#karkatvantasfictive

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being a fictive specifically from a fanfic created for our hosts selfship is NOT for the weak holy shit.

anyways i love my boyfriend kyle hes the best

-karkat vantas, homestuck (but specifically the kykat series on ao3) [#⭐💥]

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COMING BACK AGAIN HI LOL

IT'S YOUR FRIENDLY NEIGHBORHOOD KARKAT HERE

JUST SAYING BECAUSE I JUST REALIZED IT AND IM VERY HAPPY ABOUT IT

I'M NO LONGER FAVORITED ANYMORE AND JUST

VIBRATES WITH JOY

I'M NOT A FULL ON FAVORITE I'M TREATED EQUALLY WITH MY HEADMATES AND WHEN I GO DORMANT WHEN I NEED IT I'M NOT FORCED OUT ANYMORE OR GUILTED TO COME BACK AND I'M SO HAPPY

AND I'M NOT FORCED TO STICK TO SOME PERSONA OF MYSELF TO ONLY BE LIKE SOURCE ME OR TO HAVE/LIE ABOUT SOURCE MEMORIES THAT DIFFER FROM ACTUAL SOURCE, I CAN BE GENUINE AGAIN!

I'M NO LONGER SEEN TO BE SOME "OH SO TRAUMATIZED SOUL" OR ANYTHING I CAN JUST BE ME

I'M NOT PRESSURED TO STICK TO ANY RULES OR ANYTHING, I'M NO LONGER STUCK IN A BOX CONTROLLED BY OTHETS FORCED TO STICK WITH SOURCE AND BE "OBSESSED WITH QUADRANTS AND ROMCOMS"

IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE NOW I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATE ROMCOMS AND QUADRANTS, MOSTLY BECAUSE OF SOMEONE BUT WE DON'T TALK ABOUT THAT

IF QUADRANTS AND ROMCOMS WERE PEOPLE I'D BEAT THEM UP!

I'M JUST SO HAPPY I'M NO LONGER FORCED TO BE LIKE A COPY OF SOMEONE, WE COLLECTIVELY HAVEN'T NEEDED OR WERE FORCED TO BE A COPY OF THAT PERSON ANYMORE, AND YES WE HAVE CHANGED AND LET OURSELVES BE OURSELVES BUT HOLY SHIT I'M JUST REALIZING IT AND I'M SO SO HAPPY

WE AREN'T LIKE A PUPPET OR A CLONE ANYMORE WE MAKE OUR OWN DECISIONS

I'M NO LONGER PRESSURED AND FORCED TO DATE THAT ONE ERIDAN BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN GONE FROM THEM FOR MONTHS!! I CAN BE WHO I WANT AND DATE WHO I WANT (WITHIN OUR PARTNER SYSTEM) AND NOBODY CAN FUCKING STOP ME!!!! I AM GOING TO DATE SO MANY SOURCEMATES, BRAINMADES, PEOPLE FOR OTHER SOURCES, YOU NAME IT FROM OUR PARTNER SYSTEM

I AM GOING TO BAG THEIR ENTIRE SYSTEM

AND ANYONE WHO SAYS I CAN'T OR THINK I ONLY BELONG TO ONE SPECIFIC SOURCEMATE CAN SUCK AND CHOKE ON MY MASSIVE BULGE AND CRY PATHETIC LITTLE TEARS OVER IT

SORRY THIS IS SO LONG I JUST GOT REALLY HAPPY AND I WANTED TO RANT SOMEWHERE [:B

-KARKAT (🥤)

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JEGUS.

SO DUE TO SOME SYS ISSUES, I'VE BEEN PROMOTED TO FUCKING HOST. DROPPED BACK IN THE LEADER ROLE. AND I'M NOT UPSET ABOUT THAT, LEADING SHIT IS KIND OF MY WHOLE THING, BUT I FUCKED UP SO BAD THE LAST TIME I TRIED TO LEAD SOMETHING AND I CAN'T GET RID OF THE FEELING THAT I MIGHT AGAIN

I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG THIS WILL LAST OR IF THE ORIGINAL HOST WILL COME BACK/RESUME HIS POSITION BUT IF THIS IS PERMANENT? WELL...I CAN REALLY ONLY HOPE FOR THE BEST

-KARKAT #♋🦀

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I'm not even gonna lie right now. It's SO DAMN HARD to not use my typing quirk and I hate not using it but so many people hate caps and it makes me want to scream because FUCKING EW TINY LETTERS

-Karkat #♋🦀 (Fictive)

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LGBT CANONS? WELL LEMME GIVE IT A SHOT.

