What are we? - Chapter 5: Date
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I moved to the room beside the practice room to hand in a couple files that the manager asked me to forward.
"there you are!" Hanbin ran up to me and took his beanie off only to tug it way too hard onto my own head. He kept hold of it, and pushed it down as far as it could go, forcing me to lose my eyesight and any possibility of breathing through my nose.
"yah! hanbin! can you ever be serious!" i yelled as i tried to rip the hat off my head
His hands finally let go of the hat, letting me push it above my eyes to see him grinning at his accomplishment.
I still hadnt told anyone about what happened that day at the cafe with Junhoe, i was trying to avoid the topic at all cost and it seemed like Junhoe wasn't bringing it up either.
"lets go out for lunch" Hanbin said as he grabbed his hat back from me and placed it on his head.
I was about to reply but then we both turned around to the sound of the door open behind us.
"jen! are you ready to leave?" Junhoe was at the door, holding onto my jacket. Ready for what?
Hanbin had stopped talking now and was facing Junhoe with a confused expression, similar to mine.
Junhoe had his jacket on and was waiting for me to take mine. oh shit. i just remembered..... we were supposed to have our "date" today.....i had to find a way hide this from Hanbin.
"OHHHH yea im ready" i quickly ran towards Junhoe and took my jacket from him. Hanbin, now confused as ever, asked us where we were going
I wished Junhoe wouldnt answer but something between the two of them seemed a bit off. And lately i realized they really liked to get on each other's nerves. So ofcourse it would be too good to be true for him not to mention what we were doing.
"a date?!?!" Hanbin seemed surprised as he looked my way to see if i had anything to do with this or if i agreed.
"so like you...you guys are like a thing?" he questioned as he pointed back and forth between us
I felt my cheeks turn red as his words left his mouth "what! ahahah no! im just hanging out with--" i was cut off my Junhoe
"yea kind of, im taking her out, that must mean something" Junhoe's voice was so strict now
Hanbin scratched the back of his head and then put his hands in his pocket "well..... alright i guess.... have fun"
was that all he had to say?? really? i expected more from him.... idk at least make fun of me hanbin
Without saying another word, he walked passed us without looking my way and left the room
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We decided to make our "date" low profile and ended up just going for a walk in a local park. The weather was much nicer today, not too cold and nice enough to enjoy the beautiful nature around us.
Junhoe and i walked side-by-side without saying much to begin with. He had bought us some cotton candy so we'd have something to munch on as we walked.
As usual the awkward silence was killing me, so i decided to do something about it
"oh look at that little baby chipmunk!!!" i pointed at the little guy as we walked closer to it.
"dont touch it Jen!" Junhoe warned as he laughed at my inability to stay calm.
"Junhoe, it's so cute!!!! i wanna keep it!" i whined as the chipmunk ran further and further away from me.
He laughed at my attempt to catch it, "here hold on" Junhoe took some bread from a couple who were feeding squirrels and geese, and came back to where he asked me to patiently wait. He then knelt down and reached his arm out with the bread in his hand to where the chipmunk was hiding.
I knelt down beside him and watched patiently as the chipmunk slowly made it's way to the food.
"omg Junhoe... it's right beside you" i pointed out as the chipmunk took the food out of his hand
"do you wanna try?" he motioned towards me as his eyes stayed focus on the animal
i nodded my head as he took my hand and placed some bread crumbs on it. He held onto me so that he could direct my hand close enough for the animal to come take the food. "yea just like that. dont flinch or else he'll run away" Junhoe whispered as the chipmunk started to feed off my hand
Once we ran out of bread the little animal ditched us and we decided to move on with our walk.
Junhoe's eyes were focused on a couple walking ahead of us. He seemed to be staring at their linked hands and it made me laugh.
"omg dont tell me the "tough cold Junhoe" is into that kind of stuff?" i nudged him as he kept looking their way
"idk...never done it before so i cant really say" He seemed embarrassed by my laughter and dug his face inside the thick scarf wrapped around his neck.
"why dont we give it a try uh? instead of you just laughing at me?" he held out his hand in front of me, patiently waiting for me to grab hold of it.
My ears started burning, i guess holding hands was something people do on dates uh? But i felt so awkward about it, especially since i really didnt know how i felt about this whole dating thing either.
Junhoe noticed my hesitation and decided to take his own actions toward the situation. He slowly moved his arm to his side so it rubbed against mine. He then moved his fingers around my hand until our palms touched one anothers. Slowly, he intertwined our fingers together and locked hands.
I resisted at first but relaxed once his hands were around mine. In all honestly, it felt nice to hold his hand, they were warm and the weather outside was cold.
I looked up to Junhoe's face and noticed his cheeks had turned the colour of cherries. He was so embarrassed (probably because he said he'd never done anything like this before) and it was too cute not to point out.
I took my free hand and poked his cheek as i laughed at his embarrassed expression. "oh gosh Junhoe, you're a total cheeseball!" i pointed out as i took in the fact he was sooo into the whole romantic stuff.
"yah! stop teasing me!" he yelled as he walked faster, dragging me along
"okok dw i wont tell the other guys" i winked as he finally slowed down and let us walk side by side instead of pulling me forward.
