it’s very impossible. You can never go back. You just need to face the reality. There’s a reason everyone around us told us to not grow too fast. We did not listen to them and we could not try to understand what they wanted to convey to us. Our age was as little as the knowledge we had of what it meant to grow up. We wanted to grow up so we could do what adults can do. Why would we not want to grow up? There was so much to look forward to. As a child, we are exposed to the idea of love. We are exposed to freedom and the idea of achieving our dreams. What we were not exposed to was what it took to achieve all that. No one told us of the heartbreak and the rejection. No one told us that not everyone in the world is going to care and love you as much as you love them. Sometimes, efforts will not be returned, and some efforts will go unnoticed. No one told us how harsh the world can be. No one mentioned that with the good, comes the bad. Certainly, they failed to tell us that we will fall and stumble many times along. As we are continue growing up, we have many questions that formed in our mind. We are having difficulty in finding who we are and what defines us. Now, that I have grown up, I have an understanding about reality. Reality is, we live in a world where we have to survive. The feelings of warmth and comfort we experienced as kids does not come around as often. However, it becomes something to cherish when it does come around. As children, we did not realize how small our problems were. We no longer focus on what’s tangible. We focus on how we feel and the way we make others feel. That’s what growing up is. I miss being a kid, we don’t have things that we need to think. You just need to play and enjoy. I really miss that. We all know that we can do nothing and we will no longer change the events in our lives. We just need to accept it. In my realizations, I realized that I did not need to go back to my childhood because that would never really happen. All I had to do was create ways for me to deal with reality. You should not be stock in the things you want to go back instead make a plan and goals on how you can achieve them. That was my experienced but honestly, I want to be a kid again. No pain and no stress. As I said, let’s face the reality. Keeping your dreams alive in the face of reality.