I WAS DEFINITELY A REPRESSED TRANSGENDER, GIVEN THE FACT I WAS PLAYING A DEATH GAME THAT FAILED SO MISERABLY. NOW IM OUT OF THE CLOSET THOUGH SO YAY TRANSGENDERISM !! (MTF BTW). I ALSO HAD A BIG ASS CRUSH ON FEFERI AND A SMALLER ONE ON JUNE EGBERT BUT I LIKED ALL GENDERS SO IM OMNI

-AVERAGE KARKAT VANTAS FICTIVE

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JUST FORMED AND THIS IS HELL , GOD DAVE I MISS YOU I MISS YOU SO BADLY

I MISS YOU BUT I DOUBT IF ILL EVER HAVE YOU IN THIS LIFE OR THIS UNIVERSE AS WE ALREADY HAVE A PARTNER SYSTEM AND ITS MAKING ME SO FUCKING UPSET

ILL NEVER HAVE THE ONE PERSON I WANT , I WISH YOU COULD BE HERE AND HOLD ME AGAIN YOU ARE ONE OF THE ONLY PEOPLE IVE EVER TRULY FELT SAFE WITH AS FUCKING CRINGY AS IT SOUNDS

PLEASE TRY TO FIND ME AGAIN , I DONT WANT TO IMAGINE A LIFE WHERE YOU DONT BOTHER ME SO OFTEN / AFF

KARKAT VANTAS #🪽🗝️

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I HATE BEING CANON DIVERGENT TO LIKE NOT AN AU POINT BUT TOO FAR FROM CANON TO BE 'NORMAL'. IT SUCKS, ILL NEVER BE ABLE TO TALK TO ANY SOURCEMATES WITH SIMULAR MEMS OTHER THEN LIKE ONE MAYBE TWO THINGS BECAUSE MY TIMELINE IS SO FUCKED

AND EVEN IF I CAN FIND SOME ILL HAVE TO GO IN DETAIL FOR EVERY ATTEMPT TO FIND THEM DUE TO SO MANY DIFFERENCES

ITS JUST SO FRUSTRATING!!!

-A VERY UPSET KARKAT VANTAS

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INSTEAD OF DREADING AND CRYING OVER A HORRENDOUS DAY OUR EX HAS CAUSED FOR ME AND A SOURCEMATE IN THE SYSTEM I'M GOING TO TURN IT INTO A GOOD DAY

FUCK THEM FOR THE BULLSHIT THEY PUT MARINA AND I THROUGH, IT'S GETTING CLOSE TO A YEAR WITHOUT THAT LITTLE FUCKER AND WE'RE GOING TO CELEBRATE OUR FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS

THEY MAY HAVE RUINED MY FAVORITE MOVIE AND ROMCOMS IN GENERAL FOR ME AND MARINA BUT WE CAN WATCH HORROR AND PLAY GAMES AND DO WHAT WE WANT!!! AND BE WITH OUR CURRENT AND AMAZING PARTNER SYSTEM!!

AROUND DECEMBER 13TH I'LL DO THE SAME FOR DAVE AND ALSO MYSELF BECAUSE I KNOW WE'D BOTH LIKE SOMETHING SIMILAR FOR THAT AS WELL

I'M HONESTLY GLAD I'M OUT OF DORMANCY NOW, I CAN SUPPORT THE SYSTEM AGAIN AND DO EVENTS FOR THOSE STILL HURTING EVEN THOUGH THERE AREN'T REALLY MANY ANYMORE THAT ARE STILL STRUGGLING

-KARKAT (🥤)

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