We looked at more animals and all the trees around us while we moved closer to the end of the park. junhoe took his phone out of his pocket and started to take pictures of me playing in the leaves.
"junhoe enough of the pictures! come play tag with me!" i yelled as i ran deeper into the park, trying to run away from him (who was obviously 'IT')
Unfortunately Junhoe was wayyy too fast and caught up to me in a couple seconds
"LOL you suck at this game!" he said as he was inches away from tagging me
"NO! stop! go away!!!" i laughed as i dodged all of his hits
He didnt realize how fast he was running until he caught up to me and we both fell from the force of his 'tag'
We laid on the ground laughing our heads off at how much fun the game was. Both of us were looking up at the sky, breathing heavily as we tried to catch our breath.
"that was fun" i said as i took several deep breaths of air
"yea" Junhoe replied as he focused his gaze at the birds flying above us
As i tried to get up, Junhoe rolled over so that his face was only inches away from me. Both of us still breathing heavily, but now i could feel my heart beating faster too.
"dont hate me for doing this" he whispered as he closed his eyes, tilted his face and moved in closer for a kiss.
"wait!" i flinched away from him. He opened his eyes and we both just looked at each other for a minute.
If i had let Junhoe kiss me right now..... this would have been my first kiss. I dont know why i hesitated. I mean, we were in the perfect area, he was a really nice guy and ive grown to like him even more now than i did before.... but something was bugging me.... i just didnt know what.
Junhoe layed back down and looked at the sky once more as he let out a pitiful laugh..... "i guess i went too fast uh?" he said while still avoiding my stare
A few more minutes of silence passed.
He got up and brushed the leaves off his jacket, and walked towards me, holding out his hand to help me up. "come on, im sure the rest of the guys are still practicing, let's go back. its getting late"
I silently reached out for his hand and got up myself, before we began our walk back to the practice room. We were even quieter now than when we walked here in the morning..................
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Junhoe was right, the guys were still practising once we got back. As we entered the practice room all eyes were on us.
"oooooo look the love birds are back!" bobby joked as the rest of the guys laughed
I looked around to see hanbin completely ignoring Bobby's remark and focusing on something on his laptop. Junhoe and i both took our jackets off and settled in with everyone. He went back to practice the choreo that the rest of the guys were learning while i sat on the couch avoiding eye contact with every human in the room.
For the next hour Hanbin taught the guys the new choreo they needed to learn for their song, and for some reason Hanbin was losing his temper much faster every time someone made a mistake
"Jinhwan! how many times do i have to tell you, make sure your steps match the beat!!!!!" Hanbin wasnt playing around today
"NO! Yunhyeong that's not what you're supposed to do right now!" He yelled some more
after a couple hours of practising and several failed attempts of learning the dance moves, it seemed like he was at his limit
"ok screw it. Practice is over. Go home guys i cant take this anymore" Hanbin moved towards his laptop and turned the music off while the rest of the guys wiped their sweat off as others whined at how sore and tired they were
Slowly the guys picked up their stuff and left the room. I said my goodbyes as i helped each one up and gave them a small "cheer" to keep their spirits up.
Soon only Hanbin and i were left in the room and i was kind of afraid to say anything to him. Something was clearly bugging him and i felt like it was only right to ask him if he was alright.
"damn Hanbin dont you think you were a bit too hard on the guys today?" i joked trying to sense how bad hanbin’s aura was right now
Hanbin ignored my comment as he packed his laptop in his backpack, and started to move towards his jacket.
i quickly ran ahead of him and blocked his way to his jacket in hopes that he would give me his attention.
"why are you so grumpy today?" i joked once more while trying to examine his cold expression
"move jen"
"how about you make me" i teased trying to get him to laugh or show any sign of happiness
Without a second to think, Hanbin pushed me aside to get to his jacket.
"yah! Hanbin! wth was that!" i said as i tried to ignore the fact he almost pushed me to the ground
hanbin still wasnt giving me any of his attention as he put his jacket on. his attitude was pissing me off now and i wasnt gunna let him leave without giving me an explanation for his rude behaviour.
"are you really gunna act like this now? without even telling me what's wrong" i asked as he took his backpack and started to leave the room.
"HANBIN!" i yelled one last time
He paused....... i had finally got his attention.
"why are you here jen. shouldnt you be with your boyfriend"
"my boyfriend? is this seriously it? you're acting like a douche because of Junhoe?" He turned around now only to see how angry i really was. "and just an fyi he's not my boyfriend you idiot"
Hanbin let out a cold chuckle..... one that reminded me of how he was when we first met. "so that's it uh?" he said as he stood nodding his head
"what? what's it?" i asked for an explanation
"you just play with everyone’s emotions dont you" he started to laugh at his own statement.
His words were cold and heartless, something i wasnt expecting from him, especially after how well we were doing now.
"hanbin you asshole, that's not true" i, myself was getting frustrated by this conversation now.
Two can play this hateful game Hanbin
"and why does it even matter to you uh?" i yelled
"you know what... you're right. it doesnt matter.......it shouldnt.......just....... stay away from me" Hanbin slowly took a few steps backwards until he turned around and left me in the room alone......
just stay away from me? why did his words hurt so much