#jun x reader au

[siyalogue]

MOON JUNHUI

Series : To all the boys

Pairing : Moon Junhui x reader

Type : non idol au, ex-couple au

Genre : angst, drama, fluff, romance

Warnings : cheating

Word count : 2k approx

Synopsis : You decided to write some letters to every boy who was a part of your past as your last message after getting diagnosed with chronical disease.

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You couldn't be in contact with Jun for a long period of time now and you were starting to get used to his absence rather than missing the hell out of him.

You have had talks with Seokmin when he bumped into you few times and you were glad to hear he was finally going out with someone instead of being stuck up on you, you learned her name was Seuji and you were very happy for him feeling a weight was lift off your shoulders.

"I've been talking with a guy from other school."

You casually mumbled scrolling through your Instagram not paying much attention to it.

"You're talking with a guy? What's his name?"

"Yoon Jeonghan."

It was Seokmin who had asked you that question and he was accompanied by Zeny and Dani, all of you sitting on one of the benches which were located at the garden of your university.

"You mean to say Yoon Jeonghan from Hanlim school? As in the one who went to the same coaching class as us?"

The other three were more attentive and interested in your life than you were at this point cause you just nodded your head with a little hum, you weren't even talking with the said guy with much interest but you had been continously talking with him so you thought might as well inform them.

The only people who were currently aware of you being in a relationship with Jun was only Zeny and Andie but Andie was admitted to another University and you asked Zeny to shut her mouth up since you weren't sure about your relationship yourself.

You didn't even spend much time with Jun before he left, both of you did try your best, him being the one to reach out to you more and you didn't quite get the chance to properly be with him as a couple.

But getting used to the university life was sure tiring and most of the nights one of you would just crash down on the bed and sleep not having enough will in the body to stay up and talk with each other.

You knew Jun was trying his best but he was living with his family and being with the family had its own ristrictions as compared to when he was in Korea, living alone in his apartment.

This was the exact reason why you didn't fancy the idea of long distance relationship, you had never been to one before but you had hated it'd idea ever since you were aware of it.

"Why are you talking with him out of all the people?"

You looked at Seokmin raising your eyebrows, you knew he was getting jealous of you talking with someone else but he can't tell you what to do.

"Why? You got some problem with him? Is he that bad? I'm just talking, it's nothing serious."

"He told me the other day that you said you like him but I didn't believe and now you're telling me that you guys are talking."

"I didn't say I like him, I said I like him as in person, it isn't my fault he's so full of himself, don't worry and focus on your own life."

"Just be careful with him y/n."

"Sure, I'm going to meet him after few weeks when he'll be back from his hometown though."

You got up from your spot, packing your stuff and going off towards your next class. Your mind was clouded with Jun but you weren't sure what to do with him and you had a date with Jeonghan too, hanging out with new people instant supposed to be a crime when you're in relationships right?

"Jun come on pick up the phone."

Your heart beat was irregular as you anxiously dialed his number one after the other but he wasn't picking up.

You had met with Jeonghan today and you didn't expect it to turn out like it did. Now that you were back from it, you suddenly remembered about Jun which you had completely forgotten since the last few weeks.

Your breath hitched as you looked at the time, you knew Jun must have return from his college since it was late at night but you weren't sure why he wasn't picking up your calls and you needed to talk with him.

You groaned when he didn't pick up your call for 8th time deciding to just write him a message instead since you were getting drained due to nervousness and as the time passed, you were overthinking about how he would react.

You took a deep breath thinking about how you were going to start, you didn't expect yourself to lose control over your conscious state so easily.

To Jun : Hey, how have you been? I am sorry I couldn't contact you from past few weeks and you were too busy too, I tried calling you so many times because I wanted to talk to you about something but you weren't picking up so this is the only way I could get done with this and not feel anxious. Jun, I'm sorry, I know you would be confused as to why I am apologizing but I'm really really sorry, I'm crying as I write this I'm sorry I betrayed you. I never thought I would get attached with Jeonghan, I didn't think too much while I hungout with him, I genuinely saw him as a friend Jun, but he was so sweet to me and we kind of clicked, I was missing hanging out with you and he was there to fill your spot that I couldn't push him away, your thoughts were completely blocked by the thoughts of him, I forgot about you, I'm so sorry.

You took a deep breath to steady yourself as you wiped out your tears before hitting the sent button, he wasn't even delivered, he wasn't even online. You took the phone again typing another message.

To Jun : I don't think I can continue our relationship with the guilt I'm carring and you deserve better, I'm sorry I betrayed you like that I wasn't in my right mind I'm so sorry. I don't expect you to forgive me but don't blame yourself please, you're my best friend and this just isn't right. I shouldn't have broke your trust like that but whenever I am with Jeonghan I can't think of anything else other than him please don't be angry I really want to apologise for the damaged that I caused but this relationship just wouldn't work, I can't do this, I can't handle long distance relationship well I'm sorry.

