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Trying to sleep peacefully before remembering Jules Bashir died in that hospital because you couldn’t live with the shame of having a son who didn’t measure up

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I'm working on a self indulgent fanfiction where Julian and Garak both get a chance to meet each other on the eve of the symbolic death of their innocence/childhood. For Garak, I chose the day before his emergence (ASIT thing lol- but like the day before he goes to spy school). For Julian, it’s that first night on Adigeon Prime. I just thrash and scream when I think about how Jules was excited at first, and the idea has slowly spiraled out from that point…

I picture the two of them having been together for years, but they never have officially recognized their relationship in a Cardassian or Human fashion. When Garak retires, he proposes. In their vows, they don’t promise to remain through sickness and health. There is no point vowing to something they have already proven. They instead promise to love the parts that no one else ever cared to.

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Why are we not talking more about how "Kukalaka" is an autistic stim word?

From my understanding the name has no real meaning outside of what Julian gave it as a child, so it makes sense if the word was just something Jules found appealing to say and used it to name his new little teddy bear. It does roll off the tongue and it is definitely fun to say.

Kukalaka... Kuka– Kukalaka!

#this actually comes from me using as a stim word sooo #kukalaka #julian bashir #jules bashir #bashir #star trek #ds9 #deep space nine #star trek deep space nine #autism #autistic adult #autistic Julian bashir

do you ever wonder how julian must have felt in time's orphan

like, watching miles and keiko wholeheartedly love and support their unexpectedly "not normal" daughter

in the way

that jules never got

#julian bashir #jules bashir #if i wasn't so tired i'd have more thoughts but #miles o'brien #keiko o'brien #ds9 time's orphan #my trek musings #wsb

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly.#fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!!#julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!!#i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu)#like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment.#and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

The newest chapter for my Jules-Verse is online :D

its longer than the others. Just a warning.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/42644013/chapters/107830581

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Here is some art for my fanfiction.

It’s called Jules - a soft mirror verse.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/42644013/chapters/107118765

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