Aug 2
i dont wanna be alone tonight im literally so needy to be used n i want someone to get me snacks n watch movies with me
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i dont wanna be alone tonight im literally so needy to be used n i want someone to get me snacks n watch movies with me
I like,,, really wanna draw phm and maybe iron lung fanart but my art skills have been so dead for so long 😭😭
Curse myself for not practicing like my fiance constantly tells me to!!!! Stupid stupid stupid!! I wanna draw rocky and other eridians without them looking like BLOBS!!!
Seriously I've already made eridian versions of my ocs in my mind but since I CANT DRAWWW they're just existing in the void with no references :sob:
I just wanna draw my little guys being little guys and annoying the SHIT out of teacher grace SIGH
Not a headcanon, but I want more fossil Pokémon!
Gimme sabertooths! Short-faced bears! Deinonychus! Mosasaurs! Hadrosaurs! Iguanodons! Thylacoleos! Stegosaurs! Psittacosaurus! Icthyosaurus! Terror birds!
Please give me a new fossil Pokémon!
I've said it before and I'll say it again.
If Tuah was trying to prevent Booker from using Nile to become mortal A THREE WAY SPARING MATCH WITH LIVE BLADES IS THE WORST PLAN EVER!!
He's supposed to be a military genius now with several thousand of years of research under his belt!!!!
I shouldn't be smarter than him
...Writing Slice of Life SUUUUUUUCKS! 😭 Like, how am I supposed to handle pacing if my characters aren't in fear of their life for 75% of the story?!
How long should I linger in one moment before moving on to the next? What will bore my readers, and what will feed those angst/fluff-devouring goobers (affectionate) a delicious meal? 🍽️
These are the things I now contemplate as I attempt to build at least a four chapter buffer on my current fic.✍🏻🤔
I only have 40 mins left of work but I'm dying, dying I tell you. When will my suffering end??? I mean probably in 40 mins but still.
I don't feel like I'm good enough at even something as simple as being interested in topics. It seems like everyone else on tumblr has like vast WELLS of knowledge of the subjects they love but I'm not like more than surface level on anything. Horse toys? Yeah I like breyers and mlps and grand champoins but I'm not a customizer and I haven't even bothered to remember the names of all my ponies or every breyer sculpt. Yeah I like horses but I'm not like a damn-near veterinary level expert. I know some coat colors and some basic facts... :[ I feel like the stereotypical "Not a true fan" or whatever fandom bs terminology could be applied to me. I COULD spend hours researching shit but like... my hyperfocus doesn't work like that. Idk if I even can get hyperfocused on shit anymore. I'm all 100% executive dysfunction nowadays. And also like... that's effort and Imma lazy fuck and I'm just tired. x-x I'd rather just play my stupid little internet games and reblog things because it's low effort and easy. I still LIKE *inset thing* and I still love learning about *insert thing* but just... its' hard to put into words. I'm lowkey envious that everybody has such super rich interests and super deep knowledge bases when I can't even muster up the effort to read a book or draw anymore. But it's also more of an admiration too "That so damn cool you know this much about that subject! Tell me more! Teach me! I wish I knew so much about a subject I could teach a class on it!" I feel so basic and un-specialized and it does a number on my self-esteem.
I miss Joanne Fabrics. So much. This sucks.