You hit the sent button, getting away from the phone and started doing the house chores to keep yourself busy till the time he replied but he didn't.

You finished the chores later and went towards your phone to see if anything was sent but it wasn't which disappointed you as well as made you more anxious, what was in that mind of his.

You went inside the shower to relax your muscles and got dressed and did your night routine before plopping on your bed and tucking yourself inside the blanket.

You got you phone to see just a single message notification, your heart beat increasing as you unlocked the phone.

To y/n : Have you lost your mind? Are you aware what you're trying to say? How can you do this to me? I thought you loved me y/n this isn't a joke. I am studying and working my ass off here just for me to come home to see this? Do you realize how happy I was seeing all those calls and messages from you thinking you just missed me that much only to find out what? That you cheated on me? Is that what you're trying to say? I loved you, I love you so damn much and you did this? You had the nerve to even message me about it y/n, do you realizes you have tore me apart. I don't even know how to behave how dare you? I'm so angry, I did so many things for you, I didn't care about my own reputation just to gain your love and you let it go to waste? Don't you dare contact me after this y/n it's over between us, how will I trust someone else after what you did to me? I'm blocking you, I don't even want to see your face cause I myself don't know if I would be able to control my anger if I did, I hope that you atleast don't cheat him. I hate you y/n I hope you realize what you lost and what you did. Don't contact me or show me your face ever again I'm blocking you.

Your eyes with in tears once again as you read his message again and again, you knew he had blocked you and he was so damn angry. He should be, you deserved his anger.

[siyalogue]

MOON JUNHUI

Series : To all the boys

Pairing : Moon Junhui x reader

Type : non idol au, ex-couple au

Genre : angst, drama, fluff, romance

Warnings : none

Word count : 1k approx

Synopsis : You decided to write some letters to every boy who was a part of your past as your last message after getting diagnosed with chronical disease.

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You were chilling on Jun's house, you leaning on the headboard with him beside you when you heard him speak.

"I heard you broke up with Seokmin, Wonwoo was the happiest to hear about it."

Jun had his head buried at the crook of your neck, arms wrapped around your form as you scrolled through your Instagram and talk with him.

"Yeah, I broke up with him and yeah, I don't care about how Wonwoo feels."

Jun grinned to himself sitting up straight, he moved your sideways so you were facing him as he stretched both of his legs on either side of your body and moved closer to rest his head on your shoulder as he talked.

"Leave the mobile when you're with me, sweetheart."

He grabbed your mobile and put it beside his phone on his nightstand, his right hand holding yours as he interlaced the fingers, his other hand playing with the strands of your hair.

"Why are you always so needy for the attention?"

You rolled your eyes even though he couldn't see as you stopped his hands from playing with your hair and put it on your lap playing with his fingers.

"I'm not needy for attention, I'm needy for your attention, miss."

The emphasis on the certain pronoun didn't go unnoticed by you as your eyes were fixate on your hand playing with the ring on his fingers.

"It has been like 4 months since I did so, we are in the same university but due to our different majors both of ours building is like, on the opposite side of the campus."

You heard him hum at the information, he momentarily pull away from your shoulder to remove the hair from your neck and once again comfortably placing his head back.

"It's better that way, he'll be away from you, I heard that he's going out with someone from the hanlim, I've my friends in there."

"You sure know many things about people and please stop moving so much you're making my neck itchy."

He readjusted himself scoffing at you before pulling his head up and sitting in front of you properly.

"I just wanted to lean on you, you've problem with that too."

You glare at him rolling your eyes after that. Your eyes scanned his room to see many of his belongings which he brings to school adorning his desk and nightstand.

"Where are the love letters you gave to me which I returned back to you?"

He raised his eyebrows since he completely forgot about them until now, he didn't even think you would talk about him after what had happened before you returned them to him.

"Why are you suddenly asking about them? Want them back?"

"I just.....no actually I was just curious about what you did with them."

"I burned them."

He could clearly see the hurt and disappointment on your face after he said those words but he just decided to ignore it by bringing his hand upto your face to caress it and leave tiny fluttery kisses at the side of your face.

"Why would you burn them?"

You close your eyes at the tingling sensation of his kisses, the hand playing with his ring grasping his fingers tightly to which he held your hand properly and the other holding the hem of his tshirt just as much firmly.

"You said you don't want them, I gave them to you cause I wanted you to keep them."

You pushed him away from you so you could look at him properly, your hand on his chest as both of you calmed your breathes.

"I didn't return it so you could burn them, you realize how much effort you had put in them?"

"Shouldn't I be the one saying that to you?"

"Junnie, you knew I couldn't accept those letters, not when I was committed to someone else."

Jun scoffed as he ran his fingers through his hair to calm himself down, how many times he had to explain same thing to you?

"I told you then that I don't care if you are with Seokmin, I wanted to show you my love, I don't want to be that person who loses his chance just because you are with someone else, I know I could make you feel more safer than you've ever felt with Seokmin anyway."

"That's wrong-"

"My feelings aren't wrong."

You shut your mouth when he raised his voice cutting you off.

Jun was demanding, he wasn't a giver like Seokmin was, instead Jun was someone who would give world to someone but expect something or anything in return, it didn't matter to him what, he just needed something in return.

Jun is territorial, if he likes something he makes sure to get it even if he'd have to go against everything for that and he was just the same when it came to you.

He knew you were dating Seokmin when he confessed, he knew there were lots of ups and down in your seemingly perfect relationship because of him, he knew he was ticking the ever so soft and composed Seokmin off and he wanted just that and he knew that you were aware of his doing.

You were aware what Jun was planning and you neither stopped nor encouraged him just focused on your relationship.

You knew he was waiting for your outburst of when you will break off with Seokmin and come to him to vent out his anger and he would be there for you, like a shoulder to lean on.

Instead you yourself went ahead and asked Seokmin to take you back when he had enough and broke off the ties, for you to decided whom you wanted to be with, you chose Seokmin.

So Jun decided to be shameless and interrupt everytime both of you would be together. If you weren't ready to reciprocate his feelings, he wasn't going to stop showing his concern and care for you.

He genuinely wanted to be by your side and he didn't care what others perceive him as.

He knew everyone taunted you or still talking with Jun even after he confessed but he also knew you weren't someone who would break ties yourself unless the person in question did.

All in all, Jun knew what he was getting himself into and he was so whipped for you, he didn't even realize when he did.

All he knew was you were Andie's best friend who hand once accompanied her to return his book on the way to his home, a little introduction done by Andie.

A curt smile was shared and you were off with her towards the other direction but he just couldn't get the sight of you off his mind and he knew he had to have you.

He had planned everything he would do, from the first official talk, to befriending you, to telling you he has a crush on one of your friends, to making you jealous and to finally confess that you were the person he was aiming for since the beginning.

But his planned halted, when obstacles arose. The first one being in his literal first step, his first official talk, he was going on as planned till the time he realized you had a boyfriend and that too one of his close friend / classmate Seokmin.

After that there were hurdles in literally every step he planned.

He wasn't aware you were so hard to please, he wasn't aware that even after being close friends for months you would happily congratulate him for having feelings for Jane, he didn't know you wouldn't even get jealous of your friend and he definitely didn't know you would just curtly smile at him and tell him no.

But all of that things just made him want you more, he did so many things to at least have a firm place in your life and he knew he needed just that, you were close to him, you even called him your male best friend, someone whom you could lean on other than the girls.

And he proved he deserves being that close to you time and again.

"Look into my eyes."

His tone was softer now, his hands leaving yours and cradling your face to make you look at him.

"I love you stupid, what language do I have to use for you to understand?"

You looked into his eyes, your hand grabbing his wrist and he spoke.

"When's your flight to China?"

"Maybe a week."

You nodded removing his hands from your face and lay back on his bed looking at the ceiling, he followed suit putting a hand under your head and buried his face on your neck, his other arm encircling your torso and his leg entangling with yours.

You didn't know why he had choose to complete his university back at his hometown, he didn't even had any financial or parental crises.

You knew you were going to miss out on him big time and you weren't ready to let him go just yet. You were going out, you just hungout as much as you could, he made sure of that.

You hated going away from him since he had a habit of being glued to you ever since he first talked with you, you aren't a big fan of long distance, you figured it would be hard for him too so you didn't voice your feelings to him.

"Who's stealing your attention from me?"

Jun look up to you, his eyes narrowed making you roll your eyes. You had been rolling your eyes too much since you've started hanging out with him, your eyes were paining at this point.

"You're the one who stole my attention though, I was thinking about you."

He raised his eyebrows at you his hand sneaking under your shirt as he laid back down, playing with your bare skin. You let him do whatever he wanted, it wasn't like he would be there to do anything with you after a week anyway.

"Date me."

He causally said as he drew irregular pattern on your skin, you closed your eyes turning on your side to face him, his hand making his way towards your back to pull you more closer to him.

You removed few strands of hair from his forehead before you placed a chaste kiss on it and tucked his head back on your shoulder, hugging him tightly.

"You know I don't like long distance relationship Junnie."

He sighed making your breath hitch as you felt his breath hit on your skin, he kissed your neck as his fingers digged on your skin, you sighed in content before your fingers found his hair and you pulled his hairs to pull his face away from your neck.

He groaned sitting up and you followed, he grabbed and pull his hair to calm himself down before he turned back to you.

"We'll work this out."

"I'm not sure, I don't think I'll be able to stay without your company, atleast things would be easier for us if we don't date."

"That's nonsense sweetheart, I love you, we'll get through this, I'll be back in no time, just take the risk."

He grabbed your hand with both of his as he looked at you pleadingly, you deeply exhaled thinking for few minutes before finally nodding in his direction.

"Lets see how this ends."